This might be a bit awkward to watch, so please only watch if you're willing to make up your mind. Don't say I didn't warn you. I'm just saying this long story about taking a break from this workshop, so please bear that in mind.
Hello, this is Nyungbi.
I'd like to apologize for not being able to come since I opened the 6th application room. Honestly, I thought about just ignoring you and acting normally here, but that was too hard. I did what I usually do in other chats and KakaoTalk, but I ended up getting really sad. I was really hurt for about two weeks. And the trauma from the knife started the day before yesterday, so I honestly felt a sense of resistance to continuing the cover and various fanfly activities like this. The reason I was like this was simply because of a fight between my husband and I. But they kept going so far that it was really emotionally painful. The only reason was that my dad was making a fuss about my grades and we fought. Actually, we didn't even fight. My dad just unilaterally got angry at my mom, and my mom just got on her knees and begged. That's why I even thought, "I'm a dying b*tch."
음, 제가 왜 이 얘기를 여기서 하냐고 물어보실 수 있으실텐데, 사실 이 얘기를 누구한테도 할 수도 없어요. 친구들한테 얘기하면 분명 놀릴 게 뻔하고, 그렇다고 이걸로 신고하기에는 제가 너무 무서워요. 지금은 그래도 두 분께서 화해하셔서 더 이상 손도 쓸 수도 없고. 그래서 여기서는 제 실명이나 원래 모습을 숨길 수 있으니깐. 그리고 아마 따뜻하게 대해주시는 독자분들이 계시니깐 여기다 말하면 제 속이 좀 풀릴 것 같아서 그래요. 이게 컨셉잡고 지랄떤다고 생각한다면.. 음, 그냥 제가 주접떠는 새끼라고 생각하고 넘어가세요. 저는 그냥 속이라도 시원하게만이라도 이렇게 말하고 싶었으니깐요. 그래서 그동안 6차 신청자분들께는 정말 사과드리고 싶습니다. 외람된 말이지만 조금만 저한테 좀 진정할 시간만 주세요. 정말 죄송해요. 정 급하다 싶으면 오픈채팅에 늉비라고 치면 저 나와요. 거기에다가 막 재촉을 하셔도 됩니다. 저는 지금 그러고도 남을 년이거든요. 그리고 무슨 일로 트라우마 생긴 거냐고 묻지 말아주세요. Even without that, that time is still lingering in my head. It's so frustrating for me to be like this. If you could just leave a small comment like "Cheer up" to me, I would be so grateful.
If this post is problematic, I will delete it immediately. I'm so sorry to come to you all with this. However, if you come to me pretending to be cheerful, I might really break down, so I'm bringing this notice and personal circumstances together. I'm truly sorry. While I'll stop writing covers, writing is my main job, and it's been a while since I took a break, so I'll force myself to write. So please don't criticize me too much. I'll be back here with a cover soon. I promise. I apologize to you all again.