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[Episode 42] Too far to get close

전정국

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11:14 PM

_Han River

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...I don't know what to say or how to start, but I suddenly feel like something is blocking me up and overflowing.

I came to the Han River as soon as my feet touched it.

Maybe it was because it was already late at night, or maybe the place I arrived at was deserted,

For a moment, I let out a hollow laugh as I saw the cars moving on the lighted bridge up close.

..soon a vague emptiness consumed me.

Jeobuk_

_Jeokbuk

Jeobuk_

전정국

.......((I walk slowly along the small path.

love,

It's a bit complicated to bring this up now, but

...are we really like this because of this love?

lovelorn, lovesick and love and hate

Everyone puts love first, but in the end, they only suffer from that love.

Perhaps even the word love, which is so easily consumed, is ultimately an extension of pain.

전정국

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전정국

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Actually, I don't know.

It may be just stubbornness, like a child, clinging to something it cannot have.

My love has never been fully revealed.

Rather, it's so tightly hidden and concealed that even I'm confused as to whether this is love or just a guest.

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Although I say this in such a nice way, I still,

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...I don't have the confidence to bear that pain.

전정국

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전정국

.....under,..

As he walked silently, Jeongguk arrived at the foot of a tall bridge and turned his head to look around.

...dark night, dark street, quiet but occasionally a variety of sounds brushing past your ears

He looked up and saw something strange and monstrous under his legs, and he closed his eyes and opened them again.

What the heck is this kid doing?

Even though I wasn't drunk at all because I had been driving, my head kept getting cloudy and I felt queasy.

Even though I feel like something is rising up and I have to let it out, I feel empty as if a part of my chest is collapsing.

What a contradictory situation,

Then thump,

The carefully stacked steel bars vibrated as if they were being put together, as if they were taking big steps.

The light that was illuminating the bridge went out.

전정국

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전정국

....ugh, ...huh.., huh..

전정국

..uhhhh......

전정국

lovelorn,

Cry for love.

....the other side of the river where lights were dimly twinkling,

It was too far for me.

4pm, a quiet street

Si-hye, who was walking down the street with calm steps, stopped for a moment and looked up at the sky.

The ambiguous time between noon, when the sun shines brightest, and evening, when the sky turns red as the sunset slowly sets.

At that time, as I was walking down the street without any purpose, the sky I looked up at brought up a strange feeling.

It's not a strange sky where the sun sets at any time, but a time when the sun, which is high in the sky, doesn't know when it will set, and your heart feels strange for no reason.

..Looking back at myself at that time, I felt an indescribable feeling rising from the tips of my toes.

백시혜

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It's already been three days since he came home.

Even though it was just enough time to let go of the feeling of being there or not, other emotions came first.

Meaningless labels that eventually lead to self-justification, sympathy, and the sadness that cannot be hidden within.

Was it possible that I didn't think about him in the first place and only asked for what I wanted?

Could it be that I was just acting based on my own standards without ever thinking about what this person was really struggling with?

...and, probably all of that

백시혜

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백시혜

...((I turn my head and see the female protagonist dimly reflected in the window of the cafe across the street

She was an attractive woman. Even if I had to take off my hard-to-get-out-of-my-head-glasses, I could still admit it.

There was a time when I thought that a calm smile really put people at ease.

..that strangely mature-looking atmosphere caught my attention

백시혜

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Yeah, probably

..The temptation of my first love, which I couldn't refuse, would have been greater than the person who yearned for my love every day.

The way you work probably feels different, too. Even your ordinary clothes, for some reason,

You must have been curious about those deep eyes that seemed to hold a story. And then, if you just looked at them and smiled...

..your heart must have been pounding, it must have been hard to hold on

백시혜

I had no intention of restraining you.

..After living together for a few years, people start to develop things they didn't have before.

When you live in this house I built, a little affection.

....Yeah, I thought I'd like it if you'd just give me that little bit of affection, I don't want it anymore

..and, knowing all that, perhaps I myself...

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Your love, yes. I won't deny that I vaguely yearned for a love that blossomed by chance.

백시혜

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백시혜

...There...what more could I do...!

백시혜

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But once a heart is crumpled, it cannot be straightened.

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..that's all I have and that's the best I can do.

윤여주

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윤여주

.....((I recognize the dimly visible Shihye outside the window

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