Should have been

Did I say that?

The four of them went out again, leaving me alone in the condo. But it would be more accurate to say that I chose not to go.

I'm drowning in my thoughts again and I don't think I'll be able to handle it if I don't write all of this down. The bus ticket. Your face the day we chose to let go.

Why did they stick this ticket in my book? It's all Alexandra's fault. I told her to throw it away, she even made a bookmark. She told me when I got home.

I should never go back to that day. The tears in your eyes when you said my dreams were more important than ours. The crack in your voice as you said, "I love you so go after all your dreams without me because I know I'll just be a burden in your life."

Nothing fell from my eyes. Not a word escaped my lips. I only nodded in response to everything you said. Because I couldn't believe it. This wasn't happening. The painful truth just slapped me when you were no longer in front of me. When we were just memories.

Now I wonder if if I had said everything back then, would anything have changed? Now, with every breath I take, I pray that the clock would turn back. That I could have fought for what we were because I still love you. You are still there until the end.

My room door opened. It was Stell. She was carrying food. She tapped my shoulder.

"Dre, what are you thinking about again?"

I nodded. He nodded too and went out, gently closing the door.

He knew I had to write this song.