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4.
After getting off at the hospital in the same vehicle as Woojin and Jinyoung for treatment, a black car was waiting when they came out.
박우진
Okay, so the driver will mainly be helping my younger sibling with transportation. You can just take this today... and make sure to take your medicine.
Jinyoung is inside the car, and Woojin looks at Yeoju and speaks, then gets back into the vehicle.
The white car that drives off like that
The female protagonist speaks while looking at her younger sibling when the car is out of sight.
서여주
What's going on right now?
서유정(동생)
It doesn't seem like a bad thing, does it?
The female lead nods, then looks at her younger sibling and speaks again.
서여주
I'm hungry... I haven't eaten anything all day.
The two of us are getting into a waiting vehicle on the weekend. We are traveling while chatting with the driver, accompanied by awkward greetings.
Walking is quite uncomfortable due to an ankle injury, so he eventually packs up food and starts eating in the car.
서여주
Ah... I feel like I can finally breathe.
The two nodded at Yeoju's words and fell silent. For a long time, unable to take their eyes off the window, they remained lost in deeper thought, lost in what they were thinking.
박우진
Bae Jin-young
Woojin sees Jinyoung as soon as he gets in the car
박우진
Why didn't you tell me?
Jinyoung closes his eyes as if he knows what Woojin is talking about.
배진영
no
박우진
Hey... you
배진영
You saw it, too, brother.
박우진
what..
배진영
That kind of... ha...
Eventually, as if overwhelmed by anger, he sighs and covers his face with both hands.
박우진
Still... sigh... let's talk tomorrow.
Woojin, who doesn't bring up the topic anymore as if he understands.
The villa I arrived at before I knew it
서여주
I don't think I'll get used to this place...
The female protagonist who gets out of the car and speaks
The younger sibling goes over to support him and opens their mouth.
서유정(동생)
Yeah... Should I just leave my house as it is?
Looking at his younger sibling with a gloomy face, wondering what they were thinking, he cautiously opens his mouth.
서여주
What... are you thinking?
The younger sibling lowers their head and opens their mouth
서유정(동생)
Yeah... I wonder if they might come looking for me...
It was a story about Mom. The female protagonist lifted her younger sibling's head and began to speak in a calm voice.
서여주
If they had tried to find us... they would have met by now. Don't worry... No...
서여주
Don't get your hopes up.
at all
No, I wasn't hurt.
I wanted to prove it at any moment.
I have never cried in front of others, even when the topic of my mother came up.
My younger sibling, perhaps hurt by what I said, burst into tears and sobbed uncontrollably.
서유정(동생)
I... I know!... I know Mom abandoned us... but... I miss her... I want to see her... I... I...
Should I consider it close to a scream?
Small emotions seemed to stick together, grow larger, and become intense.
The younger sibling, who had been sobbing, came face to face with the female protagonist, whose face had been hidden by tears.
A sense of futility, and the guilt of being unable to do anything for you.
To me, my older sister was actually closer to a mother. I snapped back to reality when I realized I had gotten angry at her.
As the crying gradually subsided, the female protagonist pulled her younger sibling by the hand with a blank expression, as if nothing were wrong.
서여주
Yeah, I was tired today. It's understandable that I'm sensitive. Let's go to bed.
I spent time in front of the house like that, putting up with my younger sibling's tantrums.
The two of them enter a house that they don't think they will ever get used to.
After comforting my younger sibling and telling them to go into their room and sleep
The female protagonist sitting alone
The dark mountain scenery outside made it feel as if I had come to another country.
서여주
mom
I remembered what my younger sibling said just now.
I think they are young... and at an age where they will deeply feel their mother's absence.
서여주
Why...did you do that?
I still don't understand the female protagonist burying that day in the void.
We weren't that poor in the old days.
I remember the days I spent doing housework in a big house since I was young.
Mom didn't love me.
No... should I say I disliked it?
I spent my days doing housework in place of my mother, who always dressed up nicely before going out and came home late, but I never complained once I started looking after my younger sibling.
I felt sorry for my younger sibling who missed Mom every day, and I have lived thinking that I must fill that void. They are my family.
My younger sibling who smiles as much as I give love
He is my only family. I could have done anything for my younger sibling.
It was okay even without Dad.
It was okay whether I was mistreated or beaten by my mother.
It felt like having my younger sibling around was a comfort in everything.
서여주
So... I'm fine now, too..
The female protagonist bows her head deeply to her leg
He mutters to himself while crouching down with his small body.
서여주
It's okay...it's okay..
In truth, since the situation wasn't improving as I lived on, I wanted to give up every moment.
The words I say to myself every time
It's okay
It might rot even more on the inside and become unusable, but
I’ve been living as if I were doing really well on the outside.
However, perhaps exhausted from today's work, the female protagonist leans back on the sofa and closes her eyes like that.
I can only pray to heaven that today's weariness will be a little less tomorrow.
The female protagonist falls asleep like that again today