Listen to me too... (2)
"Get out now... I don't even want to see you..."
He didn't even spare me a cold gaze.
I was so angry I thought I was going crazy.
I thought you went out and I followed you right away.
But, you got into a taxi and left right in front of my eyes.
I felt like my legs were going to give out.
I felt like I was going to collapse on the spot.
The tears you shed, filled with resentment towards me, continued to flash before my eyes.
Your eyes, filled with swaying tears, are not erased from my memory.
This is not why I met you.
I didn't love you with all my heart for this to happen.
If it was going to hurt you, it was a love that I wouldn't have started.
That is, never. I couldn't help but love you.
Because it's you.
I stood there with my head down for a long time in the spot where the taxi you rode passed me.
I couldn't put into words the feelings I had at that time.
It was painful and regretful, but it was a much more complex emotion.
The most important thing among them was,
I have to catch you.
I must stay by your side from now on.
That was it.
And then, Idain came out of the cafe and spoke again.
Now, just hearing the name Idain made me go crazy.
Because I'm angry.
"Oppa, you said you don't drink coffee, so I brought some to go. Go to sleep!"
"under...."
And yet, I hated Idaein so much that she approached me and offered me coffee as if nothing had happened, even after seeing this situation.
The heroine is gone and this coffee...!
puck-
I nervously slapped away Idain's hand, which was offering me coffee while standing next to me.
And the iced Americano that the heroine liked was spilled all over the floor.
"I told you to turn it off."
With just one cold glance, he quickly takes on a gloomy expression,
If I even look away, he smiles again and calls me oppa.
"This is disgusting. I can't listen to it anymore.
Oppa? Seriously. Who's your oppa? Since when am I your oppa? Stop talking nonsense. Senior? We don't even do that anymore.
I don't even want to make eye contact with you. Let's not talk anymore."
I turned away from Idain and put my hand in my pocket, but my phone was gone.
That's right. I lost my phone...
under...
My whole body started to feel anxious, like I couldn't contact you right away. I had to see you as soon as possible.
Don't let any bad thoughts come to you.
at that time,
"Brother!"
Idain calls out to me loudly and hugs me from behind, wrapping both arms around my waist.
Even my efforts to suppress the anger boiling deep inside me were too much for Idain.
"Ha... Get away when I say nice things. This is the basic courtesy and line I keep with you."
"I like you, oppa!"
You finally said those words.
If it were normal, I would have shown at least the slightest consideration for that person's feelings.
But, right now, Idain's feelings for me are,
It was 'just' in front of the love between the heroine and me and the past times.
So I couldn't help but think that it was just that feeling that separated us.
"I don't like you."
At the same time, he shook off the two arms that were wrapped around my waist.
Let's never see each other again.
I went straight to the female protagonist's studio apartment.
You, who said you would meet in the evening.
From now on, I plan to just wait for you to come.
Because I've always been good at waiting.
If only that would make you feel better,
Because I was fine anytime, anywhere...
So the sun set, the moon rose, and you didn't appear until midnight, when the moon was at its brightest.
I've thought about going up to your house dozens of times,
Since it was our promise to meet in front of my studio apartment, I believed until the end that you would come out.
12 o'clock. A day has passed.
It was only then that I met you.
"About the lecture."
When I turned around at the sound of someone calling me, I saw you, who seemed to have come out in a hurry.
His face was swollen, and he smelled of alcohol, perhaps because he had drunk alcohol that he couldn't drink well.
It felt like you were being ruined because of me.
I was so sorry for being so incompetent.
Was I too dull to be a burden to you?
Is that why we are sick?
At eighteen, and now.
Is it because of me that everything happens?
"Sorry..."
When you heard my voice, your eyes became moist again.
My heart was pounding so hard it hurt.
It hurt so much that I was worried I might burst from running.
"Ui-geon-ah..."
When you call me softly, I think about how I should organize my story and tell it to you.
But then,
widely-
Something fell, and it was the lipstick of a woman I had never seen before.
I couldn't figure out why I had this in my pocket.
There was no reason for it to exist, and it shouldn't have existed.
What crossed my mind at that time was,
Idain hugged me in front of the cafe.
Maybe it was then..?
"Let's think about it for a while..."
"..."
