📲- Baika is pregnant?...😵💫- I asked like an idiot to Namjoon.
📱- I don't know... go there !! They got intruders.
Namjoon hanged on me and I looked at my glass... just finished it talking to my fans about my haircut when he called. I can't take a vehicle and waiting for a ride will take me longer than running there.
- Bunny... - she was laying on bed.
- go elsewhere please...
- Yoongi Hyung doesn't enjoys leaving you alone.- she didn't wanted company or more company than the man that she lives with.
- Bayka darling... they came to see if you would want to hear about... maybe... you wanna leave me - his tone of voice was very light... he was scared that she might leave? I looked worried at her and couldn't take my eyes from her belly... and if she noticed the pregnancy after that crazy day? Yoongi didn't participated and even if we were careful... What if Jin or I... I am not ready... that wasn't supposed to happen so easily with her... Yoongi Hyung couldn't... no she can't be.... but I wouldn't ask directly.
She was inhumane.... she didn't rised her voice or let them talk ...just made the necessary to scare them all away. Yoongi's body was tense, cold... and I could sense the alert state... He always says that she is scary and that he was pleased, because he couldn't rub on her bad side yet.
How bad it could be? I wanted to know but at the same time... I didn't wanted to become her target. Her partner... I don't know the alcohol was like a fog in my head. I couldn't think properly.
- Well... I should leave too - I bowed my head.
- You can use a guest room, Jungkook - my Hyung offers.
- Yes...stay here, security will be busy for a while - she sighed frustrated returning to her bedroom without looking up to us.
- I don't know why but I am who hurts her the most - Yoongi says and I couldn't sleep well anymore.
I didn't heard from her again until the day before my enlistment. It was an apologize for not coming to DMZ to see me off on my enlistment, her best wishes and a few words of appreciation towards my persona... I wanted from her what I always hated on other women. She was my exception but she wasn't mine, maybe sometimes, just a little bit.
I was going to ask Yoongi about it when Taehyung and Jin came to do the obvious pictures. Today wasn't the moment to talk, RM and Taehyung are here to enter the military and tomorrow was my turn and I haven't arranged much my friendship with Jimin.
The day of my enlistment I couldn't ask him anything personal, my family was present, Jimin was being irritating too, Yoongi and Hobi were trying not to be in the middle.
I looked towards the front, by my side was Jimin standing like ^this will be the greatest thing ever^ because we are togeder.
Seemed a good idea when we decided it, unlike my friends that enlisted almost at the limit of their age gape without having trouble with the law, I am younger so I will have to drop my stare sometimes, just because they will be older than me.
I arrived... already hate this place.
- Jungkook... she tried to come but just the idea put her to vomit and have a panic attack, Baby apologizes... Is the only thing she can do meanwhile we are here - Yoongi hushed me earlier and was the only thing in my head, as I walked away from the world I used to live in. The small packages of cookies she baked for us, was more than enough, I devoured them all without sharing.
I hate the place that made her so scared that can't control her feelings after whatever happened to her. Here must be living people that tried to capture her if they didn't tried anything worse.
I didn't came to make friends.
Suga's P/V:
- Sorry... I don't have excuses - I said to her when I entered our bedroom.
- I don't need any... but tell me something - I looked at her.
- I will be honest - I believe that is the only thing she deserves right now.
- Do you wanna end this crazy relationship?- no... no... I looked at her and started to move towards her, before I could say anything.
- Don't mind me Yoongi... I am just tired... forget I said something like that.
The fear in her heart was evident, maybe she thought that I was tolerant about our situation because this was uncomfortable for us and I did a lot of decisions that she might... believe... no, I don't want to end our relationship.
- Ana... I love you... I don't want to end anything but I would prefer to share a little more peaceful circumstances... Are you unhappy?
- I never imagined something like what happened to us, I wished for something more... boring? To get a peaceful life together where our biggest problem is to mix our habits and enjoy our relationship.
