For You [BL/Kwon Chan]
20. For you
도영
"Why are you here... It hurts my heart..."
That dawn. The door to the quiet hospital room opened.
Doyoung, Chan's friend and a researcher at D Lab.
But he approached Chan in a different way than he had four years ago.
A few days ago
The day that Soonyoung gave Chan medicine.
순영
"Now... now it's a success."
순영
"Lee Chan finally showed symptoms!"
Sunyoung couldn't hide her joy as she shouted at the D Lab.
After years of failed research, it is finally showing signs of success.
It's only natural to be happy.
한솔
"Oh really? You showed up earlier than I thought."
도영
"I expected it to take a week, but the symptoms only appeared in two days..."
한솔
"I'm sure the director will be pleased."
도영
"Yeah, I think it would feel good too."
And seeing Sunyoung's reaction, Hansol and Doyoung, who had put the most effort into drug research, also raised the corners of their mouths.
순영
"Now Lee Chan will die. Then our experiment will be a success."
순영
"If Boo Seung-kwan and Choi Seung-cheol had taken the medicine, they would have died too, right?"
순영
"It's very painful to say."
한솔
"Those painful reactions must be really funny, right?"
순영
"That's what I mean."
Sunyoung and Hansol laugh like crazy while thinking about the pain Chan will go through, like psychopaths.
Looking at the two, Doyoung's expression suddenly hardened as he felt goosebumps.
도영
"...."
순영
"Huh? What's wrong, Doyoung? Why is your expression so dark?"
순영
"Surely you're saying this because of what we just talked about?"
When Soonyoung saw Doyoung like that, she said a word mixed with murderous intent.
도영
"No, sir. I just suddenly felt unwell..."
Doyoung lied under the pressure of Soonyoung's force.
순영
"I think it's because of what we just said..."
순영
"It's okay, we're not that psychopathic."
순영
"I just like seeing the test subjects suffer."
순영
"These very good test subjects are groaning and proclaiming the success of this research."
순영
"Who wouldn't like that?"
도영
"Uh...right..."
도영
"That's a very nice sound... Their moans..."
It's all talk and no action.
In fact, Doyoung found this situation creepy and scary at the same time.
He also began to worry about Chan, who had treated him well in the past.
Doyoung's point of view*
....fuck
They said I was a genius and brought me here to do research.
I just thought the research was good.
But it was an experiment that killed people...
It's creepy and so scary
Even though it is a country that has abandoned its family
Chani was the friend I relied on the most in high school...
Imagine that child being a test subject in our experiment and dying a painful death.
I don't think I can just stay here.
Well, I have to enjoy Chan-i's suffering even if it means lying in front of the director.
I want to go see Chan right now and tell him the whole truth and apologize.
Author's point of view*
순영
"What is it, Im Do-young?"
도영
"Huh?"
순영
"Why are you suddenly spacing out?"
도영
"Oh.. sorry"
순영
"There's no need to be sorry~"
That's how Doyoung lived each day, watching Soonyoung's expression.
Back to the present.
도영
"The director finished making the medicine and gave it to me... I didn't know it would be like this..."
도영
"I, a genius with talent, was tricked by Lee Min-hyung and ended up killing my friend..."
도영
"I'm sorry, Chan-ah..."
And then Doyoung stared at Chan who was sleeping.
찬
"Uh..what is it? Why is it so popular...huh?"
But Chan woke up when he felt eyes on him.
I immediately met Doyoung's eyes
도영
"Ch.. Chan-ah..."
찬
"....go"
찬
"Go!"
찬
"What medicine are you trying to give me again?"
도영
"Uh.. no, Chan, that's not it.."
As soon as Chan met Doyoung's eyes, the nightmare from four years ago came to mind.
The trauma from that time came back to haunt Chan.
찬
"Please... please go!"
찬
"I don't even want to see a kid like you anymore..."
도영
"No... Chan-ah!"
찬
"What... Are you going to give me medicine again?"
찬
“Do you know that it caused you trauma?”
도영
"Uh...I'm sorry about that.."
찬
"If you're sorry, get out!"
Finally, Chan shouted at Doyoung while holding back his tears.
도영
"...Okay, I'll go."
도영
"But you should know that"
도영
"Kwon Soon-young, be careful."
Doyoung said something meaningful
I left the hospital room leisurely.
Doyoung leaves.
찬
"Huh...huh..."
Chan started crying, covering himself with the blanket as the nightmare-like memories from that time came back to him.
So Chan cried all night.
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