17 members of Seventeen
Episode 11
[When the female protagonist was in 5th grade]
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I had many arguments with my mom over this and that.
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But whenever he fights with Mom, Dad always takes her side.
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I always received comfort only from my older and younger brothers.
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Still, thanks to Jihoon oppa, Seokmin oppa, and Chan, I was able to live like this.
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But one day...
Hey, come to the back alley after school.
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The school bullies always called me to the back alley and always beat me up.
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One day I made a promise to myself
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I won't just sit here and take it.
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I wanted to show that I'm not always the one getting picked on.
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So one day...
Shall we give it a try again today?
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Yeah. Beat me up to your heart's content. But I won't just sit here and take it today, right?
what...?
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I kept beating up the bullies like that, and one day I ended up becoming a bully myself.
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But I actually thought it would have been much better if I had become a bully.
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Why?
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What makes me more stressed is not the bullies.
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It's because they were my parents.
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I could never meet up with my friends to hang out.
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Even when we met, we could only hang out for an hour or two.
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And that is only once a week.
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Actually, that's not the important thing.
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Mom always thought she was right.
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He made me do what he wanted.
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I once heard something absurd.
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They're suddenly telling me to go to a traditional music middle school.
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You're going to be a middle school student soon, so you can just go to any middle school.
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Why are you going to a school like that?
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I told you I didn't want to go back then.
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But if they don't just let me go here, it's not my mom—no, not that bastard.
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I told you I didn't want to go, so they booked me a preparatory academy.
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Luckily, I left home so I was able to avoid going.
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But the only person who comforted me is gone.
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When the kids at school find out that I left home and don't have parents
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Ajeong came to my side.
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Comfort me, keep me by your side, cherish me, and love(?) me
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If I didn't have Ajeong and was living alone, I would definitely have committed suicide.
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Of course, I have attempted suicide, but...
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When I was in first year of middle school, I went to a different middle school than the other kids.
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But the words Ajeong told me before I left
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You always comforted me
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But why haven't I been able to make friends?
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When I was in elementary school, I was always getting beaten up by the bullies, so I had no friends.
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Back in middle school, I was a bully, so I beat up every jerk who tried to be my friend.
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I was afraid to make friends because I was afraid I would get beaten up again...
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Making friends has become a trauma for me now.
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Of course, except for Ajeong, Jiyoung, and Jimin.
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Jiyoung and Jimin have been friends since daycare, so I came trusting them back then.
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But Ajeong is the only one who knows exactly how much I'm struggling.
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Ajeong, Jiyoung, and Jimin were going through this too.
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That's why we didn't make friends.
[End of Yeoju's 5th Grade Past]