diary

fly

And so... a few months passed quickly.

It had been almost a month since I stopped writing text messages, which I had always done out of habit. Now, I was able to focus on work, and while chatting with Seokjin oppa on the weekends, I completely forgot about Yoongi.

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"Ah, oppa..! It's here."

I waved and ran to Seokjin oppa. That's right. Today was the first day in a while that I planned to spend some time with oppa on the weekend and hang out.

석진

"You were here first?"

석진

"Have you been waiting long?"

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"No? I just got here too..."

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"By the way...where do you plan on going today?"

석진

"Let's wander around without a destination"

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"You can just go in and take a look if you find a store you like while walking around..."

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"Oh, okay... that sounds fun."

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"There are a lot of people today... I might get lost..."

As he said that, my brother naturally took my hand and walked away. I was also embarrassed at first, but soon I put a little more strength into the hand I was holding with my brother.

Now, almost half a year after that luster disappeared, the hand I'm holding...has changed hands.

At that time, I didn't know that things would turn out like this, and I thought I would be able to hold Yoongi's hand for the rest of my life... Now, only half a year has passed, and even though I miss him, I can't hold him anymore, and now even my memory of what he looked like is becoming hazy.

After a few minutes of wandering aimlessly with Yoon-k.. no, Oppa..

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"This road..."

석진

"Huh? Have you ever been this way before?"

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"Oh, no... I must have mistaken it for a similar length..."

This was the road we walked on our last date a few days before Yoongi's tan faded... As the thought suddenly came to mind, a lump in my throat grew.

My brother must have noticed that my expression suddenly darkened slightly. He looked around anxiously and then pointed to a building with one hand and said.

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"Hey, the atmosphere looks nice over there. Let's go in."

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" uh....? "

I turned my head to where my brother was pointing and looked at the building. The building my brother was pointing at was...

It was the cafe I went to with Yoongi on our last date.

A cafe that hadn't changed at all in the time I hadn't been there. Seeing such a cafe made me feel bad about the cafe for no reason.

Even just a little... please change... while I was hurt and changing... this place... remained the same, as if it wanted to remember and leave behind our memories.

As I sat there, my eyes were drawn to the corner window seat.

The place where Yoongi and I sat...

But now...a couple I didn't know was sitting there, chatting happily. Just like...Yoongi and I half a year ago.

석진

"Hey lady"

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"Uh, yeah?"

석진

"Do you know anyone?"

My brother asked me as he watched me continue to look out the window, but I just shook my head slightly and smiled faintly.

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"No, it's just... because we seem to get along well."

At my words, my brother looked at the lovers once more and then smiled at me as if he understood.

석진

"Oh, then what should I order?"

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"Huh? I'm at a cafe...''

At that moment, I was about to say something about Cafe Lattae without thinking about what my brother said, but I stopped for a moment.

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"I'll have an Americano."

석진

"Oh, okay.. Then I'll go order."

석진

"Wait here for a moment"

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"Yeah, I understand."

So my brother went to the counter and I was left sitting there alone, not thinking about anything, and memories of that time kept coming back to me.

(Recalling)

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"Dutch page?"

윤기

"No, I'll pay for everything today."

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"Huh? We've been splitting the bill all along... What the heck happened?"

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"I just...feel like this today"

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"Oh~ Yoongi, thank you. I'll eat well~"

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"Come on, take a picture."

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"Huh? Don't you hate taking pictures of food and don't you understand it?"

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"Just do whatever you want today."

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"I'll take care of everything..."

.........

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"Ahhhh..."

The memories of that time keep coming back to me... I feel like I'm going to burst into tears at any moment... So I picked up my phone to think about something else.

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"Let's just go into the gallery and look at the pictures..."

So, while I was looking at the pictures that Seokjin oppa and I had taken alone, I was slowly calming down...

Among the photos I was slowly flipping through without thinking, I came across a photo of Yoongi that I had taken while on a date.

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" iced coffee.. "

At that moment, the tears I had been trying to hold back finally burst out and tears flowed down from my eyes without stopping.

I thought I was okay now...

Things I tried so hard to deny...

Yeah, Yoongi, honestly, I can't forget you.

I miss you so much... I miss hearing you and touching you... I think I'm going crazy.

love you......