Someone take me... [Seventeen]

#45 Someone take me...

While Sunyoung was living well, going to school and such...

The members... didn't seem to be living very well.

Well, it would be strange to be doing well after someone who was like family left.

I didn't know it when I had it, but now that I've let it go, I feel like I didn't do everything for it, so I'm sad...

But really, regret is so fucking scary

I'm in so much pain in my heart that I feel like I'm going to die, but there's nothing I can do.

The members were practically wrecked to the point where they couldn't even finish their schedules for several days...

I tried to talk to Sunyoung somehow, but

It seems like the number has already been changed, and Instagram has already blocked us.

I looked through all the other SNS but I couldn't find Sunyoung..

No matter how many times I call or send messages...

I think Sunyoung has already changed her mind

At that time, Sunyoung -

Kwaruk Kwaruk

High school students smiling brightly in the future...

Well, it seems like everyone is smiling everywhere.

As you know, that laughter is Sunyoung's

When was the last time I laughed like that with the members?

If I have time to indulge in sad thoughts like this,

Because the kids were talking to me and making noise next to me

We were so busy that we didn't even have time to think.

To be honest, I was a little worried about school.

Because my memories of school last year were still terrible..

But it's more fun than I thought... no, it seems much more fun

I used to play with my friends and secretly use KakaoTalk on my phone during class.

During break time, we all sit together and chat,

Five minutes before lunchtime, I put one leg out on the desk and wait for the bell to ring.

Running around like crazy and falling down...

All those little things are so fun

There are scenes that are not like those seen in real dramas or movies.

It's so funny to think that I'm doing that right now, really

So, like usual, I was secretly chatting with the kids during class.

I got a text from my brothers

Oh, of course, not once or twice, almost every day..

Sometimes I feel like I'm getting a phone call...

At first I was thinking about receiving it, but then I decided to wait.

Then I read the text...

To be honest, at first, the texts were obviously like, "Why did you suddenly leave?" and "Come back."

I thought it would be a text like that at best...

No, it wasn't....

The most common word was sorry,

They did something wrong, so please come and listen to what they have to say just once.

I know you don't want to talk to us... I know this sounds like an excuse, but...

I wanted to tell you something, I think you were so sad and miserable by yourself

It was an apology to me, saying that I was sorry and regretful.

순영

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순영

Teacher... I need to go to the bathroom for a bit.

And he quickly ran out of the classroom.

Well, as everyone knows, I didn't really want to go to the bathroom.

I just needed some time alone...

I don't care at all.. I just want to be alone

Now, I am a different person and I tried to live well.

What should I do if I do this....

What should I do...

I ran out because I didn't want to show my tears flowing like crazy.

That seems right

I guess I read the text for nothing...

I just wanted to live well... but when I think about it

Couldn't I have lived well without my brothers in the first place?

Saying it's nothing... I guess that's a lie

Just.. a little no.. a lot.. very sad

Come to think of it, it's been a while since I received this text

The day after I left the accommodation...

Yeah, I hope you're doing well now...

And I tried to forget those people from my mind, almost like they were brainwashing me.

Because those kinds of people don't get along with me.

I guess I'll just have to live my life missing you so much...

Please come out on TV with a brighter look soon..

You are the ones that the young Kwon Soon-young used to see

To me, they must be infinitely wonderful people.

I'll love you for the rest of my life, so live well, hyungs..

And I finished organizing my thoughts.

I was thinking of sending a reply with something like that

I stopped because I didn't think we should keep in touch...

I'll just cry a little today...

Just... let's be sad until today, Kwon Soon-young...