It was someone else's story. It was about boredom.
"Kim Yeo-ju! I thought I was dying to see you..."
As we hadn't seen each other before, there were more and more expressions of affection, and every time that happened, Seongwoo and Woojin would frown.
"Wow... This is more heartbreaking than a separated family... I'm crying, I'm crying..."
Lunch together, walk together.
Everything was as it was, everything was perfect.
But the problem probably arose on the day I went to eat at the cafeteria with you.
"Hello, Oppa!"
A girl who sat next to you as if she was your friend.
"Uh...hello."
I heard you were a freshman in the same theater and film department as me.
Calling you oppa, smiling lightly, and even speaking in a cute tone of voice.
I didn't like a single one of them.
From that day on, that kid kept appearing in front of us.
"Don't worry too much. It'll fall off soon. By the way, would you like to go on a date with me this weekend, Miss Yeoju?"
Compared to me, who was on edge, you seemed unfazed.
Whenever that girl appeared, you held my hand tightly and drove the nail in firmly.
"I'm sorry... I can't see you. So stop."
You, who used to wave the hand you held tightly with me in front of that child's eyes while saying those words.
It seemed like a routine you'd gotten used to. I suppose I could do the same thing now, but strangely enough, it was something I couldn't get used to.
One day,
"ruler!"
I bought you a mask,
You keep wearing this. I can't stand living like this, it's so annoying...
I said that once. At that time, you were wearing a mask,
"I can't help it. Look. He's still handsome, isn't he?"
And he playfully accepted it.
So if I pretend to be upset,
"Are you upset?"
You were the one who cheered me up by giving me kisses like a puppy.
Yeah, well, he's the most stubborn guy in the world. Don't worry.
It was exactly a week after I decided to say that.
At some point, you and that kid became close senior-junior friends.
To my eyes, it still looks like a fox,
You just said you were my junior.
You're such an idiot. Do you believe that?
You're going to get calluses in your ears, I hate him. Don't eat lunch with him. Don't even talk to him!
Even though I said that, you just kept repeating that I was worrying for nothing, that I was just your junior, and that we were in the same department, so how could we not meet?
To be honest, I was a little disappointed.
So I called Sohyun and cried out loud.
He said that the doctor's condition has changed and that he will fall for it if he keeps wagging his tail.
That day, you came running in a hurry, carried me on your back as I cried, and took me to my studio apartment.
"I told you, you're the only woman I have."
I always said the things you said that I liked.
And that first year student. Idain.
The child came to me and said.
"Senior. You're so unattractive. Should I be a little more nervous?
I'm confident."
He may not have charm, but he has strength. I held back from punching him. I was confident. After all, Eui-Geon was the coolest and most dependable boyfriend in the world.
But that afternoon.
Eui-geon, who had a lunch appointment with me, suddenly called to say he couldn't make it, so I had no choice but to eat at the cafeteria with Woo-jin.
I saw it while eating at the cafeteria, and I saw it with Idain and the lecture.
A situation that was unbelievable, but was true.
I couldn't even intervene, so I just watched the two of them laughing and talking.
I had a thousand thoughts in my head, and I couldn't eat.
In the end, I just went outside.
That evening.
I contacted Ui-Geon to meet up, but you didn't read my message.
You didn't answer my calls or texts.
I had no choice but to ask the voice actor about Ui-geon's whereabouts.
What I found out was that you and Idain had gone somewhere together.
Even in that situation, I was so pathetic, I waited for your call.
That night passed like that.
The next day, I saw you again, with that child.
As soon as we met, I started shooting sharp words at you.
Maybe it was the tension. We'd never changed, and we were afraid we'd experience a period of boredom like any other couple.
"Regarding the lecture. Why aren't you answering my calls?"
"Oh, that's my...."
"Oh my, senior! We meet again! Yesterday, Ui-geon said that oppa and I were going to have a drink together~ I don't think you really cared, but that's what happened."
I asked Yi-geon, but his words were drowned out by Da-in's. It was all unnecessary. So, you couldn't contact me because you were drinking with her? You're saying that now...
"See you at the cafe we went to last time at 5 o'clock today. Let's talk."
It was the coldest conversation we've ever had.
"Hey, would you like to go eat with me?"
"Yes, senior."
These days, I feel like I spend more time with senior Minhyun than with you.
I didn't even have lunch plans with Yi-geon today. Since he hasn't said anything, I guess I'll be eating with Da-in again. So what? Something must be up. Let's not be so sensitive.
I'm trying to understand you, but you haven't even contacted me.
