My teacher

21

As I was walking towards the counseling room, a little distance away from Ji-seong, Ji-seong turned around and looked at me.

Then, he buttons his shirt one by one.

윤지성

...if you were trying to make me angry, you succeeded.

여주

..That's not it.

And he avoided Ji-seong's gaze.

Then, Ji-seong, who was looking at me, walked back into the consulting room.

I followed Ji-seong in, grumbling in annoyance.

윤지성

...look at me

여주

If I look at it now... I feel like crying.

As I was talking, I looked away and Ji-seong grabbed my hand.

윤지성

it's hard?

여주

....

윤지성

Sorry..

Sigh... I think I'm going to cry today because the teacher is annoying me.

Eventually, the emotions that I had been holding back even to my lips burst out.

여주

What is it?

여주

I'm not saying this to apologize right now.

여주

I don't like it when teachers hear things like that.

The sight of having to stand in front of them as if you weren't hurt, even though you knew what they were talking about.

여주

It's just hard, teacher... he's human too..

여주

Rather than being upset because of me, get angry at me.

여주

That would be more comfortable...

I feel anxious because I feel like I'm going to get tired and leave.

Sometimes, a smiling face is more unstable than a crying face.

In fact, I wonder if it's because I want to escape this situation more than anyone else..

여주

... are you leaving?

여주

That's okay, I understand.

What words are you spitting out in your pent-up emotions?

I'm spitting out words I can't contain.

The teacher, whose expression had been hardening, opened his mouth.

윤지성

...It's not that you want to stop seeing me because you're having a hard time, right..?

여주

....

I couldn't answer.

윤지성

...If that's what you think...I'll think about it...Go to class..

A face full of scars

Ji-seong lets go of the hand he was holding and looks at me

I fixed my gaze on that face, got up, and left the consultation room.

And when you enter the class, you see the medical equipment and the nebula

여주

under...

하성운

what's the matter?

여주

Damn... why are you guys... so late...

강의건

Yeoju...hey

In the end, when I was crying silently in Seong-un's arms, Ui-geon asked what was happening.

I just kept crying without saying anything.