Pat pat
Tomorrow too
Mom and Dad
I have something to tell mom and dad
Let's get started
Mom, Dad, I'm not as smart as you.
Even if you go to 5 or 6 academies
I'm just stressed
It didn't always happen
Mom and Dad
Don't force happiness on me
The happiness that mom and dad talk about
It's too difficult for me
That's the happiness that Mom and Dad are talking about.
I live in a 2-3 story house
Dozens of expensive Japanese teas
Adorning your entire body with jewels and luxury brands
Happiness is when your wallet is full of checks
If that's what makes me happy
I'll give up happiness
I'm sorry, Mom and Dad
It's very different from the happiness I was talking about.
The happiness I spoke of
One fried egg in the morning is good
Laughing
When I go outside, it's sunny and I feel good.
Having coffee with friends
Laughing and talking
My happiness is mom and dad
Mom and Dad
I go up to the rooftop every night
It's going up
I feel like the world has turned its back on me, I'm tired and exhausted
It feels like everyone has let go of my hand
Nobody cares about me
It feels like I'm only focused on studying
When you want to put everything down
Rooftop mask
A beautiful night view welcomes me
The cool breeze makes me smile
And then
Sometimes I get lost in deep thought
What happens when I die
My mom said that when I was little
'Mom is a doctor, so she can cure anything.'
I believed that
He said he would cure mental illness too.
And I endured it
I made butter
No matter how much you long for me
I held back
Even if my tears obscure my eyes
I wiped it and got up again
But I found out too quickly
That a disease of the mind cannot be cured
Now that I know that
It was so hard
The world pushes me away
If you fall
I don't think I'll ever get up again
Even if I fall apart,
Even if I fall from the roof,
Even if a gun goes through my heart,
Even if a knife is stuck in my body
Don't cry, mom and dad
I don't want to see Mom and Dad cry.
I don't like it
I can't do this anymore
No matter how many good quotes I find and read,
No matter how much medicine I take
What will heal me?
Mom and Dad
They're all saying this so that I can do well.
I know too
But the words "do well" become arrows
Keep stabbing my heart
Mom and Dad sometimes block arrows
I also wished you would be my shield
But mom and dad are not shields
It was an arrow
I was a shield that had to block arrows.
I hate shields
It's heavy and hard
Like a stone
The stones were kicked by people
Throw it into the water
Even if I step on it
Consistent
Mom and Dad
You know what?
Shields and stones later
Everything is broken
Because of people and nature
But why do I look like a stone?
I am displayed like an ornamental stone for people to look at.
Studying and relationships are trampling on me
A stone becomes stronger when you throw it.
however
The stone next to me is broken
Mom and Dad
I'm so tired
When my daughter is tired and worn out
Let me rest for a while
Just say something to ask if it's okay
Mom, I just looked in the mirror.
I'm smiling
very bright
But the mirror means the opposite
I really hate the world
When things get tough and you want to put everything down
Hold it with one finger
That makes me pause
Go back to my bed
Go to sleep
Waiting for tomorrow
Tomorrow I'll be on the rooftop again
My friends say so
If it's hard, tell me
But
I didn't want to talk
If you know my pain
I'm afraid you'll laugh at me
I'm afraid I'll spread rumors
I'm afraid I'll leave
Mom and Dad
Sorry
I'm not who my mom and dad want me to be
To become the person I want to be
I'm having a hard time
If it collapses
Mom and Dad are my shields
Just stop me once
I will also prepare a stronger shield
It'll be over soon
I will become strong
As the world becomes stronger
I need to become stronger too
That's not how you endure it
I'm sure you can do it
I love you mom and dad
And I'm sorry
Because I'm such a bad daughter
I will find my happiness
Sorry
Don't cry too much
I'll find it soon and get stronger
Mom and Dad
i love you
This is the author's story so far.
You guys also read this article
I hope the wound gets better a little
I hope this will soothe your weary mind a little.
I hope you feel more confident
Don't live your life conforming to the world too much.
You become the world
Lead the way
cheer up
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