Even while eating with senior Minhyun, all I could think about was you.
We were supposed to meet at a cafe at 5 o'clock.
What should I say? That was my biggest worry.
"Hey... Yeoju..?"
"..Ah..! Senior.. I'm sorry.. What were you talking about..?"
The only thing that matters to me right now is you.
I wanted to hear your story. Of course, there must have been a reason you couldn't contact me, and a reason you were with Idain yesterday. I thought there must have been a reason.
I waited for 5 o'clock and ended up arriving at the cafe a little early.
I ordered two iced Americanos and waited for you, trying to calm my turbulent heart.
I didn't want to get mad at you. I wanted to resolve this more rationally and calmly, and suggest we go to the aquarium together this weekend.
Ding-
I happily got up and raised my hand as I saw you come in with the sound of the bell.
And what I saw was Idain following behind you.
My heart, which I had worked hard to cultivate, became colorful again,
Your face, not smiling at me, made my heart ache again.
"Hey, heroine..."
"I meant to tell you to come alone..."
"That's... the truth...!"
"Sai... looks good."
"..."
Tears welled up in my eyes for no apparent reason.
I didn't want to cry, but for some reason tears came out.
"Lady, please listen to me..."
"Eui-geon. You should have just... not come."
I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I couldn't think of anything.
Me, who trusts you yet feels so insecure, and you, who brought that piece of gum along with our promise. I didn't like either of them.
"I'll just go, Eui-geon. We can have coffee together."
And then I turned around. The things that were still unsettled in my head seemed to be sucking me deeper into anxiety.
I felt like I needed to get out of here quickly and sort out my feelings so I could talk to you.
The moment I turn around and take a step forward,
widely-
"Kim Yeo-ju, please tell me what to do...!"
"I can't do it!"
As you held me captive, trying to tell me what you were trying to say, my innermost feelings spilled out. At the same time, a tear, barely holding itself together, fell, unable to hold back, but I held back my tears.
"You may be familiar with it! You may be routine!
I feel anxious every moment I meet you.
"It hurts so much, Eui-geon, holding on to you every day with a heavy heart."
"..."
Are you embarrassed or surprised by my true feelings?
He looked at me and couldn't say anything, so I lowered my head.
"Later. Let's talk again later, Yi-geon.
Tonight... let's meet in front of my studio apartment.."
Then he shook off the weak Yi-Geon's hand and came out.
As I left the cafe, I called Sohyun.
"Would you like to have a drink with me?"
I bought five bottles of liquor, which I couldn't handle, and went home. Sohyun, who could hear my wet voice even over the phone, rushed over. Just like last time, I confessed everything to her and got drunk.
"I believe... I believe... but still... it doesn't work out the way I want..."
"Eui-geon isn't that kind of person.. I know him better than anyone else... But why.. does this place hurt so much..?"
"I guess it's because I've endured it for so long... I should've just been honest and complained... I shouldn't've acted like an adult..."
Sohyun must have felt bad too, seeing me drunk and beating my chest.
But Sohyun, who always comforted me.
That's why I was able to strengthen my resolve.
After drinking half a bottle of soju like that, I fell asleep.
Let's brace ourselves. You trust Ui-geon, right? He's not that kind of guy. You know better than anyone that there's no way that would happen, Kim Yeo-ju...
Just thinking about these words.
When I opened my eyes, it was already the middle of the night, and the moment I woke up clutching my pounding head, I remembered the promise I had made with you.
Ah.. right..
A little past 12 o'clock.
In a hurry, I put on the coat I had worn today and ran outside.
It was so late that I thought you might have left, but then I saw your back.
"Lecture"
I called you carefully, and you looked at me with a sad expression.
"My lady."
I had so much to say, but when I saw you, I forgot what I wanted to say. What should I say first?
"Sorry."
I heard you say this while I was wondering what to say.
Sorry..
The moment I heard that, my mind went blank.
Why are you sorry..?
Why are you apologizing..?
Apologizing to me sounded like I was saying I did something wrong.
The emotions that I thought were sorted out were stirred up again, and tears welled up in my heart, making it impossible for me to meet your eyes.
What came into my eyes with that lowered head was,
A soft gutter that will fall into your pocket
The lipstick of a woman I'm seeing for the first time.
"under..."
I knew it was Ida.
"Eui-geon-ah"
"..huh..?"
If I poke your pocket to check,
widely-
A brightly colored lipstick that rolls across the floor with a sound.
I don't use things like that...
"Let's think about it for a while."
"..."
"Don't contact me.."