A beautiful, painless goodbye. 1
What is a beautiful farewell?
A breakup that is clean and free of hurt feelings towards each other, That is a breakup that occurred when neither of them loved the other.
A breakup where you wish each other happiness and cheer for the future, That happens when you value your own future or yourself more than each other.
My breakup was electronic.
He is my first love and the person I spent the longest time with.
He is the person who watched over me during my teens and mid-twenties.
The time we loved was long, but our end was only a moment.
Of course, it took a long time to decide to break up.
But when I told you I was breaking up, your answer was so easy
That answer made the eight years I spent with you feel like a waste.
We had our first relationship just before we reached the age where we should have been studying hard.
"Aren't you hungry?"
"Totally. What do you want to eat?"
"How are you feeling today?"
"How are you feeling today? Are you feeling good?"
"Then let's eat tteokbokki."
"What does my mood have to do with tteokbokki?"
"If something annoys you, you eat spicy chicken feet, but if nothing annoys you, you eat tteokbokki."
"...Are you a pervert?"
"Let's keep quiet and go eat some tteokbokki - "
When I was a second year high school student with no money, there were times when I was happy just buying small tteokbokki together on the way home after studying with you.
"I put on really sloppy makeup today."
"Well, I didn't know."
"But the lighter one is prettier."
"...is that a pretty word with a purpose?"
"Hey, what are you talking about? Eat quickly."
“You have a purpose, right? Then yes. How come you don’t even tell your girlfriend she’s pretty?”
"Oh, I see."
"Kim Yeo-ju is so pretty. Our Yeo-ju is the prettiest in the world."
"Hey, don't try too hard... It's obvious from the look in your eyes..."
"Oh, a lot?"
"...I hate you the most in the world."
"It's okay. As long as I'm happy, that's fine.
"What do you want me to do? You eat this all by yourself and come out."
"Oh, hey, I'll buy you ice cream on the way."
"...really?"
"Of course - you can choose the expensive one."
"Okay. Let's eat quickly and go get some ice cream."
At that time, I didn't know anything and just felt good.
You are so bright and kind to me who was really tired from studying and going to academies.
Because I knew you would be with me for the rest of my life.
"3,2,1"
"happy new year -"
"Congratulations on becoming a senior in high school."
"Oh, what is it - "
“Shouldn’t you just say congratulations?”
"There's no such thing. We're in our third year of high school now."
"Yeah, congratulations on your third year of high school too. Our monkey."
In the third year of high school, it was an age when all I had to do was study, and more than anything, we were all so busy that we didn't have time to meet each other.
So, the neighborhood playground we always see after going to the reading room became our date spot.
"It must be hard. Go in quickly and sleep. When you get home, just leave a text and go straight to sleep."
"You too. But if you can't sleep, call me right away. I can answer."
"Oh, what is it? Okay. Good night."
"Yeah. I love you, Kim Yeo-ju."
I had a more stable life as a high school senior than I expected.
"Man, I'm shaking like crazy."
"Hey, what's the fuss? We're going to stick together."
"Oh my, there's only one minute left."
"Hey, would you like me to boil some ramen for you?"
"Oh, good. Let's just boil it after seeing the results. Did you enter your exam number?"
"Yeah... but what if only one person sticks with me?"
"Oh, a little."
"...Hey, it's up."
"Boiling ramen -"
And congratulations, you're now a college student.
"Oh my, what should I do... You'll have to stick with me again."
"Oh, I see."
"What, you don't like it?"
"Hey, I don't want to. I'm about to cry right now."
"...Uh...I saw you wiping away your tears earlier..."
The news of my acceptance to the university that made me so nervous and anxious, and the university itself, were with you.
"Don't drink too much"
"Maybe not. I might carry you."
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"Ah, I knew it would be like this..."
"Hey, hey Park Jimin, come to your senses."
"Hey lady, I'm going to..."
"Hey you little shit, I told you not to drink too much."
"It's cold, so let's go home quickly. I'll take you."
"Okay, let's go."
When I turned 20, I drank my first drink with you, and thanks to you, I was able to see for the first time what your injections were like.
"Oh - Park Ji-min, Management 16"
"Kim Yeo-ju, Management 16, did you dress up a bit today?"
"Who are you trying to impress?"
"Is there anyone else I can look good in besides you?"
"Oh, I'm so happy with that answer."
"The kid who used to carry my school bag keeps trying to beat me these days."
Ah, Park Jimin and I didn't first meet when we were in high school. We were hometown friends, but we broke up when I moved first when I was in middle school.
So, when we met for the first time in high school, he confessed first and we started dating
I'll tell you more about that later (if you like it)
"Is it good?"
