This is the special force S1
#28 “The Heroine’s Past (2)”
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It is trauma.
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Your trauma is quite severe.
Trauma. The phenomenon of past fears resurfacing... I've only seen that in dramas.
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However, since the patient has such strong mental fortitude and an outstanding will to overcome, if the guardian and those around them help...
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It seems like you will be able to overcome it quickly.
The doctor placed a medicine bottle in my hand. With a clattering sound, I looked at the doctor.
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It's a sedative. Please take it if you have seizures like today.
남 설 아
yes...
남 설 민
Is there anything else I need to prepare or be careful about?
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Yeah, well, there isn't really anything you need to be careful about.
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Don't avoid it
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If that situation comes again, do not avoid it; face it head-on.
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From what I see, the patient has many good people by their side.
At the mention of a good person, I glanced at Seolmin sitting next to me. If a good person is someone like him...
We walked together after I left the examination room. The smell of a hospital... This smell, which I hated so much when I was young, was fine today.
I walked holding Seolmin's hand. It was warm. It had been a long time since we had held hands like this.
남 설 민
Noona, shall we eat tteokbokki before heading home?
남 설 아
Okay, let's do that.
남 설 민
Auntie—please give us two tteokbokki and one fried item!
I don't know how long it has been since we sat face-to-face and ate together. It was more awkward than I expected, but I still liked it.
남 설 민
Sorry, sis...
남 설 아
uh..?
남 설 민
It must be tough for you too, but you're always whining...
남 설 아
Heh, hey, Nam Seol-min. Your older sister told you.
남 설 아
I'll protect both you and me.
남 설 아
I don't care if you swear at me, ignore me, or hit me.
남 설 아
It's you. It's not just anyone, it's Nam Seol-min.
The tteokbokki came out while we were talking, and feeling suddenly embarrassed, I hurriedly picked up my chopsticks.
남 설 아
Let's eat!
Even while eating, Seolmin never took her eyes off me. She took a bite, looked at me, took another bite, and looked at me...
남 설 아
Hey lol, stop watching this, you're going to get indigestion.
남 설 민
Just... I was wondering if my older sister was this pretty? lol
“What? Did you drink?”
"Oh, what are you talking about... You make a fuss even when I compliment you."
You should do that more often.
What did I do? I'm a really nice younger sibling.
So you smashed my eyeshadow because you're a good younger sibling...? Heh.
“You knew..? No, that’s not me!”
You're in for it, you bastard
“Ah, it hurts, it hurts..!!”
“Oops, sorry... Are you okay?”
It's a lie! lol
“Hey, let’s both die today.”
“Ahhh, save me!!!”
Since returning from the hospital, Seolmin's behavior toward me hasn't really changed.
Rather, I could see that they were forcing themselves to maintain their usual demeanor, worried that being too nice might make them feel burdened. At least to me.
남 설 민
Hey, Nam Seol-ah!
남 설 아
Didn't I tell you to call me 'Noona'? Huh?
남 설 민
Wait, where's my tie? I think I left it here.
남 설 아
Why are you looking for your tie from me?
남 설 민
Where is it... Ugh... The teacher said if we get caught for the dress code, we have to clean the bathroom.
남 설 아
Well, should I give you the one I used last year?
남 설 민
Uh, please...
I was about to casually toss the tie at him, but I just tied it for him myself. Because I wanted to see him up close.
남 설 민
I'm leaving!
남 설 아
Oh, have a good trip.
We were so young back then.
On the day my parents passed away, I was a high school senior preparing for the college entrance exam, and Seolmin was a high school freshman just beginning her preparations.
We were so young, sitting there in black clothes.
Seol-min turned his head to face the scene and was crying, and only the sound of relatives clicking their tongues could be heard in his ears.
I was a ‘robot’ at the funeral.
My routine was to stand up, greet, bow, offer a meal, and then sit back down whenever someone arrived.
Recalling the past and erasing sadness with tears was not part of my routine, and being fragile, I was eventually dominated by sadness.
Who would have known?
The little girl who used to hide and cry alone inside a bathroom stall, the child who was told she would become a responsible eldest daughter, crumbling endlessly
I wonder who actually heard it.
The pitiful wail of a young child, the sound of the child pulling the covers over themselves every night to comfort themselves that everything is okay
I wonder if anyone saw it.
The hem of the skirt, wrinkled from how tightly it was clutched, and the deep sorrow in the eyes of that child who said it was okay
남 설 민
Noona, are you really going to do it?
남 설 아
Yeah. I'm really going to do it.
I am standing here right now to change my name. Not the name given to me by my dog-like parents, but a name I chose myself.
남 설 아
I would like to apply to change my name to Namyeoju.
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Yes, your application has been submitted.
남 설 아
Thank you.
남 설 아
Let's go, Seol Min-ah
남 설 아
To live the lives of a man and a woman
I am the protagonist of my life. I am the ‘heroine’.
Even if you face trials, even if you are happy, even if you are in pain, even if you are alone
I am the heroine.
The Female Lead's Past The End