suicide note

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...where am I..

I opened my eyes with difficulty,

Jiwon Lee was seen.

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Support?

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You.. you, n, you..

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Is this really Baek Ji-won..?

Jiwon just nodded

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J, Jiwon...

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I was wrong back then..

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I was really stupid,

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I, I was really selfish.

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So come here,,

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Let's go to my house, eat something delicious, and play like we used to. Please. Okay?

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You don't want to come? If you don't want to come, should I go?

As I took a step towards Jiwon,

Jiwon said with tears in her eyes.

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..I was watching everything

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Yerin, don't come...

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You shouldn't come here,

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you...

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You can shine brightly there too,

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Because you will be loved there too...

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You too, you too can shine here... you can be loved...

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..I am not welcome there,

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Who, who said that..

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...someone said that.. haha

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Jiwon,,, please let us do this again...

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Why don't we get along like we used to...

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Me too, me too, I want to do that...

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.. I'm sorry, Yerin.

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hi...

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No, no, don't go... please...

Jiwon turned to dust and disappeared.

I belatedly hugged Jiwon from where she was standing,

What can we do about the support that has already disappeared?

I sat down again and started crying,

A voice is heard.

"Yerin... how is your condition?"

"The treatment is over, but he refuses to wake up."

"ah..."

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.....

When I woke up,

The hospital, and next to it,

I thought he was my real older brother, but he was the older brother I was tutoring who had fallen asleep.

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....

His face frowned slightly.

Just as I was about to leave the hospital room, that guy grabbed me.

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Why did you suddenly collapse?

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.. I don't know, that side

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We are just giving and receiving tutoring, nothing more, nothing less, lol

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No, maybe even less than that,

I left the hospital room.

I immediately told the nurse that I was being discharged.

I went back home.

When I got home, I played my girlfriend's song on my phone,

I wrote down what I saw in my diary.

That event was so vivid

And then I started writing through a mobile phone app.

I got a lot of attention there.

That played a part in deciding my dream to become a 'writer'.

I promise to make that dream come true,

One post every day,

I uploaded consistently.

(Not a fanfic...)

Although not many people watched it,

I've made some close friends and readers.

I laughed for that reason,

There were no suicide attempts or self-harm,

One day...

There was a malicious comment.

I just passed it by without thinking much about it

It may have been passed over as nothing.

And that's...

Because it was just the beginning,,,,