- Sorry... everything is my fault - I said waiting for the worst.
- Everything?... wow... Yoongi that's a lot... explain me how can be only your fault?. You can make mistakes but I doubt you called them to visit us.
- Love... they will do everything to hurt me, so they are hurting you instead.
- It's what you believe? Can they? Really? Because yeah I experienced bad things, but actually... That made remember other things I lived as a child because of my father and in DMZ... I did things to survive... Things I don't want to tell you about... is... so horrible that I preferably will like to be the only one with those things inside my head.
- Babe, you returned to me... I can't imagine what gave you those nightmares but even if you were a reincarnation of all that is corrupt in this world, afterwards that experience... I wouldn't love you less. I know that I forced... - My wife captured my lips before I could say more.
The kiss surprised me, it was so soft. Her lips over mine so perfect and tasty that I focused on that, I don't know why but she was turning around my worries or doubts... did I ever say that? That she could be a demon and I would love her the same?
No, I said that I was here, then changed it to come with me, afterwards was something about love... But I think that I never really said that she could show me her worst version, her eyes always asking me if it was right to stay, if I wasn't tired of her yet... if she was of any use for me, someone I wanted or needed.
- Yes... Ana, touch me, kiss me, please... don't stop - I begged when she wanted more of me. This is what I wanted, to spend my time with her.
Couldn't be happier than this, yes we have to talk.
I have been out, I missed her... I wasn't satisfied with the little we could play earlier.
- I need to eat something - Baika says, couldn't sleep at all, she was tired, exactly like me, didn't wanted to get away from me, my warmth, my skin. She tried to ignore the hunger sleeping, laced to my body, naked, shameless, enamored with me. I was sure now that I made her mine... she moaned my name, she surrendered, she let me be and loved me.
- Let me help you - I searched for her pijama to cover her enough to leave our bed, even if she considered on going there completely naked.
- I adore when you want to pamper me this way... I know you must be exhausted. Also was scared that you didn't wanted to spend the night with me after so many incidents.
- Not being able to abandon my position, being careful about people treating me like an alien or protecting myself from sexual harassment....
- Seriously, someone tried to touch you? Thought there nobody would have the guts to go so far. But you're a beauty... probably never saw someone so stunning in their miserable lives... Aish... I am all jealous just thinking that someone must be trying to seduce you.
- Hey... I am not that popular, I am a famous face so people would like to hear me say that they are special to me. They can try... but you know what? I'm not easy, don't imagine things like that.
- Yoongi... any girl born here, can understand better what is to be rised here, would likely get the same meaning to your words... I have to double check that anything that comes out of my mouth will be understood and hopefully isn't going to worsen our communication... I can't even manage to joke... have to be teached first to be able to tease you a little and see your smile... being direct and transparent all the times is not easy.
- Do you feel inferior?
- No, I feel like they have it easier to communicate and flirt with you... you can choose something easier than me, someone that you could understand... maybe is why we don't talk about certain things.
- Things like...
- What you would like to make me understand and change... maybe I'm not the only thinking on how difficult has been for us from the very beginning. To comunicate, to understand one another... Is Morea difficult for you to trust me because there is a lot I can't understand? I wasn't rised here... there is a lot for me to learn.
- You are perfect... yes, it was difficult... specially because I don't speak shit in other languages... you made so much for us... learning things about me and my culture... I don't think anyone else would like to do so much for me, you did wonders - I couldn't stop her tears and the heavy burden that is for her, to be not just a girl that loves someone... is her entire culture and beliefs changing to have a chance.
Ordinary is a luxury for me... I invited her out... I wanted the best for her... any man can do more than me to seduce her... I have money but can't even touch her, or stare to her eyes longer than necessary if I don't wanna see our picture in every device that can reproduce an image. One day I will like to show everyone the woman that makes me happy, they will hate her just because I am with her.
