Twilight World

Notice: Personal thoughts and feelings

Hello. This is Dots.

I never thought I would be writing something like this.

Um... what should I say first?

I still feel lost

Let's take them out one by one.

I have always liked writing.

Although I was immature, I enjoyed imagining various things on my own and creating and expressing a story.

So, I wanted to share my story and expressions so that others could enjoy them too.

I started my first serial with a happy heart.

The first work I uploaded didn't have many subscribers.

The highest number was 28, and that's how it ended.

But it was fun. I was so happy that people were reading my writing.

But in the next work

It received a lot of attention from a lot of people.

It was an honor that so many people still like and remember my work, to the point where they occasionally subscribe and leave comments.

After that work was finished

Even if I serialize a new work, I don't get the same results.

I was digging into myself.

"This work has fewer subscribers than my previous work. Is the writing strange?", "Is this also not popular with people?"

When these thoughts become established as natural

At some point I looked back

I saw myself obsessed with subscriptions and comments.

I've been writing only for people's interest.

My interest in writing has decreased

I didn't even pay attention to it.

That's my current situation.

Unlike the first time, when I felt happy just by writing and reading,

I'm already too far gone.

The burden I feel when uploading each episode

The disappointment of not living up to people's expectations,

Moreover, I was belittling myself by comparing my work to other people's work.

So for a few weeks

I left the work unattended without uploading it, including other works.

I feel this is a bit off-topic, so I'm posting this heavy message.

I would like to apologize to those who like my writing.

sorry

Still, I will try my best to finish this article, even if it is late.

Thank you to all the Mits who support and leave comments.

I'm so sorry.

I won't say I'll be back soon because I don't know when I'll be back.

I think it's better not to make promises you can't keep.

I haven't thought about anything yet after this article is finished.

I will think about it slowly and for a long time.

I'm so sorry

Thank you for reading this heavy article to the end.