suicide note

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정예린

iced coffee..

For some reason, I didn't die

For some reason, I shed tears.

When I woke up, there was a cell phone next to me.

When I turn on my phone

It seemed like I woke up a little less than a month later.

With a bitter smile

I kept trying to wipe away the flowing tears.

And from then on, I relied on online services and wrote my articles on my phone.

I cried a lot while writing it,

I've been caught by my parents so many times that I don't have any left now.

And then, as I was moving up to the second grade, I started writing my essays online using an application.

정예린

evil..!

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Be quiet!

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The mental pain we went through because of you...? It's nothing in the rain!!

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Younghyun hates you

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But why do you keep sitting next to him?

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it's annoying..

When the bullying from other children continued and I had no friends,

The teacher kept putting me in the same class, group, and seat next to Younghyun.

Because of this, the bullying got worse and continued.

I get stepped on and hit every day

Even though I study every night,

I like writing, so I carved out 30 minutes of sleep to write.

Even in that situation,

At the end of each day, I wrote about hope and gratitude.

Because it wasn't completely ruined until then,

It's school again,

And again, misfortune.

Today, when I heard that we would meet after school, I felt like I was suffocating.

What on earth did I do wrong?

What on earth have I done to harm you?

I shed tears,

I held it in for a long time.

No matter how much I struggle, it's all for naught

Even if I struggle from below, I'll just get trampled more.

After school, I was dragged to a corner of the computer lab.

When I went there, I saw Younghyun.

Did he notice that Younghyun and I were childhood friends?

He pushed me, hit me, and stomped on me right there.

It was embarrassing.

It was very embarrassing.

Younghyun still looked at me with contemptuous eyes

It was the same for other children.

I'm so hurt and ashamed that I'm about to cry,

I bit my tongue and held back my tears, afraid that crying would make me even more miserable.

And from then on, the kids completely ruined me.