Already hurt, already tarnished... I pusher her away too, I made her commit the worse mistakes between lovers... I choose for her how hard was her choice... yes, she didn't came easily to my life... she met others too, others that wanted to make it easier for her... I pushed her around without explanation and she still thinks greatly about my persona.
Thanks beautiful... I have to tell you that I'm not special... that I am exactly what you didn't wanted from guys you could understand better. That my future is not as brightly as people might imagine. Because I am powerful now... my past is a sad story, I am quite the worst choice a woman can make... still today I opened my eyes and you were embracing me as if I was the most precious man ever.
I love, love you so much that can't control my feelings, my desires... I trapped you in my bed, in my kisses because you never wanted to be touched before you met me... because even given the opportunity you remained mine, tainted, with flaws but all mine to do as I please.
- They are white or yellow? How beautiful Yoongi... I haven't seen roses so perfect before... thanks, you didn't have to... goodness Yoongi... I can't imagine how hard was to find this arrangement... how expensive... it's so big... and is winter time... almost Christmas time... Yoongi... you shouldn't have...
- There is more... are you ready? The restaurant is going to make you fall me all over again... it's quite frustrating to get a table there but I want to show you how is to become my wife... what I can provide.
- Yoongi... if you love me, is enough.
- I have to do my best too, you are not alone in this relationship. I wanted you as soon as my eyes landed on you.
- I collapsed, can't say that day was my brightest moment.
- Still... the more I learned about you the more I realized that it was just the normal attraction I wanted you to be mine... and as time passed... I wanted more and more... thats why... I asked you in marriage... and waited... wanted to do my best, sometimes my worst... I want everything with you so... hang in there babe.
- I never looked back with you Yoongi... only foward. I feel that there is a lot for me to discover by your side if you permit me to get closer.
- what do you mean?
- mmmm.... is hard to explain... I only met high walls when I get to know you... you are really difficult but also easy for me... easy to be in your space... you are like an empty house... everything is to be done yet... so to me...is perfect that you wanted to give the opportunity to know you slowly... one new thing every day. Because of that don't I ask much... you have the control of what you let me know.
- Maybe you will regret to know everything about me.
- You could think the same about me... still I answered all your questions without mercy... all you wanted to be told or can be said, just ask me don't imagine things on your own.
- Jin once said... that even if I was scary sometimes, you wanted to know why and not to fear what others never tried to understand. Because I have all the knowledge about myself... did my choices even when they fire backwards to me.
- Yeah... I feel the same, is interesting doesn't it? You want to meet my limits and I want to love everything you have... if you drop the walls one day... don't be scared of me... I can be a weakness, a weapon... can be sweet, can be evil... I only need someone to feel at home... tell me Yoongi. There is still room for me?
- Home... I am more likely a prison.
- Nice...- she smiled looking at the window... I don't know if she liked the place or me telling her that *I am up to nothing good*... if she could love a dark soul like mine... but Baika is pure and sweet... I should leave her alone.
I can't... I dont want, so all my free time, this time until I have other important things to do frist... all this time we will be together. Choose me Baika.... Ana... be mine.
JISOO'S P/V:
- Min Yoongi with a woman... I can't believe it... I really started to thought he was... you know.... homosexsual, despite the rumors - my date says. Ahn Bo Hyun.
- Why are you jealous? Or do you know something? Because she is my friend and I know she is head over hills with him. Glad to see her getting her dreams realized.
- No... it was just a comment, don't mind me. I don't know much about Idols. So, is she your friend?
- Mhmm... do you mind if I call her attention for a second? I couldn't meet her for a while with my tour and her own business.
- Oh... go ahead, please.
- Babe!!!
- Jisoo?! Oh my... you look stunning as always, my last thought was to find you here... Min made the reservation so I didn't know where he wanted to eat.... Oh is your date...sorry.
- I called you, don't worry, he is Bohyun, Ahn Bohyun.
- Nice to met you, I'm Baby Brown and he well... he is Min Yoongi.
