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Reasons for suffering (4)

어린 지민

" hi..? "

여름

"Oh, hello? You look like you're my age."

여름

"I've always wanted to talk to you, thank you for coming to me in person...!"

어린 지민

"Did you know me?"

여름

"Whenever I looked around the place where I was playing, you were always there. You weren't playing alone, you were just sitting on this big cruise ship, so I wanted to be with you."

These words seemed to firmly hold my wavering heart.

When I saw this child's kind heart and pure, clear eyes, I no longer wanted to kill him.

So... I think I just grabbed the child's wrist and led him along, out of a desperate desire to be alone with him.

어린 지민

"Follow me...!"

여름

"Huh..? Where are you going! "

The place where I brought the child,

Originally, it was the last deck of the cruise ship, deserted and without CCTV, that was supposed to lure and drop summer lice.

But if we interpret it the other way around, it was a place where we could be alone without anyone knowing we were there, as there were no people or CCTVs.

여름

"Wow, there's a place like this here."

여름

"It seems like the best place to be quiet and see the sea."

Looking at Yeoreum's bright smile while feeling the breeze from the night sea, I felt proud and happy. At that time, I decided that I would never follow my father's orders.

however.......

I guess deep down inside I was hoping for something more than that child's smile.

A necklace that I have been wearing since the beginning of my cruise trip, which I have learned while observing Summer until now.

I was secretly wondering why he kept driving around like that.

어린 지민

"Summer, what's that necklace...?"

여름

"Oh, this...?"

여름

"This was a gift from my favorite kid...what do you think? Isn't it pretty?"

여름

"It's made in a puzzle style, so I have one and the other one is for the child."

여름

"If you keep wearing this...even when you're far away, you'll feel connected to that child, so you'll keep wearing it."

As I listened to those words, my heart ached as I saw Yeoreum's blushing face as if she was embarrassed.

And then I started to feel jealousy that I shouldn't have...

I was too young to know what it was and couldn't suppress it.

어린 지민

"What's so good about that...!"

I took off the necklace in an instant and tried to throw it into the sea while Summer was fiddling with it with her hand.

여름

" no....! "

And Yeoreum, who caught the necklace that was thrown into the sea... while holding onto the railing and leaning forward, her center of gravity shifted forward and she fell into the sea.

...Maybe...maybe if I had told this to the person right away...I might have saved him...

But... I was so scared and frightened for a moment that I denied this fact and ran away from that place.

I don't even know how I finished the rest of my trip. I think I just stayed locked in my room, covered with a blanket, crying out in agony.

It was my greed that drove Summer to death.

....My father was very happy when I came back and praised me for doing well, but...

After that, I tried to live a life of lies, pretending everything was fine... but inside, I was trembling with guilt and fear...

Then, the one who allowed my father to continue was Taehyung.

My father emphasized that I should become close to him, saying that if I became close to him, he would take an interest in us and arrange an engagement.

The first time I saw Taehyung, he looked just like me, depressed and full of guilt.

This time it was definitely not because of my father's orders.

The sight of him struggling overlapped with mine.. and more than anything, I was the one who ruined Taehyung's life by killing Yeoreum..

I wanted to atone, that was all.

I wanted to ask for Summer's forgiveness by gradually healing the child.

But when I heard Taehyung's true feelings about Yeoreum and his memories of her in front of Jungkook and Yeoju,

Summer, when my mother told us about past events,

Every time I do, it feels like a sharp knife is flying at me and stabbing me, as I realize how much I have hurt and tormented so many people.

Every time I was in pain and couldn't come to my senses

I didn't even think about coming to my senses.

Because I was a sinner who deserved to suffer,