One step to you

Can't You Love Me? (Jeonghansim 1/2)

A set point in time.

At first it was just fun.

My friend, Lee Seo-yeon, was just so-so.

Smiling eyes, a face that shows all kinds of emotions, and the awkward feelings of love unfolding before your eyes.

She seemed a little funny and a little amusing.

When I found out about her feelings for Seungcheol, the look on her face really said it all.

At first, I wanted to tease him. It felt like I was the main character in a scenario where he was shaking up that common relationship.

But those eyes, too innocent and honest to be dismissed as just a pastime for the boring days, remained in my memory.

The feeling that felt like just a game gradually gained weight.

정한

"ha...."

One-sided feelings. Seoyeon and Seungcheol's relationship has always been like that.

Seungcheol thought of her as just “my close sister,” and Seoyeon thought of Seungcheol as “the person I love.”

I couldn't even imagine the feelings she must have had for so long, unable to even bring herself to say them out loud.

At first it was interesting, but soon I started to worry.

The small emotion grew like a huge tree, and at some point, it filled me up.

That night, you were trying to confess to Seungcheol at the bar... You cried and hugged me as I tried to stop you, and I held you tightly.

At that time, I couldn't let you go anymore.

Going back, I couldn't deny myself that I had held your hand.

The cocktail I was drinking while sitting across from you. The look in your eyes. You might not have noticed.

How exciting all those moments were for me.

The night I gave you my love, my heart screamed every time your hand lightly brushed mine.

As I watched your face from the side looking up at the stars, I thought your face was more splendid than the stars.

정한

“My heart is racing, I’m going crazy…”

You may not have known it, but when I sent you away that day, I tried with every fiber of my being to give up on you. But I couldn't.

It was a cruel fate that the person I like and the person you like were both members of the same group.

I was about to give up, but after practice, I happened to see you sitting alone in a cafe.

My heart lifted its head again.

Ah, I've come to love you. I can't give you up.

And from that moment on, I avoided it. It was because my heart had grown too big.

Seungcheol ended up making you cry, and watching that scene left me breathless. I hated myself for not being able to protect you.

정한

“…Want to go eat Jjamppong? I’m craving something spicy.”

이서연

"yes?"

Seoyeon. At that moment, every time you called my name to apologize, my heart was torn apart.

I should have turned away instead of hugging you back then. But I couldn't let you go. In the end, I held onto you and walked through the night streets.

On that road, you burst into tears. It was as if something you had been holding back had crumbled.

I made up my mind after seeing that sight.

I couldn't just leave you crying. I held you, caressed you, and whispered to you to cry in my arms.

I embraced you, even though I was a sinner, with a heart that I couldn't have.

Even at that moment, my heart swelled as I held you. My face flushed, every sense reacting.

I wanted to talk.

정한

'Can't you... love me..?'

But I couldn't say anything. Instead, I reassured you with other words and let you go.

After finishing the meal, I saw your smiling face and decided again.

Seeing you so happy made me realize that this is the path that leads you there.

My decision was arduous. I couldn't give you up, so I had to force myself to stay.

정한

“…I’m sorry, junior. I don’t think I can help you anymore.”

Your expression instantly hardened.

But I can't support your love anymore. I can't support your love with another man. I'm sorry.

I want to be by your side, but I feel like helping you do well with other people would be so painful that the wounds would open and even bleed.