©️ Earthquake in My Head (2022)
Jeongguk, who had taken a short nap in the early morning, woke up, shook his head, and looked at the clock.
I need to talk to Taeju today.
It was too harsh on myself to continue like this.
Jungkook came down to the underground parking lot and got out of the car.
I called my parents.
"Mom~ Could you look after Won and Dam today..?
"I want to spend some time with Taeju..."
"Yeah, I was already missing my grandchildren...
Are you guys going to bring the kids?
Or should we pick you up..?"
My parents said they would be happy to let me go.
At times like this, I'm really glad I live close to my parents.
Jungkook left in a hurry and also called Taejoo.
After a long wait, Taeju answered the phone.
"...Uh...Jungkook..."
"Did you eat breakfast..?
I made some bean sprout soup for you when I left yesterday. Did you reheat it and eat it?
".. Yeah, thank you.. I ate it earlier.."
Taeju's voice sounded a little choked up.
"How are you feeling..? Are you okay..?"
"I was feeling a bit under the weather earlier, but I think I'm okay now..."
"I'm on my way home, let's spend some time together today..
Is there anything you want to do or go to?
Let's talk together.. How about it..? "
Taeju thought about it for a moment,
I started to think that I needed to talk to Jungkook.
".. Then, should we go out to the suburbs for a bit..? I don't like places with a lot of people.."
Tae-ju, who didn't go out much after the wedding...
It's boxing that I've been learning, and also private meetings with members.
Unlike Jeongguk, who was always going
Taeju was always careful when going out.
Jeongguk, whose mind was still filled with the few words he shared with Yoongi,
I suggested we do that and asked the kids to get ready to go out.
When Jungkook arrived home,
Both children changed into outdoor clothes
Taeju was packing up his things.
"Should I buy something...?"
I have to go to my in-laws' house for the first time in a long time
I think I need to pack something and take it with me.
Taeju seems to be really nervous.
"Okay, why don't you come to my house for a day or two?
Let's just go cheap and fast~"
Jeongguk responded as if it was nothing and then urged the children to go down.
Tae-ju grabbed a hangover cure and followed Jeong-guk, who was leading the way.
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.
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I left the kids and went to a chicken nurungji soup restaurant in the suburbs.
I wonder if Taeju is still feeling unwell
It was a menu that Jungkook had put a lot of thought into.
It's a nurungji soup restaurant,
Because it has an independent space and a private terrace
It was a place where Taeju could be comfortable.
It's a place where you have to make a reservation a week in advance,
It's a place run by a friend of the manager's
They accepted same-day reservations.
Tae-ju didn't say anything in the moving car.
Tae-joo likes the way Jeong-guk works for him, but
I don't really know what to do about my situation.
I hesitated to show any reaction.
"Honestly, was I too indifferent to you...?"
Jungkook glanced towards the passenger seat,
Taeju looked out the window of the moving car.
The quiet Taeju is anxious about the situation.
I gently grabbed Taejoo's hand that was on my lap.
Fortunately, Taeju didn't pull his hand away.
Jungkook found a little more courage to continue speaking.
"Taeju... Is it hard to work from home?
How can I help you~?"
Jungkook's hand tightened slightly as if trying to convey his feelings.
"If you have any difficulties... tell me...
I can't give you any advice because my social experience is limited, but
I will do my best to listen carefully.."
Taeju, who was still looking out the window
Only then did I look back at the situation.
"Okay.. um.. then I'll talk to you little by little.. will you listen..?"
Tae-ju pulled his hand away and held Jeong-guk's hand properly.
But after that, Taeju didn't say anything.
Jungkook said that he wished he had done this much
I thought Taejoo would tell me on his own, but
I decided to wait for now.
Food was already set out at the seats we were guided to.
Jeongguk, who had been moving diligently since morning
I was absorbed in my meal for a while,
Taeju is with her husband
I like the feeling of stability, but
I wasn't sure how to open my heart.
Can I just go back as if nothing happened..?
Taeju looked at Jeongguk who was eating quietly.
Jungkook, who had been eating in silence, spoke first.
"It's really hard to look after the kids without you...
How are you adjusting to a new job?
I'm sorry I didn't pay much attention.. "
"No, Jungkook, I like spending time with the kids.
Office workers are also very interested in raising children.
The atmosphere is good because everyone is raising children.
I think I've adapted to this point."
Taeju took a sip of warm barley tea.
Jeongguk observed Taeju's expression and asked something he was really curious about.
"Then why... did you want to live apart from me..?
"It's not a work problem...?"
Taeju is looking at me with anxious eyes in front of him.
Jeongguk's face appeared.
"It's still... difficult to organize it well,
Um... I just... I can't admit myself.
The me of now is the me who used to be a designer
I feel like I'm becoming a more torn apart mother...
I shouldn't be attached to my old self...
I hate myself for being like that..
It's not necessarily your fault, though.
When I look at you, I feel so divided.
I think I wanted to run away."
Jungkook blinked his big eyes.
"It's not my fault..? Then why are you doing this to me..?"
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