"of course."
"We're having a freshman welcome party after OT. Are you going?"
"If you don't go, you'll get caught."
"Then let's hurry up and drink and then come out and watch a movie at my house."
"Oh, okay."
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"Hey, hurry up and drink and then let's go watch a movie at your place."
"Are you going home this drunk? Come to your senses."
"Hey...let's go home..."
"Okay, let's go quickly. Put your arms here."
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"Hey, you know you have class tomorrow morning. I set an alarm, so wake up."
"You can just sleep here and go."
"...This is really mean. It's upstairs anyway, so why are you sleeping there?"
"I'm going."
"Go to sleep. I'm feeling empty."
"...What did you say? Our Jimin drank a lot. Grow up."
"Kim Yeo-ju really doesn't listen to what she says."
"I'm not that drunk. Come to work, quickly."
So I just went to sleep...
But honestly, I acted really tough in front of Park Jimin.
When he said this that day, my ears turned really red, my heart started beating really fast, my voice was really loud, and my face got really hot.
Park Jimin wasn't the simple-minded person he was in high school.
Beep - beep - beep -
"Park Jimin, wake up."
"...I was up, did I do something wrong to you yesterday?"
"It wasn't there, so stop talking nonsense and get up."
"No, I just remembered something strange."
"...Can't you see that I'm also watching you closely.."
"...is it a mortal sin?"
"It's not like that, so don't worry. Let's eat breakfast quickly and go to school."
This kid had this expression all day ;;
But that happiness didn't last long.
I never thought the day would come when I would see you enlist in the military, and I never knew that your long-awaited discharge would come so quickly.
"You're discharged from the military, but is there anything you want to do?"
"I'll just lay around at home with you all day. Should we watch a movie?"
"Huh, I've done that a lot. Anything else?"
"I just want to be comfortable with you, nothing special."
"By the way, let's order your favorite tteokbokki. Today is a good day, so let's have tteokbokki."
"...He's a genius at seducing people, a genius."
"Isn't it good?"
"Yeah. I think it would be really nice if you didn't do that to other women."
"Hey, if anyone hears, they'll know I did that before."
"I haven't changed since I was in the second year of high school. I'm still the same. I'm still like this only to you."
"I spoke well just now."
"Yeah. I raised him well. I raised him well."
"I really like confessions like that. Do them regularly."
"I can show you this, not just tell you."
"Oh, I don't think that's necessary."
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At 22, I was relieved to know that I would never be apart from you again.
"What should I watch?"
"Let's see what you wanted to see before."
"Yeah! Actually, the answer was already decided."
"It's okay. Selfish women are quite attractive too."
"Tunda"
In the fourth year, we've watched almost 30 movies together.
But there was still one thing that was hard to get used to.
A scene that should never be left out of a romantic movie... that's right...
It's a kiss scene...
I don't really see things like that.. but I can't see Park Jimin even more
But at that time, I was tapping Park Jimin's lips again..
Park Jimin's lips really look like a bird's beak, right? But when you look at them from the side, they're so cute..
As I was doing that, that scene just came out..
But this bastard's mouth corners have been twitching since a while ago ;;
"...What is it?"
"Why are you touching my lips?"
"Are you dissatisfied?"
"This isn't something you're supposed to just poke around with."
"...What should I do?"
I can't get used to it whenever he says things like this.
"Is the movie fun?"
"Yeah. It's so much fun, so just stay still and do nothing."
"I'll try."
I was so focused on the movie that about 15 minutes passed.
No, strangely, for the past few minutes, he's been looking only at me ;;
"..what are you looking at"
"Your face."
"Why? What did you get?"
"Oh, he's matured since he came back from the military."
"Why are you carrying that? It's heavy."
"Oh, I really hate you."
When I see you talking like this, it seems like you're just joking.
"When will this end?"
"There are only a few minutes left. Why?"
"We said it before. Let's have an exciting confession time."
"No. I don't need it anymore."
"No. I need it."
"..Why is it like this."
As the movie nears its end, Jimin gradually approaches the female protagonist.
The female protagonist, who had been retreating continuously, was eventually pushed to the edge of the sofa.
"I really missed you"
"It's not that we haven't seen each other for a year and a half, we've only seen each other for three months."
"It was still long."
"..whatever"
"Hey, hey, it's too close. Hey, move over there a bit..."
"No. I missed you so much."
"Me too. I missed you so much and I love you. But, please, let's move away a little. We're too close, right now."
"You said you loved me first."
It was okay for the first 6 years of dating.
But the remaining two years made those beautiful six years the worst.
I'll tell you why we broke up later.
Huh? Where did all my fingers go? Are they all wrinkled from all that cringing?