There is one constellation

_Episode 3_Memory

강의건 (19)

"I don't remember."

The words that Eui-Geon Lee spoke with difficulty, smiling bitterly.

As expected, Yi Geon lost something when he came here.

What we've lost is different for everyone, but what happens when we find it?

So, what did Dae-hwi lose?

황민현 (20)

" ..Sometimes, there are realities where it's better not to remember."

If you don't believe what Yi-Geon said, you can ask if it was a dream or if something strange happened.

But Min-hyeon didn't do that. He simply listened to Ui-geon and offered words of comfort.

강의건 (19)

"Is that so? Would it be better for me if I don't remember?"

Memory. The storing of everything a person has experienced in their life up to that point in their head.

Losing memories, good or bad, was like losing one's own life.

At least, that's what it means for me to lose my memory.

황민현 (20)

" .. Even if you lose your memories, it will be okay, just like you and I remember."

Min-hyung, who pats Ui-geon with a smile that makes you feel comfortable just by looking at him.

When I look at the relationship between the two, I feel something warm inside me.

This feeling of comfort... and a sense of something precious. It's something I should have felt naturally in my original state, but today felt special.

It was strange that we felt this way after that day.

I guess I'm still living in the past.

강의건 (19)

" ... I guess so?"

황민현 (20)

"Yeah, that's right."

I was anxious.

To deceive these two people.

On the one hand, I was afraid.

I wonder if Eui-geon will regain that memory. I wish Eui-geon could always be bright, and I wish Min-hyeon could be this comfortable.

Seeing Eui-geon and Min-hyeon made me feel so anxious and scared. I was afraid I'd lose them again.

I'm afraid I'll forget.

김재환 (19)

"Everyone will be okay."

I looked straight at Eui-Geon and Min-Hyeon and said as if I had made a promise.

And I thought.

No matter what happens, I will make sure that Ui-geon doesn't remember that incident.

After I learned that memory...

Because you'll end up ruined like me.

Even if Ui-geon finds that memory... at least for now...

I hope you're happy, Eui-geon.

황민현 (20)

"Okay, everyone... it's okay."

After Minhyun hyung's words, we remained silent for each other, and soon after, we fell asleep together.

In the same seat, in the same place... we fell asleep together.

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???

"How is it? Do you think something has changed?"

.. I hear a familiar voice in my ears again.

At first, when I was about to cut ties with this world... the one who appeared and sent me here

That voice.

김재환 (19)

"I don't know yet.."

I did change something, but it was just pulling out weeds in a big yard.

To prevent that from happening... we need to have a more certain and decisive judgment that can fix things right away.

There... something big and heavy is needed that can no longer change the future.

As of now... it's just the beginning.

???

"Do you believe you can save everyone now?"

김재환 (19)

" ... "

I couldn't answer anything.

I couldn't say anything.

Saving someone.

It took a lot more faith than I thought and an atmosphere where I could comfort someone.

Neither Jihoon nor Daehwi said a word to me.

Even though all I needed was their faith.

The more I tried to change something, the further away and deeper it became.

If it was going to be like this... I would have been better off in the past when I knew nothing.

Facing those kids knowing the future was harder for me to hide than I thought.

To be exact, my face showed exactly what I was thinking about those kids.

???

"It was awkward."

Yeah, I was clumsy.

I didn't experience as much pain as Ji-hoon and Dae-hwi, and even though something happened in the past, I was happy if it wasn't for that incident.

I was different from those kids.

My face was a bit awkward, and those kids were so good at hiding their emotions.

???

" ..can I save you?"

김재환 (19)

" ..even though I'm clumsy unlike those kids, I'll save them."

But I can't let go of this string of hope.

I never want to leave those kids alone again. I want to take off their masks and see them smile brightly, without a single thought or emotion.

Because I want to save those kids from the darkness. Because I cherish those kids, and because they are the best.

I want to give those kids a smile, even if it means sacrificing myself.

Even if I die, I will save you.

Because I don't want to see the sad smiles of kids who are now just high school and college students.

Even if I disappear from those kids' memories.

김재환 (19)

"Yeah, I'll save you."

???

"..I'll try to believe in that belief."

The voice, whose face and actions were invisible, suddenly felt like it was smiling happily... Was it just my imagination?

And so the voice disappeared from my ears again.

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김재환 (19)

" ... uh? "

When did I fall asleep?

Booths- I looked around here and there with a blank expression, and then I remembered something.

Jihoon saw Daehwi today. He asked Daehwi about Jinyoung.

I saved Min-hyun hyung on the way. I fell asleep with Min-hyun hyung at Ui-geon's house.

I also remember a few other minor things better.

김재환 (19)

"Ah.. right.. "

I pulled away the blanket that was covering me, got up from my seat, and went outside to get some fresh air.

Soon after, with a thud, I went outside and leaned against the wall, breathing in the night air.

Maybe it's because it's night time, but it's still cold.

I looked up at the sky. The sky was still devoid of light.

But as if it were a glimmer of hope, only the moon was looking at me. Very, very happily.

Twinkle - emitting a small light.

강의건 (19)

"Jaehwan?"

I was lost in thought for a moment, looking at the moon, when suddenly, Yi-Geon, who I didn't know existed, looked at me.

As if he had been away for a while, he was wearing a black hooded sweatshirt.

Yi-Geon was looking at me with eyes that asked, “Why are you here?”

강의건 (19)

"Why did you come out? If you're going to come out, wear a coat. It must be cold."

I laughed for a moment thanks to Eui-geon, who was nagging me about why I came out, as if he didn't even care that I came out.

It was so quiet and clear, so that Eui-geon didn't notice. It had been so long since I'd seen Eui-geon before my eyes, it was a miracle.

Since that incident... that guy hasn't come out.

Because I didn't let others enter my space.

Because you couldn't accept me.

Even I found that guy annoying.