When you go there

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It's pitch black... a dark night... scary...

It was so dark... so dark that I wasn't sure if I had actually opened my eyes... darkness

I wonder why I can't get used to it, even after all this time...

Bang—

The sound of friction coming from the darkness that I will never get used to

Sounds where you can't tell if it's crying, being hit, or things breaking...

My appearance lying sprawled out in that situation

Ah... why... does this feel so familiar... every day is exactly the same...

서여주

Ugh... mmm...

A groan bursts out whenever the dull friction sounds go back and forth.

He swings his fists and kicks multiple times as if even lifting a stick to hit is beyond common sense.

The young child's body was trampled all over, and wounds and bruises began to appear, but

It seemed like there was no one to stop him.

He collapsed as if half-lost his mind, busy wrapping his small arms around his body.

The only place that child could lean on was the ground where he was lying limply right now.

The dust rose and my flesh ached as it was scraped by small stones, but his expression was too terrifying to stop him from hitting me.

He gritted his teeth as if in anger, and the corners and pupils of his eyes were filled with murderous intent.

Whenever I opened my mouth, swear words came out...

I just cried watching that sight because I was too young back then... all I could do as a 7-year-old was

All I did was hate my dad in my heart.

I was only seven years old. The age at which one can think... was probably around four.

It took me three years to realize what I was feeling.

I want to die..

I want to go there after I die.

You don't have to do anything

To that place where you don't have to get hit or cry.

Come to think of it... the first thing I ever desperately wished for was not to live in this world.

If you go there...

Will I be able to be comfortable..?