I thought everyone would be eating late and coming back up.
As for me, right now I don't really feel like eating.
If I were my usual self, I'd have run out happily, but even though I look pathetic, being swayed by something as trivial as feelings.. What can I do? Feelings aren't something you can control anyway.
The clock is still ticking along slowly,
and even my eyelids blink slowly, in sync with the second hand.
If only this clock could run backward again and take me back to before I started liking Lee Sanghyeok. Back to when I was a kid.
Would I have been able to live without worrying like this, without hurting like I do now.
..There's no point thinking about this.
Honestly, after the CSAT, a wish? At first I was going to make it something stupid and money-grubbing, like asking for something expensive or to buy me a meal.. but somehow it pricks my conscience. No, honestly, I want something else.
..I want to date Sanghyeok oppa.
Have I really kept the immature thoughts of a kid alive all the way until my third year of high school? Or is it that my revived love cells picked the worst possible person, Lee Sanghyeok, or was it just lingering attachment.
A one-sided crush that has lasted over six months is just lingering attachment, they say.
But this feeling is too big to be just lingering attachment
and too sinful to be called love.
It only feels like the clock is getting slower and slower.
Everything feels like it's slowing down.
..I'm going crazy because it feels like my relationship with that person is only getting slower.
