You're divorced, what else can you add?

21. Our first meeting

변백현

"Are you living in my house now? Are you completely done with Park Chanyeol now?"

이지은

"Yeah^^ I'm going to live with you again from today."

이지은

"It's not over with Park Chanyeol. The future is just beginning. My war with Park Chanyeol. I'll protect you even if it means risking my life. I can't tell Baekhyun about this just yet. If you really thought you were in danger, then...

변백현

"You've had a hard time up until now. I won't make it hard for you anymore. From now on, if it's hard, tell me it's hard. If it hurts, tell me it's painful."

This is first love. Not the first person I loved, but the person I truly loved, the one who gave me love was only one person, Byun Baekhyun.

At that time, the person I called my first love was just a piece of trash. I just had to remember the person who listened to my story and remembered every little word. That kind of trash should disappear from my memories.

Before I met Baekhyun, my past was a mess. Sexual assault, a trashy boyfriend, parents who passed away in a mysterious accident. If I had such a painful past, I wish everyone had one. But everything changed after meeting Baekhyun.

Before I met Baekhyun, my memories were filled with so many filthy, unthinkable things. So, meeting Baekhyun wasn't such a beautiful experience.

이지은

"No mom or dad... He's not that kind of a boyfriend who sexually assaulted me, he's not even my boyfriend anymore. But why am I like this? Why do I keep crying? Why do I keep remembering... I don't want to live this life anymore."

I stood on the roof of the apartment for a long time.

변백현

"Huh? What is it? Is it going to rain?"

On my way home, I saw water dripping from above, so I looked up at the sky, thinking it was going to rain. However, the sky was cloudless, with only the moon shining brightly. As I looked up at the moon, I saw a shadow that looked like a person on the roof of an apartment building.

변백현

"person..?!"

I ran to the roof of that apartment, thinking that I had to go there quickly and save him.

이지은

"I hate myself for remembering that past, but why? But my feet won't move... Why am I just sitting there? If I just lift my feet right here, right now, I can go back to Mom and Dad. My life has been twisted since I lost my parents. I should have just given up then."

The moon, visible through my blurred vision due to tears, was shining so brightly.

이지은

"The moon is really pretty today."

이지은

'On a night like this, when the moon is so beautiful, I'm dying. No one will remember me... No one will even know I'm dead.'

The moment I closed my eyes, I heard the sound of someone running behind me.

변백현

"Stop it!!!"

When I turned around at the sound of the voice, there was a man.

변백현

"I don't know what's going on, but stop it."

I thought no one would stop me from dying. I thought no one would notice me being here. Perhaps it was because of that feeling that I cried out loud.

변백현

"What's going on...."

I had to answer that, but I ended up crying so hard that I felt like I was choking on tears.

변백현

"Cry your heart out, just now. You were trying to die, weren't you? I don't know what happened, but if it was so hard that you could die, then cry. Cry and shake it off!"

I took a deep breath and spoke to the man.

이지은

"I didn't think anyone would come, but... You ruined everything. So I guess I'll have to live alone in this scary place... This was just this one time. I was able to prepare myself to die..."

변백현

"I'll take responsibility for your life."

Those words magically stopped my tears. No one had ever met anyone like me. He was truly the kind of person you'd never find in this world. I thought the world was filled with hellish things and trashy people. But then, as if by magic, someone like an angel appeared before me.

변백현

"So, don't think like that."

It was a word that gave me light.

After meeting that piece of trash and thinking I would never trust anyone again, I found the one and only person in the world who could help me escape that scary past.

But, at that moment, we were meeting for the first time. Both me and him. But how could I say something like that to someone I'd never met before? Taking responsibility for my life?

이지은

"We just met, so you think you know what kind of person I am and are taking responsibility for me?"

변백현

"Because you seem like a kind person, oh! And above all, because you're pretty."

At those words, I smiled and made a smirk. I haven't smiled properly since that day. He who found my smile made me smile, so I looked at him, wiping away my smile as if he were saying three words filled with sincerity. When I looked at him, he was smiling prettily at me.

이지은

"Thank you. For bringing me back to this world, and since I just met you, these are the first words I've heard. You may have just blurted them out, but they touched my heart. Thank you. For showing up for me when I was at my limit."

I will never forget her telling me that I saved someone's life with just one simple word, and that I saved a life.

이지은

"Baekhyun, thank you. For waiting for me."

변백현

"Tch, of course. I said I would take responsibility for your life."

He still remembered. I thought he'd just said it out of curiosity to save me, but he remembered it. Of course, no one remembered what I said or what others said to me. But now, what was once obvious isn't obvious anymore.

이지은

"Baekhyun, don't leave me. I can't live without you."

변백현

"Huh, you divorced me and left this house on your own?"

이지은

"That's...because of circumstances..." I can't say this...

변백현

"What's the matter?"

이지은

"......"

변백현

"It's okay. It seems like you've been keeping a lot of secrets lately. If you can't tell me, I don't intend to force you."

이지은

"......."

변백현

"How did you survive until now, someone who said they couldn't live without me? It's been over a year. How did you survive in America for a year, separated from me?"

이지은

"This. You left it behind the first night I went to America."

He spoke while pointing to the necklace hanging around his neck.

변백현

"The necklace I gave you as a gift?"

이지은

"When this is next to me, I feel like I'm with you..."

변백현

"Do you know why I gave you this necklace?"

이지은

"........"

변백현

"Do you know what the meaning of diamond is?"

I didn't know anything because it was hard for me to even pay attention to such trivial things.

변백현

"Your birthday is in April. Diamonds are the birthstone for people born in April."

이지은

"Birthstone?"

변백현

"Yes, and the meaning of the diamond birthstone is immortality, a promise of love. Immortality is something that does not disappear or fade away, and a promise of love is a promise of true love. That's why it was given as a wedding gift."

이지은

"Immortal, vow of love."

변백현

"I promised you from the moment I gave you that necklace. I promised to never leave your side, to love you. I will never forget that for a single moment."

I told the author the things I couldn't say before the divorce, the things I had to say while waiting for him.

이지은

"Baekhyun, you are an indispensable part of my life. Baekhyun, let's go out for some fresh air."

변백현

"huh"

작가

Huh? The feeling of putting it together is very artistic!. I'm sorry,,, It's okay if you just ignore it... You're a writer, so just write hard. Why are you talking so much? So I'll just keep writing! Fighting!

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I know you're all busy, but thank you so much to those who came to read my writing even though I couldn't write it~ And I always read the comments. Why could I only choose the characters and content like this?ㅠㅠ Everyone's comments are a sea of ​​tearsㅠㅠ I'm sorry for making you cryㅠㅠ Lastly, I write for the fun of reading the commentsㅠㅠ

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I'm going to take my leave now~ See you next time♡