When the light reaches me
Wounds and trauma
In 2019, when I was a freshman in high school, there was a boy I liked.
고1서인
I...like you!
정우진
Get out @bitch. Who met you? This is disgusting;;;
고1서인
....(sheds tears quietly)
정우진
Are you crying? Lol Are you crying? Lol You're such a loser. Lol This girl is crying~ Lol
From that day on, I was harassed by Jeong Woo-jin and his group.
정우진
Hey, loner lol
고1서인
......(Ignores and passes by)
황윤지
Look at how you ignore people's words~ You're so shamelessㅠㅠㅋ
이태석
Is it because I'm a loner? lol
김윤희
Ahh~ok~ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
I couldn't stand it. So I transferred schools and changed all my phone numbers.
On my first day at my new school, as soon as I entered the classroom...
고1서인
Huh...! He's handsome...
최연준
Oh, hello? Haha, the new transfer student... Park Seo-in? Seo-in, right?
고1서인
Oh, uh...uh...uh..! uh...right..! Haha.....
최연준
Please take care of me. I'm Choi Yeonjun. (Extending out his hand)
고1서인
Uh...uh...uh, hello..! heh..
최연준
Aren't you going to shake my hand? (with fox-like eyes)
고1서인
(momentarily flustered)...Huh??...
최연준
Are you really not going to do it? (grabbing Seoin's hand) Do you want to be my friend?
고1서인
(blushing) Huh? Huh...me too, hehe..
That's how my second unrequited love began, and soon after, Yeonjun confessed his feelings first and we started dating.
I forgot about the hurt I'd been feeling a while ago, and was filled with happiness at the thought of Yeonjun. But it didn't last long.
It's Pepero Day. I'm about to head into class with Yeonjun, carrying a bunch of Pepero sticks...
한채린
Do you like Boxer? lol
고1서인
(gulps. I'm sure you'll like me...! Since we're dating...)
최연준
No? Why do I like that girl?
한채린
That's not it~ You've been hanging out with that girl lately~ I heard you two are dating?
최연준
Of course it's fun lol. What about that loner.. lol Am I crazy?
한채린
That loner will give me Pepero today lol?
최연준
Ah, it's dirty;;; I should throw it away as soon as I receive it.
한채린
As expected~ It's Choi Yeonjun's answer ㅋㅋ
고1서인
Sob...sob...sob...(Tears fall one by one on the Pepero stick I was holding.)
I was so shocked that I dropped the Pepero and quickly headed to the bathroom.
Choi Yeonjun? Choi Yeonjun seemed to have noticed me, but he didn't seem to care at all and seemed to ignore me.
So, at the age of 11th grade, I ended up suffering two huge injuries.
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2 years later
선생님
Hey guys, the CSAT is finally next week!! You've worked so hard.
고3서인
Phew... (But it's okay. I have a boyfriend!>< I finally got over my high school wounds and got a boyfriend!)
-Break time-
변백현
Seo In-ah! (hugs Seo In from behind)
고3서인
Yeah, Baekhyun
변백현
Do you want to go out and play together after the CSAT?
고3서인
I'm good! haha
So, one day after finishing the CSAT
11:35 AM
고3서인
(KakaoTalk) Baekhyun! When and where should we meet?
12:50 AM
고3서인
(KakaoTalk) I'm really looking forward to it, right!..ㅎ
But Baekhyun... didn't reply even after 2 or 3 hours.
고3서인
I still haven't seen it... I should call.
Beep beep beep... This number does not exist. Please call back shortly.
고3서인
Did I type it wrong? No... This is Baekhyun's number...
Tiring! You have a voice message.
변백현
"...Seo In-ah, I'm sorry... Let's break up...
고3서인
...?
고3서인
....??????No..No..That can't be it...
변백현
"I... actually went abroad to study. Take care, Seo In-ah. Don't come looking for me."
So, Baekhyun Byun broke up with me and told me that he was going to study abroad.
From that day on, at the age of 20...21...22...23...24...all the precious times I spent as a college student were filled with depression.
I've dated a lot of boyfriends in the meantime, but they all broke up with me soon after. They were all very formal, like transfers or disappearances.
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"I'm so sick of you, I can't meet you."
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"....."
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"I like someone. Let's break up."
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"I don't think I'm a good person for you. Let's break up."
So I wasted all my youth during my college days and graduated from college.
Time kept passing, and I had nowhere to turn. From high school to college, everything was etched in my memory, and since then, I've developed a trauma that makes me absolutely incapable of trusting a man.
Any man would have been the first to avoid her and, of course, not given her number.
As time passed, I turned 25 and started living alone.
서인
I need to start looking for a job soon... sigh... what should I do...
서인
By the way, I'm so jealous of famous celebrity managers... I want to try being a manager for a somewhat famous celebrity too...
Then a site pops up.
'We're looking for celebrity managers!!'
서인
Oh? I have to apply right now lol
I filled out a simple form on the website, and two days later, I received notification that I had passed the first virtual interview. The next day, I went for the in-person interview. I was able to complete the interview with a sense of calm and composed, having prepared well for the situation without panicking. Now, all I had to do was wait for the acceptance/failure notification.
And finally, the day of the results announcement..!!
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