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Your POV
Han usually talks a lot when we're at school, but now he seems quiet. He keeps tapping his fingers in the wheel repeatedly.
Soohee
So...are we near yet?
Han Jisung
Umm..yeah we're almost there. Ryujin said it's right--
Soohee
Wait...Ryujin?!
Han Jisung
Ahh-- Oops. Umm. *laughs nervously*
Soohee
Continue your sentence right now!
Han Jisung
Yes ma'am! I asked Ryujin where's your favorite place to eat, because I figured you might be hungry since you didn't finish lunch.
Your POV
My stomach growled when he said that. Too loud if you ask me.
Han Jisung
Whoa. I can't believe I'm right! You really are hungry. *laughs* Don't worry, it's my treat.
Soohee
You didn't have to do this Han.
Han Jisung
I wanted to. Since I'm one of the reasons why you left early at lunch.
Soohee
Oh. You're the only reason I left..
Han Jisung
What?!
Soohee
I'm kidding. *laughs*
Han Jisung
Wow. I'm still shocked whenever you laugh. You should do it more often.
Soohee
You're face was funny, you really thought I was serious about that.
Han Jisung
So it's not just me?
Soohee
Umm. Yeah..
Han Jisung
Oh we're here! Let's continue our talk inside. I'll open the door, don't move!
Soohee
I can open the door on my own you know.
Your POV
He quickly got outside and opened the door before I do it first, giving me that warm smile again.
Soohee
Chivalry isn't dead huh?
Han Jisung
Of course! Come on let's go inside, I'm so hungry too.
Your POV
He opened the door for me, again. Seriously, I don't mind if he's not a gentleman. People will take the wrong impression if he continues
Your POV
to be like that.
Han Jisung
We can sit over there.
Your POV
I sat in the corner and then he looks at me, waiting for me to talk.
Soohee
What?
Han Jisung
Do you mind if I sit beside you? If you don't want to, I can go ask for a chair so I can seat in front of you instead.
Your POV
Whenever he has a chance to sit with me in class, he will, but now he's asking for permission? Wow.
Soohee
I don't mind since you sit with me in some of our classes whenever you had a chance.
Han Jisung
Oh yeah. Sorry. It feels different here. Ha ha.
Your POV
He ordered our food, and I'm surprised because it's all my usual orders here.
Soohee
Did you ask Ryujin what's my favorite as well? And this is too much!
Han Jisung
Yeah I did ask her that too. Don't worry, I eat a lot if you can't finish all of it.
Your POV
I started laughing, and I don't know why.
Han Jisung
Whoa what's happening to you?
Soohee
I'm sorry.. HA HA HA *tears up*
Your POV
I can't remember when's the last time I laughed like this.
Your POV
Han started laughing as well, now we're both laughing like idiots. I stopped when I realized they're all looking at us inside.
Soohee
Okay I'm okay now. Wow. It's been so long since I laughed like that.
Han Jisung
That was hilarious. I didn't even know what's the reason why you laughed so sudden!
Soohee
I just realized that it's been so long since I ordered this much, although now it's you who ordered. My mom is strict now on my diet.
Han Jisung
Oh yeah, is it because you're modeling?
Soohee
Well, that's not the main reason, she just wants me to stay fit.
Han Jisung
Does it bother you?
Soohee
No. I'm thankful for that, it motivates me.
Han Jisung
Okay, well let's dig in! Eat a lot, and consider this as a cheat day. Hehe
Your POV
We ate in silence for a little while, then I decided to break it..
Soohee
Hey Han..
Han Jisung
Hmm?
Your POV
He looks like a squirrel stuffing food like that in his cheeks. I started laughing again.
Soohee
You look like a squirrel. Do you always stuff food in your cheeks like that?
Han Jisung
Well...yeah, ever since I was a kid according to my mom. I'm glad I made you laugh. *smiles*
Soohee
Umm. Thanks for this Han. I didn't realize I was very hungry. I needed this.
