suicide note

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[ Violence increases from this episode onwards ]

[ I recommend that people with trauma not watch it ]

After class, the girls in Younghyun's group cornered me into a corner of the playground.

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Oh, why is that...

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Why are you sitting next to Younghyun?

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Don't play with Younghyun

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What if that weird thing on your leg gets passed on to Younghyun?

The girls surrounded me, cussed at me, and pushed me down.

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Ugh..

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Get out of here!

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Why did you transfer!!

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It's really annoying

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....

It was from this time on,

Just keep silent, that'll do.

If I just keep my mouth shut, it'll stop someday

I started living a foolish life thinking like that,

Money is money,

If it's preparation, it's preparation,

Even expensive birthday gifts that you don't want to give

What you want, what you hope for

Without missing a single one

All done

At home too

If it's studying, then studying,

If it's exercise, exercise,

If you fast, fast,

Cleaning the cleaning surface,

Washing dishes, housework

Errands, homework...

I'm groaning alone, carrying the burden on top of me.

I drag myself to the floor,

It kept me avoiding reality and driving me to the edge of a cliff.

2nd grade elementary school,

Today, I got hit by the kids and went home.

I thought about 'suicide'.

I suffered from insomnia because I often stayed up all night doing homework.

I was taking sleeping pills.

I looked at the medicine bottle that was on the desk.

Bring some water,

I split the sleeping pills and ate the whole bottle.

(( Of course, this is one can minus what I usually eat.

I lay down on the bed.

My mind became increasingly hazy and my eyes closed.

They say that when you die, your life flashes before your eyes.

No.

When I first attempted suicide,

I thought, this is happiness.