- Good evening- Yoongi says in a very low tone, that made me tremble he always talk like that? Is that his real voice?
- Yes, nice to meet you - Bohyun extended his hand towards my friend but did a weird thing to salute Min so he just bowed his head and maintained the distance diminishing a proper presentation. Is like they didn't wanted to touch one another not even by mistake.
- It's my favorite restaurant, you will love the food here... fortunately we could meet and here they always makes you wait even if the tables are all set.
- I asked for an early reservation, I don't like crowds - Yoongi suddenly talked and I got goosebumps, now I understand her... he despite his appearance is a fully fledged authority man. I always imagined him as a weirdo that people hated because his behavior is rude.
- well I like this friends of yours better, when are they planning to arrive?
His friends weren't exactly the nicest either in my opinion but it was an important date for us if everything goes as well as before we can consider this a reasonable relationship, we aren't friends that was clear from the very beginning.
- We came early, the restaurant was barely opening the doors, your friends aren't here either.
- Good evening... oh! Hello... You seem familiar... Taehyung's manager?
- I'm his assistant sometimes, Baby Brown.
- My pleasure Seojoon, are you Jisoo's friend?
- I am but I came invited by Min Yoongi... I am not exactly here to meet my friend - she blushed and looked again to him, that wasn't paying particular attention to anything but her. She should hide better her fillings or he will take advantage of her.
- And your girlfriend? - My date asked.
- Well I'm unexpectedly single but don't worry I called Da Mi and she accepted to be my guest , shouldn't be late, she called me earlier to check the time again.... Ah talking about the Queen...
- where I saw you?... mmmhmmm don't mind me....
- o...okay - Baby says shyly. Da Mi seems the overconfident kind of girl and didn't mind to target the man on her right range of age. Yoongi hold Baby close to him... I don't know if he was calling dibs on her or he was using her to protect himself from the actress... everything was so funny.
- Jimin is late... sorry - Jennie apologized, her make up tell me that she has been crying and is not on a good mood to be social
- Mmmm... Jimin? ... seems the world is so little, come let's make some presentations.
- I know them.... hi.
- Good evening... - Min and Baby said politely and softly bowed their head in synchronization... is like they have done this their entire lives but is impossible.
- Excuse Mr Min your table is this way... - an employee came so the apologized for leaving first. Jennie got a call and surprisingly rised her voice to ask why he wasn't comming tonight. I could hear her say that they are done as she walked a little further away.
- Don't worry, let's call a friend.... to make numbers even... or you think someone else can get come with such a short notice.
- Bohyun...- I tried to call his attention, he seemed very upset... we weren't the first to get a table, the last minute changes will make us look badly, doue our reservation was being pushed backwards. Other famous people arrived and I looked to my latest friend getting showered in small gestures of love from Yoongi towards her.
- wow he gives the princess treatment... I didn't expected that... umm would like an opportunity with him.
- Dami...he is taken, don't you see it? - Seojoon teased her.
- I see them but still... wouldn't he look better hanging from my arm than getting cozy with a child that will give him anything he asks for... goodness she doesn't even realize how notorious are her feelings for him?
- Because he is shy and at the beginning couldn't talk in the same language she makes it too obvious... they are together now, so don't try weird stuff please.
- Want to say something to them?- I asked.
- No, let's give them some privacy... is rare when Yoongi grows a pair to date her in public.
- They have a serious relationship? - Jennie finally opened her mouth to talk.
- Please your table... hope everything is of your linking... my colleague will arrive shortly with the menu - we all thanked the employee.
- If they don't... tonight he will take her to an hotel.
- Aish... don't say anything please...- I said embarrassed I didn't wanted to imagine what they up to do tonight.
- Taehyung... do you know anything about them? Something you can tell?- Seojoon asked curious.
- You are worst than my family. Hope they end making it public because is hard enough to have a relationship with someone that understands why we have to be the eternal bachelors. Understanding has a limit and she comes from a place where you can't judge so hard and famous people can have certain normalcy.