Han Jisung
You're welcome Soohee.
Your POV
Okay. Why is he handsome?! Did I just realized that now?
Han Jisung
So...Did you have a boyfriend before?
Your POV
I did not see that coming. I'm going to kill Seungmin for mentioning it.
Soohee
Umm. Yeah I did. It was a long time ago.
Han Jisung
Do you mind if I ask who?
Soohee
I...I don't know.
Han Jisung
Does he go to our school?
Your POV
Maybe it's better if I tell him, before he finds it out from other people.
Soohee
He just did...
Han Jisung
No way...that Bang Chan??
Soohee
Yeah.. that's why I asked for your help to hide me. But it was worthless since he was our classmate too.
Your POV
He went silent, and looks like he's deep in thought.
Soohee
Earth to Haaan..
Han Jisung
Oh! Sorry. I was just wondering about it. How long were you two together?
Soohee
2 years I think. But we we're best friends since high school. Our feelings just developed for each other.
Han Jisung
Do you still have that feelings for him?
Your POV
I've never thought about that, not since he mentioned it just now? Do I? My mind is hazy right now so I don't know.
Soohee
I don't want to talk about him anymore. Do you mind?
Han Jisung
Oh sure. Sorry for bringing it up.
Soohee
It's okay. It's in the past. He's in the past.
Han Jisung
Yeah. You should look forward to the future, or maybe focus on...the present?
Your POV
I looked at him and he has that spark in his eyes, like what he just said meant something.
Your POV
I just smiled and went back to finishing my food. After that we we're just silent.
Your POV
Han took me home before it's dark, and we were also silent on the way to my house.
Your POV
We arrived home, but he didn't go out of the car yet, and I figured he wants to say something..
Soohee
Han? You okay?
Han Jisung
What? I should ask you that. Are you?
Soohee
Yeah I'm fine, why were you quiet all of a sudden?
Han Jisung
I felt like I ruined it when I asked you about your ex boyfriend. Do you want me to leave you alone from now on?
Your POV
My usual self will tell him to leave me alone, but now I don't want to.
Soohee
I'm fine Han. I just didn't know what to say after that you know. I actually had fun either way.
Han Jisung
Really? *exhales* I'm glad! I was so nervous!
Soohee
I'm surprised with myself as well. And with you, because you can be quiet as well.
Han Jisung
Yeah. Sometimes. I had fun too Soohee. Thanks for giving me a chance to fix it up.
Soohee
You're welcome..
Han Jisung
Hold on, let me get the door.
Your POV
I wait for him to open the door then I stepped outside.
Your POV
We we're standing so close and then we just stared at each other. I snapped back into reality when I heard Soomi screaming for Seungmin.
Han Jisung
Whoa. Do you have a little sister?
Soohee
Yeah. It's Soomi. I think Seungmin is messing with her again.
Han Jisung
I'd like to see her sometime.
Soohee
Yeah. Maybe. Thanks again Han, I'll go inside now.
Han Jisung
Sure. Bye Soohee. Thank you too.
Your POV
He grabbed my other hand then kissed the back of it. My eyes widened and I suddenly can't breathe properly.
Your POV
I should be mad, but nothing mean comes out of my mouth. I was just SPEECHLESS.
Your POV
He smiles then pats my head.
Han Jisung
I'll go now. See you tomorrow Soohee.
Soohee
Y-yeah..Bye.
Your POV
I watched him drive off and I'm still processing what happened. I went inside the house and my mind is still loading..
Your POV
When I got into my room, then it clicked.
Your POV
HAN JISUNG JUST KISSED MY HAND! AND I LET IT HAPPEN!
Soohee
AHHHHH!
Dad
Is that Soohee?
Mom
Soohee?! Are you home? What's wrong?!
Soomi
Soohee!!!
Seungmin
Maybe because of the date I told you about. *laughs*
Your POV
I can hear them loud and clear outside my room, I'm definitely going to kill my brother tonight.