Since then
Eunseok has changed a little.
To be precise,
It feels like I don't have to hide things I was hiding.
When I study
The seat is always next to me,
During break time, he came up to me quietly and spoke to me.
“What are you going to have for lunch today?”
“They say the way to write answers has changed.”
“Wasn’t this a bit difficult? I got it wrong too.”
One by one
They were small words, but
Those words only came to me.
The study group members also started to feel something was strange.
“Senior Eunseok, did you always talk like this?”
“Were you two close?”
“Isn’t the atmosphere a bit… strange?”
When someone asked casually,
I said, “No,
“I guess it’s because I see it often in study groups,” he said with a laugh.
Inside me
Questions kept piling up.
Why is this guy doing this?
Is it just a favor?
Or maybe that wasn't all that was said that day?
After studying
Eunseok is waiting for me
It wasn't strange anymore.
“Do you want to go to the subway station together?”
“Can I stop by the convenience store?”
His words
It all seemed like everyday life,
What is hidden inside it?
I thought I was the only one who knew.
One day,
I'm about to leave after studying
Another crew member tapped me on the shoulder.
“You guys… are you really dating?”
I was breathless for a moment.
“No, really not.”
“But the atmosphere is strange.
Senior Eunseok, I only talk to you, I only smile at you,
“I can see it all. We all have eyes.”
I can't say anything
I just pretended to smile.
That pretend
I was getting more and more used to it.
On the way home,
I looked at the message Eunseok sent again.
Go in carefully.
I listened carefully to today's presentation.
Are you going to the library tomorrow too? I might stop by for a bit if it's there.
These are sentences that are cut off sharply,
There was so much emotion in it.
He now
It was clear that there was no distance between them.
The problem is,
Within that distance
How far in am I?
That's what I didn't know yet.