I have my work messenger turned on
I didn't send him a message.
There was one file I needed, and I knew he had it.
I didn't bother asking.
If you ask him, he will alsoI'll tell you in a polite and expressionless voice.
I hated enduring it even more.
30 minutes before leaving work,
He spoke first.
[Team Leader Lee Sang-won]
Conference room A is empty. Can you practice your presentation today now?
Instead of typing on the keyboard, I just stared at the messenger window for a long time.
Somehow I answered in a businesslike manner.
[me]
Yes, I'll go now.
Conference Room A is a small room at the end of the office.
The lighting is unusually dark and the walls are thick.
It was a space that everyone used only for interviews or resignation consultations.
I opened my presentation materials, sat down on my chair, and prepared.
He just sat quietly and listened.
After a while, when I finished explaining
He spoke without taking his eyes off the monitor.
“Would you like to try this project again?”
I stopped the touchpad with frozen hands.
“Is there a problem?”
“No. The plan is fine. But… something just doesn’t feel like you.”
That means,
It wasn't like I was completely rejecting a well-planned plan.
It was neither praise nor criticism.
just-That I'm not the me he knew.
“It’s not like it used to be.”
I said calmly.
"At that time, I didn't want to hear people say I was emotional, so I tried to hold everything in and failed."
He looked at me. He looked me in the eye, to be exact.
“Do you still remember that story?”
“I can’t forget. That was the last time.”
“…….”
“I remember everything you said to me that day.”
He was speechless.
Instead of speaking, he quietly took a step towards me.
Beyond the desk, just half a step away.
Lee Sang-won was a person who usually kept his distance from people.
The fact that he is so close now,It was an unusual situation.
“That day,”
He spoke quietly.
“Actually, that’s not what I meant to say.”
A sinking feeling in your heart.
Something I tried hard to forget
He took it out too easily.
"therefore…?"
“The person above me. He said he was going to reorganize the staff.
That's when your name was on the list.
The last comment I left was,
“I was like, ‘Let’s leave this person behind.’”
“Then what about that text?”
“The secretary sent it.
While organizing people, what's the point of delivering it directly?
I was asked to choose one of the given comments and send it.
“I couldn’t stop it.”
I looked straight at him and swallowed the words I couldn't ask.
That one-liner.
“It seems too emotional to work together.”
that is,
That wasn't what he said.
The truth I heard too late,
I don't know why it feels so empty.
"so-"
Just before my voice cracked
He said.
"so,
I said let's start over.
That was my decision.”
It's time to leave work, the lights in the office are off
Even after everyone left
I was sitting in the conference room, blankly.
I didn't see when Lee Sang-won left.
That person has always been like that.
By the time I collapsed, it was gone.