- She is a magnet or what? Yoongi goes to the bathroom and she has a collection of dudes at her table - Seojoon notices as we ordered
- She is pretty and Sexy... sorry - the employee at our table says quite distracted to look at her too.
- excuse me... Jisoo... I will try again in the bathroom don't damage your manicure. I shouldn't use this kind of complements on dates - Bohyun suddenly says. He couldn't take his eyes from that table as soon as she removed her coat.
SEOJOON'S P/V:
She looked like an agel and Min returned quickly... walking as if he wanted to kill anything on his way and the dudes trying to conquer the girl scurried away scared.
She smiled to him and said something that made him get all giddy and shy... My girlfriend never did that, never wanted to deal with any difficulties and show me openly that I was the one and only. A woman bluntly went to him but he didn't even looked properly at her... looked annoyed but didn't risedvhis voice and gave her an excuse to not take a picture with him.
- hey... do you preferably will have a dinner on that table?‐Taehyung hushed
‐ It's entertaining actually.
- Really?
- mmm, actually look very encouraging to try again.
Bohyun's P/V:
- You landed a rea l bitch Gloss.
- What are you talking about?
- That exotic pussy, she knows already what's your business?
- No, she doesn't mind to ask.
- I see... she will end dead by the end of the week.
- Why?
- You are trying to leave the underground world... the fact is that one only leaves that getting in prison or six feet underground.
- Nobody had the guts to tell me off... don't get closer to her or the one crossing the rainbow will be you.
- Then don't act as if you are not a demon.
- Until know I only had to worry about GD pushing my buttons, don't become a headache you too.
- I'm only telling... others can't fight your battles anymore Gloss.
BABY'S P/V:
- Ah? To work as what? Me? I think you don't think straight... please.
- Just call me and let's meet up and talk properly... you are so pretty.
- I see..
- Out!!- Yoongi said irritated and the hurried to disappear.
- Thanks love... I didn't wanted to be rude.
- Be rude... do an scene... but don't believe a single word.
- mmmhmmm... like when you are so full of shit... what happened? Or it's a secret?
- Can not date you peacefully without a bastard trying to tell me how I should live my life.
- they are jealous of you because you are a magnificent person and got a cutie to spend the night with.
- Only tonight?
- If I could decide by myself... but think you must have a problem if I invited myself into your life without permission.
- Well I was quite against relationships until you stoled my heart.
- Vampires doesn't need a heart... but I really can't wait to invade your private space... soon.
- Ana... I am not exactly a great lover... let's eat umm?
- Love when you are embarrassed, I love you.
- Seriously someone should look into that head of yours... there are plenty of alternatives.
- But I want you... actually, I tried to resist your charms.
- Didn't worked and now you are my wife... eat... came on.
- You are distracting me.
- I can be silent.
- But not less atractive.
- Ana... don't start and eat, please.
- Me?... you are the one doing this and that all day... maybe you have mistaken me with a rolling stone.
- I'm just trying to treat you as you deserves but I always hated being that kind of man... one that can't control himself.
- Yoongi...
- mmm... came on, I don't bite.
- oh my Gosh... you do... but is not that... I... would like to thank you for this date, I like it. Going out with you is always an experience.
- I should apologize to not bringing you with me often. It's something I always lament not doing things right.
- I don't feel like you failed me so don't worry.
Yoongi changed, now we certanly lived together.
We settled on something that makes us both happy, he is going accompany RM and Taehyung to his enlistment and tomorrow is Jungkook and Jimin's turn.... I wanted to go but even with Yoongi here to help me sleep better I couldn't... if tonight I can't calm down I will have to excuse myself with Jungkook that really wanted me there.
- Don't stress yourself... and go to bed, it's too early to be awake.
- Yoongi... you are cooking.
- I'm hungry.
