We decided not to cross the line.

Episode 103. Change of heart

After finishing breakfast deliciously,

we finished the dishes together and sat down on the sofa.





"Maybe because I haven’t had Korean food in a while,

I’m happy.

When all the Korean food our Hunji brought runs out,

let’s go on a Korean food trip to Malluga.

I heard there’s a Korean market there.

In Canada, there were Korean markets too

and lots of Korean restaurants, so it wasn’t inconvenient,

but I miss that a little here."





'Ah... I shouldn’t have brought up Canada...'





"Jung-a, ..."




Hunji sat down next to me.




"About yesterday... for saying that I was only once,

I’m sorry. I was wrong.

To be honest, I was angry and hurt too,

because it felt like you didn’t understand my feelings at all,

and I guess I said something too harsh out of nowhere."


"Did it... hurt a lot?"





With his first apology,

my anger was gone before I knew it.

Taking his hand, I said,






"Thank you for apologizing first, Hunji.

Yesterday, I was being stubborn and prideful too.

If I were you, even if I could understand it in my head,
 
if I saw letters going back and forth between Hunji and another woman,

I think I’d be really angry too."





"Right? Even Jung-a would be angry, huh?

I was really reading those letters yesterday

and I was so angry and so jealous

it felt like my blood was rushing backward.
 
What does that XOXO mean?

You used it all the time."





"Do you really need to know that?

Just let it go..."





"What is it?"




"Hugs and kisses..."




I answered in a small voice.




"What?"





"Hugs and kisses..."





"I knew it.

For some reason, I figured it had a sweet meaning."




Hunji bit his lip for a moment before speaking again.




"But... why were you drinking with Miguel?"




"Ah... Miguel was someone I ran into

on my way home after getting off work.

He said he’d keep me company for drinks because I looked depressed,

so we drank together..."





"Then did you tell Miguel everything about us?"





"You talk about your worries with your friends too, Hunji."





"I don’t tell my friends things like my worries.

I tend to just keep them to myself."





"Really? That’ll make you sick if you do that.

I meet my friends, talk about my worries,

get advice, and before I know it,

the stress is gone."





"Ah... so that’s why you looked so happy yesterday!"





"Why are you bringing that up now?

We just finished apologizing and the mood was good..."





"While I was reading those letters yesterday,

I changed my mind about something."





The moment I heard that,

I had a bad feeling for some reason.




"You know how we said we’d live separately.

Let’s live together in one house."




As expected, my bad feeling was right.




"Why did you change your mind?"




"I’m going to live in one house like that too,

and write letters, write notes, and all that.

You did that with that person,

so why can’t you do it with me?"





'Ah... '

Our conversation was heading in

a direction I never expected at all.





"That person wasn’t an actor.

Cohabitation wouldn’t have been a stain on them.

And besides, since it was such a short period of a month,

it wasn’t burdensome."





"I decided to worry about later things later.

And if we get married,

it won’t be a stain anymore anyway.

A year goes by fast too. It’s shorter than you think."





'That bullheaded stubbornness again. Again...'





"I told you already.

I want to keep the excitement for a long time.

I don’t want to show you my messy morning face either,

and bodily functions and stuff like that either..."




The more I talked, the smaller my voice got.




"Bodily functions? Ah~ haha"

"Then for a year,

I’ll become deaf and blind too.

So don’t worry."





"No... it’s easy to say that.

It’s not such a simple problem."




"Mm-mm!! That’s enough of this topic!

I’ve already made up my mind.

And seeing you come home drunk with Miguel yesterday

made me even more certain."





"Hunji!

This is a matter of the two of us living together.

Do you think it’s okay to just decide on your own?

What if I keep saying no until the end?"





He suddenly jumped to his feet.




"You’re against it that much?"



His face showed his hurt clearly.





"No... I mean...

Huh? Wait. Why is Miguel calling?

Let’s talk after I take the call."




Since we see each other every day at the café,

Miguel’s sudden call was strange.




"Hello? Miguel, what’s wrong?"




"What do you mean? Someone... came looking for me?"




"Julian?..."




"Meet with me."