Escape from the Mental Hospital: "Naejun Kim & You"
#8 (Swimming's Past 1)
We were born together on the same day, at the same time, in the same place.
We received unconditional love from our entire family, and every day was a happy one. I trusted you, and you trusted me.
I thought that happiness would last forever… …
수영
"Sister!"
수영의 언니
"What's wrong, Suyeong?"
수영
"I wish I could be assigned to a high school like ours... right?"
수영의 언니
"Okay~"
To me, she was my other half who was infinitely affectionate.
Until that happens… .
수영
"Sister, sister ㅠㅠㅠ"
수영의 언니
"What's wrong, Suyeong?"
수영
"My sister and I don't go to the same school ㅠㅠ"
수영의 언니
"Hey, so what if we're not in the same school? We're one."
수영
"really?"
수영의 언니
"of course!"
High school entrance ceremony day
수영
"Ha... I'm nervous."
The school I was assigned to was Army High School
The school my sister was assigned to was Bangtan High School
Contrary to my expectations, I made a lot of friends from the first day of the new semester.
And then two years passed. Though those two years had passed, nothing really changed for me.
But my sister has changed a lot. For once, she has become quiet. My sister, who used to laugh so loudly,
One day, my sister's face got a scar.
수영
"What's wrong with your face, unnie?"
수영의 언니
"Ah.. hahaha I fell a little.. hehe"
수영
"Oh... really?"
At first, I didn't think much of it.
But I found out later.
The fact that my sister is being ‘violent’…
I approached my sister and asked why she didn't tell me.
My sister's hands were trembling and she begged me not to say anything.
I hugged my sister tightly... It's all I can do for you...
It was another day.
My sister took me up to the roof of the apartment.
수영
"Sister, why are you here..?"
수영의 언니
"Suyeong…"
My sister called me with a trembling voice. I answered her question.
수영
"huh…?"
수영의 언니
“Suyeong… I’m sorry…”
My sister strode briskly towards the rooftop railing.
수영
"Sister!!!!"
수영의 언니
"Sorry..."
My sister only said a single word of apology to me, and then she jumped from the roof of the apartment building right before my eyes, leaving me behind.
If I had been assigned to the same school as my sister... that might not have happened.
I could have felt that pain with you... Why didn't you tell me?
We are one...
Why… did you suffer alone?
수영
"Sister... Sister!!"
I was sad. My irreplaceable other half had died.
I hurried down from the rooftop and went to my sister's side.
My sister was lying there helpless, shedding tears.
I got down on both knees.
Tears flowed from the corners of my eyes.
수영
"Uh..sister..."
I held my sister's hand, my hands trembling.
My sister's hands are still warm…
I held her hand tighter. If I didn't, I might never be able to touch her warm hand again.
After my sister left, our house became really quiet.
My mother had to be hospitalized after my sister's tragic death.
Dad... had to stay by Mom's side.
I brought a big box.
Then I started to clean up my sister's room one by one.
As I started to put things away one by one, I found that there were many items that held memories of my sister and me.
I grabbed the bed sheet and pulled it out while I was putting things away.
At that moment...
Several notebooks came out from under the bed.
I laid the bed sheets on the floor, sat down, and began reading the note.
Inside the notebook was my sister's diary.
I started looking through my sister's diary.
XX/XX/20XX Starting today, I'm going to buy a notebook and start keeping a diary. I'll write about the days I had fun, the days I was sad, the days I was angry, and so on. Every single day, without fail.
XX/XX/20XX Today, I got my high school assignments. I didn't get into the same school as Sooyoung, but still we're one, so it's okay.
XX/XX/20XX Today is the entrance ceremony at my assigned school. I know some friends, but it seems like there are more I don't know. Will I ever be able to make friends?
XX/XX/20XX I made a friend. My friend's name is Eunbi Jeong Eunbi. I hope we can stay close in the future. May our friendship last forever...
This note only contained stories about my sister's friends.
I looked at other notes, but the story was all the same.
Among the notes, there was one that stood out.
The note had a lock on it.
It seemed like I needed a key.
수영
"Key... key... where is the key?!"
I started searching through my sister's desk. There was a key in the desk locker.
I tried to insert it into the lock, but the key wouldn't fit.
I threw the key to the floor and searched every nook and cranny of the room, but it wasn't there.
수영
"no way..."
I went into my room and started searching.
After searching for a while, I found a key in my closet.
수영
"I found it.."
I quickly went back to my sister's room and put the key in the lock.
The lock unlocked with a click, and I was able to examine the secret note.
I opened my notebook and started reading the first page.
XX/XX/20XX Today, I became a senior in high school. I'm still close with Eunbi.
XX/XX/20XX Today, I got hit by two boys I didn't even know. My cheeks... they hurt so much... I was so out of it that I couldn't even apologize for hitting them.
XX/XX/20XX Eunbi's been avoiding me lately. Why? I try to ask her why, but before I can say anything, Eunbi runs away. Did I do something wrong?
XX/XX/20XX Today, I told the two boys who slapped me to apologize. But they were even more brazen. What kind of people are these?
XX/XX/20XX Today, they came up to me. I thought they were apologizing, but then they started hitting me. They kicked me in the stomach. It hurt so much I vomited. Why did I have to go through this? My stomach still hurts.
I was reading my sister's diary for a while, and then I came across a line that left me speechless.
XX/XX/20XX Today, I attempted suicide. But it failed. I want to die. The violence and verbal abuse I'm being subjected to without reason I don't want to hear it anymore. It's too painful... Even my trusted friend, Eunbi, has abandoned me.. Just as my friend abandoned me, I've abandoned myself.
XX/XX/20XX Park Jimin, Min Yoongi... I really hate those two... I really wish they would die. Die die die die die die die die die Die die die die die die die die Die die die die die die die die Die die die die die die die die
XX/XX/20XX Suyeong... Mom, Dad, I'm sorry... I'll go first... I can't take it anymore It's so hard... I want to rest...
수영
“It’s today’s diary…?”
I finally found that diary, and behind it were curses and swear words from Park Jimin and Min Yoongi.
It was truly horrific. I remembered my sister, who had been so brutally beaten, yet smiled brightly in front of Mom and Dad, as if nothing had happened.
수영
"Ba,bo... It hurts... Ah, it hurts... Seriously... It hurts..."
Tears flowed from my eyes again.
He hugged the note tightly and started crying.
Because I couldn't understand that pain quickly...
Because I couldn't protect you...
Sorry…
To be continued in the next episode...
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Wow… I really wrote a lot. Do you know how many characters there are including spaces?
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3799 characters, wow... It's been a while since I've written like this.
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