일기란 개인이 일상에서 체험하는 경험, 생각, 감상 등의 제반사항을 하루 단위로 기록하는 비공식적, 사적 기록이다. 

하지만 나는‥너에게 닿지못할 편지를 매일 일기로 홀린듯이 쓰고있다.

만약 니가 지금 내 일기를 읽고있다면‥‥나를 평생미워하고 싫어해도 좋아

아니,부디 마지막까지 이기적이었던 나를 용서하지 말아줘

일기장

떠오르다

alcoholic drink

노력

최애란없다

윤 여주

윤기

편지

석진

어린 여주

어린 석진

직원

메시지 

간호사

effort

diary

A few weeks later, I'm slowly starting to let go of that memory.

After that, I went to all the acquaintances who knew Yoon-gi, but as expected, Yoon-gi had completely disappeared since he quit the company.

Since it has become like that, there are no more places to go, and it is impossible to continue taking vacations and not going to work, so I started going to work again as usual a few weeks ago.

But after Yoon-gi disappeared, I couldn't let go of my lingering feelings and started sending text messages... Now, like a daily routine... it's become a habit.

I won't say that I want to go back to how things were before.

Just let me have the assurance that you are alive somewhere...

Of course, it was only now that I could send such a desperate and calm text, but just a few weeks ago, I was sending messages with so much excitement that I couldn't hide it.

Min Yoongi! What do you mean you're breaking up with me?!

You answer the phone right now! Won't you answer?!

Please, if you're still alive, text me at least once...

Or did you quit your job and run off to somewhere else?

I'll be fine without you! I'll forget about guys like you!

Yoongi... Did I really say something harsh? I'm sorry.

Just... don't send me the text, just read it.

In this way, I sent messages to Yoongi in a cycle of getting angry, sad, annoyed, and desperate, and recently, I've been sending messages calmly and thoughtlessly as if it were a habit, just going about my daily routine.

To be honest, Seokjin oppa filled a lot of Yoongi's empty space and sadness by stopping by his house often. He drank with him, comforted him, and helped him find him. He really helped me a lot.

Just looking at the traces of Yoongi left brought tears to my eyes, so Seokjin oppa organized the things related to Yoongi into a box and put them away in a corner where they wouldn't be easily seen. As everything related to Yoongi disappeared, I gradually regained my composure.

People are good at adapting, aren't they? Almost a month has passed since everything about Yoon-gi disappeared and we returned to our normal lives...

Now, I'm quite used to this dull world. Seokjin oppa also takes good care of me and makes me happy, making sure I don't miss the empty space I left behind.

So I thought I could just slowly forget about it like this. Then... everything would be resolved and everything would be okay.

But... as time went by, I thought my body and mind would get better... but inside my heart, the longing for Yoon-gi kept building up and not being able to burst out...