- It's stress and anxiety, and it's my fault... my past is unusual, I can stop telling you if you want... I think you have a general idea that is was horrible.
- Mine is not better, just without my father being the reason to enter in such a dark world.
- Even if it is worse than mine, I will not change my mind Yoongi I love you for all you have done and said since we met until today. I judged you for your decisions towards me now every day... I have dreams and desires since I am with you. Yoongi... I really don't have expectations for us... if things go well perfect and if is it a disaster... I don't mind either way at least will love you the best I can manage and start again missing you.
- Baika....
- What... even if you result to be worse than the man that was my father... I don't mind because still, nobody treated me as I wanted but you... I can feel that you genuinely mind what happens to me.
- I'm not the only one... everyone that gets to know you a little wouldn't be able to forget you. There is plenty that love you that would kill to be your husband and do better than me - he abandoned his breakfast to tell me.
- They don't... Jin believes that I need protection and care, Jungkook... who knows he doesn't cares to explain me nothing he just comes straight to my soft points to win... that is not love even if they say so.
- And I love you? I am just a bastard that want you to be mine, even if you hate me - he said a little... angry? ... I can't tell, he is difficult to read sometimes.
- Nothing can be worse than a father that trafficked with anything that landed on his hands and desesperated for money sold out as a slave the only reason to not end dead because of his debts and bad business, and maintained a family that never wanted to know what he was up to... I wanted to know why you are so different from everyone to me... but it's something I can't force you to do. I always hided my past... can't ask if I'm not ready to tell you about my past.
- There is more?
- Details but is up to you if I haven't said enough already... I will be honest.
- And about DMZ ?
- I did things... I don't want to tell anyone yet.
- Happens to feel the same... unlike others you know my bright side... everyone else close to me met me doing things that I can't be proud of.
I run after him when I realized that I couldn't understand what he means... he was already seated in the car, ready to close the door when I stopped him. Didn't said anything, I just looked into his eyes, he doesn't have excuses, he is waiting for the day I will try to leave him to do something against it.
- I have to go - he said and I couldn't stop him I forced the food he forgot into his car.
A few seconds the car stopped and he abandoned it to stride the distance until I was in his arms, feeling a kiss that probably didn't lasted more than a few seconds.
I was trembling, paralyzed about his actions as he left me behind one more time. A man came to my side to tell me something that I didn't wanted to hear.
I returned to the apartment and waited for him.
📲 - I will go there...
📱- Jungkook... I don't deserve the effort, surely you have a lot to worry about... just wanted to tell you that I wish you the best with your new task and responsibilities - I tried to convince him because I feel bad enough for not making a bigger effort to go there and see him start his newly lifestyle.
📲 - Look, I'm not going anywhere without a kiss from those lips first.
📱- Yoongi, convince him or order him to don't make a mountain from this.
I returned to the bed and tried to forget about that place and that they all are learning how to kill other human beings with weapons and experience all kind of scary situations or that those that wanted to hurt me are there living a double life.
- Are you sure? Baika... I know you will regret not experiencing more moments with Jungkook before he goes, he will resent you and change there.
- Well is my choice, I will take whatever happens afterwards. One day you will be there too and I don't know if I will ever overcome my trauma.
- Once there we will understand you better, isn't like we can learn from others that easy.
- mmm... I hope you never cross paths with those I met. Yoongi... I am scared that someone tries to hurt them. Jin didn't said anything but I can tell he knows more than necessary about what's going on in DMZ.
- I am no going to DMZ to do my basic training... Hoseok also is always training new people so he doesn't do anything dangerous. Jin will take care of those in the same camp.
- Can we cuddle tonight?
- Yes... try to sleep a little... I know that you wanted to make him happy at least going in the car but you are not ready.
I couldn't sleep, rest or feel better about it. Nightmares made me feel horrible. It was raining when Yoongi left the apartment I walked towards a place where I could see his car abandon the city before going home to get a hot shower before anyone noticed my presence in the middle of the night.