different
different 1 : different, too different (1)
*Yeoju City Point
I am a solo singer.
Compared to other singers, he debuted a little, or maybe a lot, earlier.
'A 17-year-old is a singer.'
I also received a lot of prejudice,
He wrote lyrics at a young age and received many compliments as an excellent singer-songwriter.
Because they had gained a certain level of fame, they swept all the rookie awards at award ceremonies when they first debuted.
Now that I'm in my second year, I have some free time.
Nowadays, I basically receive awards like the main prize or female singer award.
But, even I have weaknesses.
I even got a suggestion from my boss to become an idol,
I'm too lazy to be an idol...☆
Oh, that's not what I meant to say,
I was bullied at school.
It was somewhat popular with men,
Women always gave me a sharp look when they saw me.
I know there are some bad rumors about me...well, I've heard more than one or two myself.
Honestly, I'm used to being bullied now.
I was bullied for about 10 years.
When I was in kindergarten, I didn't know anything and couldn't get along with other kids.
From the moment the concept of bullying becomes completely established,
I was bullied.
I think my debut as a celebrity was the biggest turning point in my life.
If I hadn't debuted as a celebrity, I wouldn't have even dreamed of having the personality I have today.
Just what,
Are you as depressed and timid as before?
I, in this state, don't want to break my ideal self.
I always want to maintain a bright and cheerful character in front of others.
No matter what I look like inside, only I need to know what I look like inside.
Because the me inside me and the me other people see are absolutely different.
One leisurely weekend,
I thought it was a weekday.
I woke up to the alarm beeping loudly.
It seems like a terrible notification.
I looked at my watch and it was 8:30.
With this much time, you can leisurely prepare and go to your agency.
Actually, the reason why I go to my agency so often is
It's simple, if you go to school, you'll obviously be bullied by kids.
Since Jungkook doesn't know that I'm being bullied, it'll only be more difficult for me if he finds out.
So, instead of going to school, you stick to your agency.
Well...Jungkook is really upset because of this,
Since it can't be helped, I'll just give a brief explanation and move on.
I ran quickly in case I was late.
Thanks to that, it wasn't too late, though.
이여주
"Hello!"
실장님
"Oh, you're here, Yeoju?"
I see several producers standing next to the director.
I guess today is recording day.
실장님
"I'm going to record something I've been preparing for the past two months, so bring me the lyrics I wrote down."
I usually write most of the lyrics when I prepare an album.
I received a lot of comfort from writing lyrics that contained my heart.
It's definitely a pleasure to sing something I wrote myself.
I've been writing continuously since I first started writing lyrics.
실장님
"Don't be nervous, just stay calm!"
이여주
"yes!"
이여주
'Just do it like you normally do.'
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.
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We recorded three songs over a period of about six hours.
Excluding the parts where other singers feature, the song was completed to a certain extent with my voice.
I came here around 10 this morning, so it must be around 4 PM now.
실장님
"Hey, the composer wants to record one more song?"
이여주
"yes?!?!"
실장님
"It finished earlier than I thought, so let's do just one more."
이여주
"yes..."
I was excited and thrilled to be leaving work, but then I suddenly became gloomy when I heard that they were going to record one more song.
.
.
I tried my best to record it, but
실장님
"Lady, brighter!"
The director's demands keep coming in.
I tried to reflect it as much as possible, but
I'm not feeling well...
작곡가
"Or, do you have any darker songs? If we record those, it'll probably be over in one go."
실장님
"Yes. Then shall we go with that?"
Oh no. I still don't know the pitch.
실장님
"Can you do it? I trust you, Yeoju?"
Oh, sir... if you put so much pressure on me...
이여주
"yes..."
I can't refuse..!!!
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.
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Somehow I managed to sing all the songs,
Since I wasn't yet proficient in the sound, I sang whatever came to mind.
The director and manager's expressions are not good.
이여주
"A, was it okay..?"
작곡가
"You did so well?"
...?
What is that reaction?
실장님
"Yeah, I should have recorded that song a long time ago."
작곡가
"Can we use that as the title song?"
실장님
"Let's discuss that later."
실장님
"Yeoju, you worked hard today. Get off work quickly."
이여주
"Thank you! Then I'll go!"
실장님
"Go to school tomorrow and come back early at 6th period!"
이여주
"yes..!!"
School,
It's embarrassing just to hear it, but
Because I'm with Jungkook, Jungkook will like it.
이여주
"It's dark, it's dark..."
As I was walking, quickening my pace, afraid that something might pop out at any moment,
Someone grabbed me from behind.
정국
"Heroine!"
이여주
"...Jungkook?"
정국
"What are you doing outside at this hour? It's cold outside."
이여주
"I just finished recordingㅠㅠ"
정국
"Does your neck hurt?"
이여주
"Nothing in particular...?"
정국
"I'll take you home, let's go together."
이여주
"You don't have to do that..."
정국
"Are you really leaving?"
이여주
"No, no, let's go together..."
정국
"Are you scared?"
이여주
"Oh, it's not like that?!"
정국
"Then what is it~"
이여주
"Oh, yeah, I'm really scared!!"
정국
"Hehe, I knew it."
이여주
"Oh, and I have school tomorrow!"
정국
"Oh, really?"
이여주
"Aren't you very happy? I don't get to go to school often."
정국
"That's not it... I was planning to go with my friends tomorrow..."
Friends. Someone I don't have.
It was only a fleeting moment, but even for a moment, the thought of it made my throat tighten.
이여주
"Oh, really..?"
정국
"...Crying?"
이여주
"Oh, no?!"
정국
"Why are you crying... did something bad happen?"
이여주
"That's not it... haha I'm fine so I'll go first."
정국
"It's dangerous... It's 10 o'clock now."
이여주
"I'll call you when I get home, so I'll go alone."
정국
"Yeah... Be sure to contact me when you get home!"
이여주
"Uh..~"
It's always been like this.
I always tried to be alone because I didn't want my feelings to be revealed to others.
When I get home, I cry alone.
Why do I do things like this to hide my feelings from others?
I hate myself so much for being like this,
Because it's too scary.
I'm afraid that if people find out how I feel, they'll all leave me.
I'm afraid that even my fans will turn their backs on me.
People are scary.
I hate to think like this, but
I'd rather just get hurt a little and end it than have people hate me.
Then I won't lose people.
It can't be helped now.
Hello..
It's a little late... haha
I'll come quickly next time!