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Your POV

I went in my room, still dumbfounded. Han is acting too sweet nowadays. If he keeps doing that...I don't know what to think or feel anymore.

***knock knock knock***

Mom

Lily hun? Can I come in?

Your POV

That sounded like "Lily Han". I better tell mom to stop calling me that.

Soohee

Sure mom. Come on in.

Your POV

Mom comes in and sits on the bed with me. She gives me a smile and quirks her eyebrows.

Soohee

Umm. Why are you quirking your eyebrows like that mom?

Mom

Well...I know when a boy likes my daughter...and our visitor just now is very obvious.

Your POV

Crap...she knows it too, and mom is never wrong.

Soohee

He's that obvious huh?

Mom

He keeps looking at you during dinner, and I know that look because your father was like that before.

Soohee

Up until now. I always caught dad staring at you.

Mom

Well, you know us. Anyways, did you know that he likes you?

Soohee

Yeah. He did kinda confessed before, but we ended up just being friends..

Mom

Well that's a start. Usually before a relationship, there must be a friendship formed first. Like me and your dad.

Soohee

I don't know what to do mom...I think...I don't want to enter a new relationship just yet.

Mom

Why not? I thought you got over your past?

Soohee

I did, but I became more cautious now. I'm... afraid mom. You know I didn't handle my breakup very well.

Your POV

When I broke up with Chan, "love" became a monster to me. I got so depressed, because I lost my best friend too, and that's why it hurts so

Your POV

much when he left. I was in the dark for so long, and sometimes when I think about it, darkness visits me again. I don't know when will it

Your POV

stop. That's why I also have trust issues. It doesn't matter how much you love or trust the person, because they can also break you.

Mom

Oh hun...I thought you're okay now, but it seems like you're still not.

Soohee

Oh mom...can you stop calling me "hun"? I have a friend named Han now.

Mom

Oh right. Of course. Didn't you say you want to talk to me about something?

Soohee

Oh right. So aunt Sooyeon wants a photoshoot with me again...

Mom

That's great news! I'm so--

Soohee

With Bang Chan...

Mom

Oh. Nevermind. Want me to talk to her?

Soohee

Oh no mom. I just want to ask for your advice...do you think I should do it?

Mom

Hun..Oh I mean...Lily, you're the only one who can answer that. I can only support you on whatever decision you make.

Your POV

Mom can be pushy sometimes. Like on my fitness and modeling, but when it comes to my personal issues, she lets me decide and supports me.

Your POV

She didn't like Bang Chan before, but when she saw how much I cared about him, she allowed us to be together. She also made an effort to get

Your POV

to know Chan. Mom really liked him after that, sadly we didn't last, so she kinda hates him again.

Soohee

We talked anyways, so I think it's all good. We met in the grocery store, and we fixed things up.

Mom

Is it? You need to be sure Soohee. I won't be there always.

Soohee

I think so. He's still proving himself, and I gave him a chance.

Mom

You're a good person Soohee, and strong. That's why I'm proud of you. Even though I'm disappointed at Chan, I hope you two can still be

Mom

friends. It's better that way.

Soohee

Yeah. That's what I thought too. I really hope things will be okay, so we can have a closure on the past.

Your POV

Mom kisses my forehead and hugs me. I really have the best mom, and I'm always thankful for that.

Mom

I like Han though. Think about giving him a chance too, because he really likes you. It doesn't have to be soon, but you'll know when you're

Mom

ready to enter a relationship again. I won't push you on this one.

Soohee

I'm still getting to know him, so not yet.

Mom

I on the other hand, liked what I saw earlier. Nothing's sweeter than a kiss on the forehead...

Your POV

Oh no...Mom saw that?!

Soohee

Mom! I feel embarrassed now!

Your POV

I covered my head on the pillows, trying to hide my embarrassment, and mom is laughing at me.

Mom

I didn't mind honey don't worry! I think it's sweet. He knew that something was wrong, because he was looking at you worried during dinner..

Mom

I suppose he knows Bang Chan huh?

Soohee

Yeah. He doesn't like him yet.

Mom

See? That's a sign of jealousy. He might be feeling threatened by Chan.

Soohee

Maybe...but I want them to get along too.

Mom

Okay. I'll leave you now, it's late so go to sleep.

Soohee

Oh wait mom! We're going on a roatrip by the way...The girls will be there, and we'll be with Han and his friends too.

Mom

Really? It's like a group date to me...

Soohee

No no no. It's just a hangout. Is it okay? It'll be two days and one night.

Mom

Okay. I'm not that strict. Just promise me you girls will be in a different room!

Soohee

Jeez mom of course! Why would we all be in the same room...

Mom

And no drinking!

Soohee

Ugh. We don't drink mom. Alcohol tastes bitter.

Mom

Good. You can go. Goodnight dear.

Soohee

Goodnight mom. Thanks again.

Your POV

Mom kisses my forehead goodnight and leaves my room.

***phone rings***Calling: Han Jisung***

Your POV

Oh no... should I answer it? I feel awkward all of a sudden, but I think I should confront him on what he did earlier..

***answers phone call***

Han Jisung

Before you say anything I'm sorry!

Your POV

Okaaay...I did not expect that.

Soohee

You're sorry huh?

Han Jisung

Yeah. I didn't know what got into me...it just happened naturally!

Soohee

So you do that whenever you say goodbye to a girl...you kiss their hand or forehead? What's next? My lips?

Your POV

Crap...why did I say all those things?!

Han Jisung

Umm. How many times do I have to say that I'm not like this towards a girl before?

Soohee

Yeah yeah. I'm just teasing you. You left me dumbfounded earlier.

Han Jisung

Sorry Soohee. I just got caught up in the moment you know. It entered my mind when you rested your forehead on my shoulder..

Soohee

So it's my fault?

Han Jisung

No! I didn't say that...I felt...you know... butterflies?

Soohee

Wow. That sounded corny.

Han Jisung

Ugghh give me a break Soohee...You know what I feel. Can you blame me?

Soohee

*sighs* I forgive you. Can you just ask my permission before you do sweet things like that?

Han Jisung

So that was sweet for you? *laughs*

Soohee

Umm. You didn't heard that.

Han Jisung

I'm touched. I might do it often now...

Soohee

Han!

Han Jisung

Can I kiss your lips next time?? *keeps laughing* I asked for a permissioooon~

Soohee

Okay bye..

Han Jisung

No wai--

Your POV

I ended the call before he talks more. I looked into the mirror and I see a different person...

Your POV

WHO IS THAT GIRL WHO LOOKS LIKE A TOMATO?!

Your POV

Oh it's me... blushing.

***New message***

Han Jisung

I'm sorry Soohee. I was just kidding. Don't take it seriously! Although I really want to. Goodnight Soohee! ♥️

Your POV

What is he doing to me?!