"Don't... contact me..."
My heart plummeted to the floor for the third time today.
What should I do with you...
You went into your house without giving me any space, and I was left alone to pick up the fallen lipstick.
And then I went straight to the voice actor's house.
Ding dong-
"who are you?"
"Kang Daniel? At this hour?"
"Give me your phone."
"phone?"
I borrowed a phone from the voice actor and went to school.
I called Idain on the way.
"Come out in front of the school right now."
-
Idain arrived in about 5 minutes.
"What's going on at this hour?"
I handed over the lipstick without saying anything.
"Uh... why is this here?"
I felt like vomiting because the way he pretended not to know was disgusting.
“You can give it to me tomorrow, but why are you out at this late hour? You must be tired.”
There was no response.
It wasn't worth responding to.
When I took out my voice actor phone, Idain showed interest in my actions.
I called my phone number.
Tiring ringing-
A bell rang in Idain's bag.
Well then, I should have known that sooner.
her..
I burst out laughing.
"Give it to me."
"Uh... Oppa, that's..."
"Give it to me."
It was Idain who quietly took out her phone when she saw me getting angry.
"How did that happen..."
I didn't want to hear any excuses. I didn't need to.
That day, under the pretense of homework, I went to the cafeteria and ate there, and I lost my phone. That was probably when someone snatched my phone away.
I snatched my phone away and started walking away.
It felt like someone was calling me from behind, but I wasn't paying attention.
The cell phone battery was barely holding up.
The battery was glowing red, but I was heading to your house without thinking about it.
I kept staring at your phone number, wondering if I should call you, and then looking at the window of your house with the lights off.
It's almost two in the morning.
I wonder if you're awake. Is it not too late?
After much thought, I was about to press the call button next to your phone number when the battery died.
Looking at my thumb floating in the air, I decided to believe in our past times and love, which I could only say was 'so-so' in front of someone else's sincerity, and I had no choice but to head home.
As soon as I got home, I charged my phone.
I was secretly hoping that maybe you had missed a call.
The phone turned on and I looked through the traces from that time.
Three days ago... Two days ago... And today...
All traces of your absence were cut off yesterday.
timing
I sat against the wall.
What should I do and how should I do it in the best way?
The fact that everything was tangled and twisted tormented me even more.
Tiring ringing-
The bell rang, and I looked nervously at the screen, wondering if it was you.
An unknown number was printed on it.
"hello...?"
"This is Busan Hospital. Are you Mr. Kang Eui-geon?"
At this point in time, at this timing.
An unavoidable situation has arisen,
As soon as the sun rose, I took the train down to Busan.
"mom!"
A call just a few hours ago informed me that my mother had been rushed to the hospital in the early hours of the morning.
"Ui-geon? When did you come?"
"just now..."
When I arrived at the Busan hospital, I saw my mother lying in bed.
under....
I breathed a sigh of relief.
"are you okay?"
Why do these heart-pounding things keep coming to torment me? I felt my whole body tremble and my eyes get hot.
So, I stayed up two whole nights by my mother's side, nursing her. Of course, thoughts of you never left my mind.
"Don't contact me.."
I cautiously contacted the voice actor.
'I came to Busan. My mom is in the hospital...'
"Wow! Are you okay? I'll take good care of you!"
'Uh. But what about the female lead...?'
'Did you guys fight? The female protagonist is completely depressed. She feels like she's going to die.
"I'll take care of you quickly and let you go. It's hard to watch you guys get all worked up. It's also hard to watch you leave the female protagonist like that."
'Did you cry...?'
'Did you just cry? What the hell is going on!'
I heard your news.
You too, it seems like you're having a hard time.
My heart was heavy. I had to go back quickly, but my mother wasn't here yet... It was hard... I didn't even have anyone to lean on.
"under...."
How many times have I sighed?
I was so exhausted, both physically and mentally, I was going crazy.
How nice it would be if you came and comforted me at times like this...
No, it would have been better if you had just sat next to me.
I was so overcome with emotion that I felt like I was going to burst into tears at any moment, but I endured the pain.
Maybe it was a challenge.
The challenge is that, even if the situation is like this and the timing is shit, we will put everything back the way it was.
Wiping away a single teardrop with my hand,
I closed my eyes.