The deepening wounds of the heart

50. Alone

[Yuna's Perspective]

I came home

But there was no one.

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Is that why....

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The fact that I shed tears...

Because you're lonely?

Because you're in pain?

Because it's hard?

disconsolate?

I don't know either.

I don't know why I'm crying...

The spacious house looked somehow empty and lonely,

I looked miserable, too.

This house where I am alone

This space where I am alone,

I was originally used to it...

I was fine....

Why do these tears keep flowing so cluelessly...

I'm not sure when these tears will stop.

I just sat on the sofa and wiped away the tears that kept flowing.

perhaps...

I'm sick too...

I'm having a hard time too...

I'm getting tired too...

I'm sad too...

That I care about Eunbi

I feel like they didn't care about my feelings.

I thought that maybe... it could be because my first friend... was Eunbi.

Eunbi, who led the timid me this far

I, who was grateful to Eunbi like that

Whenever Eunbi has a hard time

I promised myself I would help...

I, who went to a different school right after graduation

Although I ended up unable to fulfill that promise

While attending school in another region

Getting involved in bad things

I ended up coming back here again,

I could tell that Eunbi was having a really hard time.

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I, who thought I was attending a middle school in a different region

Seeing me at the middle school he attends

Eunbi must have been surprised and wondered what was going on.

The look of surprise on their faces when I said I had come to Gangjeon,

complex expression

Hesitant words...

Eunbi must have thought about it a lot, too....

I am grateful for what happened in elementary school,

I feel sorry about what happened in middle school,

and....

Because he's my friend...

I tried to be nicer to Eunbi.

I realized it after becoming a freshman in high school.

It must be really tough for Eunbi too, but...

Maybe I need comfort too...

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ha....

Listening to Eunbi's story today, I realized for sure.

The fact that I'm having a really hard time....

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I kept crying

My tears have dried up.

There are no more tears left to shed.

I, who thought being alone was comfortable

I thought being alone was okay

I, who thought being alone was good

I was foolish

Being alone,

It's harder than I thought, and

Lonely,

It was a sad thing.

I only found out now

From Eunbi...

What the feeling of hardship is,

What the feeling of sadness is

What the feeling of loneliness is

I wonder what the feeling of loneliness is...

I learned

I am,

I'm lonely because I'm alone,

It's hard being alone, and

I'm sad because I'm alone, and

I felt lonely because I was alone.

Being alone,

I thought I had gotten used to it, but

It's not adaptation

It was something familiar.

Familiarity is truly scary.

Familiarity hid my emotions

I'm really... exhausted...

Being alone....

50. Alone The end-