I blocked out that warm light
pro. I blocked out that warm light.
새엄마
"Who does our Yeju resemble to be so pretty?"
김예주
"Hehe, of course I look like my mom!! My mom is the prettiest in the world."
새엄마
"Oh my, our Yeju has such a kind heart. There's nothing about her that isn't pretty. She's different from everyone else."
It seems like a mother and daughter are having a nice chat, but something seems off.
김예주
"Hey, Mom, don't say such things to my older sister... She's so kind."
새엄마
"Huh? Who would think that Kim Yeo-ju is pretty when she's in her room right now and not moving at all? Seriously, even if she were my child, I'd be so strayed from her..."
김여주
"Uh..Mom..Yeju..Eat.. "
새엄마
"Uh.. Huh? , Huh,, I have to eat,, Let's eat..!"
I didn't mean to hear the story in part, but
I heard Yeju and her mother talking.
But I pretended not to know
Because I don't know what will happen if I say it.
And I tried to forget those words.
But I always hear people say this
Why aren't you familiar with it?
김예주
"Sister! Come quickly. We need to eat."
김여주
".. No, it's okay, just eat quickly"
My room. It's a little, no, a lot shabby and narrow.
It's okay, this is the most comfortable place.
Because it's much better now than when my mom and dad passed away and I had to endure the cold weather alone, wrapped in a blanket.
Still, I'm in a lot of pain right now.
It's okay, there are 5 days left. The day I go to be with my deceased parents.
I write about what happened today on one side of the remaining five pages of my diary and go to sleep.
. . . 5 days later
The spicy smoke that appears as soon as you open your eyes.
And the sound of Yeju and her new mother's laughter can be heard outside the room.
Everything enters my nose and ears, and warm, yet quickly cooled tears fall down my legs.
I promised myself not to cry because of people like this...
It's falling apart again.
But today is the last day of my life, so I force myself to raise the corners of my mouth while repeating in my head, "It's okay."
I'm okay. I'm okay.
- Bam
김예주
"Sister, I'm hungry... huh"
김여주
".. I'll give you some food,"
김예주
"I'm spaghetti spaghetti!!"
Yeju throws a tantrum and asks me to tell her that she wants to eat spaghetti.
My new mom hates me, but why do I hate Yeju too? It shouldn't be like that.
. . .
김여주
"It's done, Yeju."
김예주
"Thank you, unnie hehe"
Yeju smiled brightly at me. Her smile was so beautiful, it felt comforting.
김여주
" ..... "
김예주
"Oh, you laughed!"
김여주
" uh ? ... "
I must have smiled without realizing it. I was so grateful to Yeju for making me smile, not forcefully, but out of joy.
김예주
"You look prettier when you smile, you're always smiling."
김여주
"..yes, thank you, Yeju"
I'm sorry, Yeju. You can't laugh here anymore. I'm going to heaven today.
Instead, I'll go to heaven and laugh a lot
김여주
"Yeju, I'm going to go to my room now."
김예주
"Already,? It was nice talking to you after such a long time.... Okay, bye."
Now, I open my diary and write my last diary and will.
Today is the last day of my life. Now I will follow Mom and Dad to heaven. I have no regrets. Yeju will not see this diary, but Yeju, thank you so much. You will be happier in heaven, right? You will. I will. Now I will go to heaven.
The heroine puts on her short dress and heads toward the Han River with a light step.
김여주
"The Han River is really pretty."
As I watched the setting sun, it seemed to welcome me and tell me to hurry.
I put one foot on the railing. Now I'm about to put the other foot on it.
??
"If you leave already, your parents will be lonely. What if you leave before them?"