I-han: Huh? I’m okay, yeah... I’m fine. Ah, did hyung say he was going to play PUBG?
I changed the subject.
It’s been a week since I broke up with you.
Lately, all I do is lie.
Afraid I’d say something bad about you in front of my friends, even though I don’t know anything.
(A week earlier)
??: Let’s break up.
I-han: Babe? What are you talking about...?
It was already a noisy day, with rain falling in a crowded place.
But your words cut through even the sound of the rain and reached your ears.
??: I said let’s break up.
I clamped my mouth shut.
I pretended I hadn’t heard it again, for no reason.
I tried to act like a grown-up...
In the end, we broke up that day, all for nothing.
I still liked you too much to even get angry.
On the way home, I spilled my feelings out alone, and as soon as I got inside, I yanked off the jacket I’d worn to look cool and threw it hard on the floor.
I’d been okay for a while, but as the days passed, memories of you kept coming back and I ended up falling apart.
Human feelings are really messed up.
They go up and down and make you miserable.
Even though I want to seem like an adult, I guess I’m still just a kid.
If it had to be this way, you could’ve just said something meaner.
Like that you really hate me, or that I disgust you.
Those two words, let’s break up, are even crueler.
I’m crying.
I’m crying like a little kid, and nobody knows.
I keep crying.
I can’t believe you’re gone, so I cry, and cry again.
I can’t ever love again.
I really feel like I’m going crazy.
Whenever I look at you, you’re laughing happily with someone else, and it hurts me so much.
In front of my friends, I force a smile.
But when I’m walking home alone, I cry again.
When you smile, it burns inside me.
In front of everyone else, I’m still just
lying endlessly today...
