One day, I got a call from a friend from my past.
Ep 62. One day, I got a call from a friend from the past.
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Swish
Swish—
The dawn is breaking dimly
I opened my eyes in an unfamiliar room.
I turned my stiff head and looked at the structure of the room, and it seemed like I knew where it was, but
A sharp headache, as if it didn't want me to know, made me realize the reality.
The blanket I was under just now was soft but a little bit rough, as if I had just taken it out of the closet.
The faint scent of alcohol tickling my nose made me think that it was probably my fault yesterday, and I opened the blanket.
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...Ugh, ah..
My throat was so sore I couldn't make a sound. I couldn't have slept cold.
Or maybe it was because I woke up so early, but my whole body felt heavy like a wet cotton ball.
The words that began to float around in my head were jumbled together.
No matter how much I think about it, I don't have the courage to step out of that door.
There are times when people put iron plates on their faces,
I walked across the quiet living room, the blue dawn light streaming in.
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Tick tock, since when has it been making this noise? Annoyingly, it's the price I pay for making eye contact with the clock I've just met.
The fact that it is now 4:38 a.m., and that it is still early in the morning. And
Squeak
Squeak—
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윤기어머님
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In this house, I was forced to look into my old conscience, which I had tried to hide without a sound.
Even though my appearance was completely absurd, I was old enough to be able to discern the importance of the situation, so I avoided showing my butt there.
I'm so glad I didn't run into my aunt in the shoe closet.
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...Ah... uh, uh... ah...
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Phone, phone... uh, how...
...well done,
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I swallowed the afterwords with a clear conscience. I'd already realized my topic a few hours ago.
But what's hurting in this situation is my cell phone, which is still on the living room table.
A kind of worry flashed through my head, wondering how I should take this...or leave it here.
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윤기어머님
did you sleep well?
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...Yes..? Ah, ...Yes, ah..
윤기어머님
I tried to get you a new blanket, but I'm not sure if it was okay. ...You weren't cold, were you?
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And she was embarrassed to be caught thinking that way while we were facing each other.
It's surprisingly warm today too.
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윤기어머님
I called yesterday,
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It was like a dream. ...Really,
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..ugh,so...this, this..cell phone..! I think it would be good to put it here....
The words came out in a stammering, ugly way.
윤기어머님
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윤기어머님
It's yours, what, ...ah, the phone...
윤기어머님
..I'm fine, one phone call yesterday was more than enough
윤기어머님
It's your phone, so you have to take good care of it.
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I felt strange.
No, to be honest, it's closer to the feeling of wanting to cry?
She took a step back from the reality that was difficult to handle, and she gave me mixed feelings.
...Is this what an adult looks like? Or is this what a grown mother looks like?
She approached me like that while I was standing there unable to answer, and once again,
He gave me an overflowing warm embrace.
윤기어머님
I'll make you some honey water. Eat it and go.
윤기어머님
...It's probably hard to sleep well here, so...go home and sleep.
윤기어머님
Don't take it too seriously, lady. ...I'm better than you think.
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_one side,
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....ha...
Here's someone with a face like melted, sticky candy.
I couldn't sleep, so I put a piece of candy in my mouth. It smelled sweet, but I don't know why my throat felt so bitter.
...Am I just constantly having useless thoughts?
For some, it is the past, but for me, it is a reality that has arrived right before my eyes and a future I have never imagined.
The contradiction of constantly considering my present self as the past has been tormenting me for several years.
Like candy that sticks tenaciously to a melted plastic bag and won't budge no matter how hard you try to hit it,
Every minute, every hour, I feel like I'm floating, floating in an ambiguous space of time, neither past nor future.
I don't want to think so, but circumstances always force me to dwell on a future I've never experienced before.
What is it that makes the voices of so many people who have fallen ring in my ears?
In the end, I felt sick because I was picturing it in my head again, regretting it, and repeating it again.
...I wonder if it's the price I paid for putting my life on the line, but then I reach out to the fact that my existence is a hope that those who are precious to me want to hold onto.
To be patient, to try to be patient. To that extent.
I foolishly thought I could endure that much, so I lived with it for several years.
I know very well that even those few years will be a piece of longing for someone,
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....under..
I lay in bed and raised one arm to block the hot fluorescent light.
Well, in this world, the person who loves more always loses.
What Do Yeo-ju is trying to hide,
..I don't know the exact form of what it is, but I know that in the end, he is carrying it because his heart that thinks of me is bigger than mine.
It's a video even without watching it. That makes me even crazier.
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It's a foolish hope to the end, but he
I wish you would never know that I'm giving in.
No, I wish you would have known a little—.
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