1. Foolishness
I tried to forget you. I tried to forget everything, erase everything, and be happy again. But I couldn't.
It was a small, foolish desire that set me ablaze again. But when I saw him again recently, that small desire quickly fanned the flames of my feelings for him.
So I couldn't face him with confidence or emotion. I started to regret not holding on when he said he wanted to break up.
My heart ached more than it did when we had just broken up.
It was a pain I couldn't bear.
I wished he would come back and hug me again.
* * *
2. Regret
I regret it. I am consumed by endless regret. Since we broke up, not a single day has passed that I haven't thought of him.
I wanted to erase him, but I couldn't, so I soaked my pillowcase with memories of him that came to mind every day.
Why did I do that? It's all my fault.
I couldn't hold on to the relationship that ended because of my fault. I couldn't bring myself to hold on to him again. I hated myself for being so cold that day.
It would be my greed to wait for spring with you again.
* * *
“The promise I made to forget was blown away by a single gust of wind.”
“Just like all the promises I made to erase were lies.”
“There isn’t a single day that I don’t think about.”
“Is it my greed to wait for your spring again?”
