Hey guys, I'm the person who cried and hugged a stranger last time. I'm going to tell you what happened next.
That senior called me over after class. I wanted to ignore him, but my situation wouldn't allow it. So I stayed, and he asked me:
"What's happening?"
"Uh... What?"
"Ah, I didn't mean it that way..."
"What I wanted to ask is why you're here."
Seriously, how am I supposed to answer that? I feel like I studied for the entrance exam and got myself into this major...
"Oh, I'm sorry...!"
So I just apologized, because I didn't know what else to say. But that senior seemed really popular. Besides, he cared about me and spoke to me first.
"Don't worry, are you really okay? I saw you crying a lot earlier..."
Another thing that struck me was that this senior, even though he was a junior, always spoke to me respectfully. He occasionally used a more casual tone of voice, and I realized this guy knew how to charm people. Anyway, I felt so embarrassed by what had happened that I just said it was fine and quickly left.
The next day, there was a welcome meeting for new students, and I went. Several departments were present, and the senior was there too. There were some faces I didn't want to see, but after thinking about it a lot, I decided that since I was a new student, I had to be there. So I sat like a statue. But how is this possible? That senior started talking to me as if he were doing it on purpose.
Every time I saw him, I remembered what had happened, and I felt so ashamed I wanted to die. But he seemed to be trying to look me in the eye. I thought, "I can't stay here another minute," and I went outside for a moment. After a while, I felt someone approaching. I looked beside me, and... it was him!
I wondered if he really thought I was wrong or if he was just trying to be nice. So, I tried to ignore him and went back, but he spoke to me.
Are you a new student?
Wasn't it obvious I was a new student? But honestly, that wasn't the point. All I could think to do when he spoke to me was apologize. I wasn't really thinking about whether I was comfortable or not; I just wanted to get out of there. So I just replied, "Huh?..."
"Eh...?"
"Yes, that's it..."
"Why do you stumble over your words every time I speak to you? Is this something that happens to you often?"
"No, that's not it..."
How can I stay calm in this situation? I thought he was doing it on purpose to make me more nervous. I realized this guy knows how to make you lose your composure.
"If you're bothered by me talking to you, don't worry, you don't have to apologize anymore."
"Ah."
"I'm someone who knows how to listen to other people's problems. I saw you crying a lot, so I got worried."
How could someone worry me so much when we were just meeting for the first time? I started to get confused. Did they really care about me? But... why was someone I barely knew still trying to talk to me?
Then, already a little drunk (although I probably didn't feel any of that anymore), I asked him why he kept acting like that.
"But... doesn't it bother you that I'm talking to you? Why do you keep trying to talk to me?"
"Because there's no reason for you to feel uncomfortable."
And then, she gave me a smile with her eyes that almost made me blush. I practically melted at her smile!
After that, he added something else:
"It's just that I'm weak in the face of tears. When someone cries so sadly, how can you not worry about them?"
"Imagine how sad you must have been to hug someone you didn't even know..."
"I'm sorry."
"Okay, I already told you it's okay. Anyway, I was only worried about you because I saw you were upset. Now, have you already forgotten how sad you felt?"
I think I was wrong about him. Maybe I was just genuinely concerned. So I changed my mind about him. He must be a real angel, a 100% kind senior.
I don't think this senior even knows how to drive. He's such a sweet fool.
As I was heading home, more things happened, but I'll tell you about that another day. Wait.