Maginot Line with you
[Episode 44] But in the end, I am a selfish person
윤여주
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윤여주
....((Looking up at the sky
I made a resolution to do something and started moving, and things progressed faster than I expected.
Was it because of that heart that was still there, however faintly?
In the end, the consequences of my selfish choices become shadows that eat away at me.
That's how I feel. But I can't just show it.
A very unfamiliar number that has been in my contacts for a long time, probably a few months.
I left a text message to the number that always stabbed my heart like a thin needle every time I saw it.
"I have something to tell you, so let's meet up for a bit."
Since the name was revealed, everyone had already guessed that it would be read and ignored.
...but..
윤여주
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윤여주
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The reply from her was a sign of affirmation.
...I'll see you at home too,
A meeting decided after a few short conversations.
Not a flashy fashion, but not too sinful either.
I feel a little sorry for the light makeup that doesn't make me look pale.
Standing right under that apartment building, I felt a little hesitant.
The sky, which is slowly getting darker, seems to remind me of myself.
My toes felt heavy.
My fingertips were getting cold, so I clenched my hands for no reason.
.......
윤여주
...((Holds the phone tightly.
But in the end, I was just a selfish person.
윤여주
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백시혜
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It's an even more awkward relationship because you can never say that they're close.
...I wonder if you were waiting for me,
no
Rather, I might have wished that it would never come,
Inside the dark house,
She walked past me, who was standing near the front door, and walked into the kitchen for a moment.
백시혜
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백시혜
....Just a moment, please wait
윤여주
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Inside the dark house, the outside light softly illuminates the inside,
A slight rustling sound could be heard from the kitchen she walked into,
..even the sound of my breath escaping feels like it is grating on my ears,
윤여주
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If I bow my head to you now and ask for forgiveness,
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Are you going to have a hard time..?
윤여주
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윤여주
....((Walking towards the kitchen where Sihye is
백시혜
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백시혜
...ah,.
윤여주
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Jieeeeing
Jiiing—
Jieeeeing
Jiiing—
전정국
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A dark hotel room_
His head was lying motionless on the sofa next to the table,
He thought it had quieted down a bit, but his brow furrowed at the sound of his phone ringing.
It seems like a bit too long to just sit still and do nothing.
However, it seems too early to start looking for a new job.
Right now, it feels like we're precariously straddling a vague boundary that can't be defined.
....I guess I'm all a cripple after all,
Am I being foolish, wandering around without finding a clear answer even during this time?
It's actually embarrassing that I can't even look after myself at this age.
Did I do something wrong?
..there must be a lot,
So how and where did the mistake start?
I still don't know. Like a child,
Jieeeeing
Jiiing—
전정국
under....,
전정국
.....((He nervously gets up from his seat and runs his hand through his hair.
Swish
Swish–
전정국
.....((Frowns at the bright screen
전정국
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전정국
((I get up and go out in a hurry
윤여주
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윤여주
....I'm sorry. ((bows head
백시혜
.....!
윤여주
..I made a mistake in my judgment. No... maybe, all my actions and thoughts at that time were wrong.
백시혜
......, ..no,..
윤여주
It was because of the situation. I was really struggling physically and mentally at the time. ...
윤여주
..I won't make any lame excuses.
백시혜
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윤여주
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The female protagonist's voice is calm as she speaks each word, her hands clasped together and unable to meet his eyes.
As if it were a thought that had already been repeated many times,
And, Si-hye's expression as she looked at her gradually crumbled.
백시혜
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Indefinable misery,
The things that have happened so far, she spits out word by word,
This is the situation I've been dreaming of for a long time, and the other person
And I hated her so much that she seemed to want to kill me for wrapping all those memories in one single wind and thrusting it at me.
...sincerely,
윤여주
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윤여주
....that day,..so...
백시혜
So that day, ...were you happy?
백시혜
..While flirting with another man's husband...! Did you like going around here and there together?
윤여주
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My voice is so tight that it doesn't come out well.
윤여주
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윤여주
...At that moment, ..I may have been happy and intoxicated by the atmosphere, but...it wasn't always like that.
윤여주
I thought that maybe this was also a sin...
백시혜
Then why didn't you finish it then!
백시혜
...If only you had cut it off properly...
윤여주
.....,
He must have come back and hung up again.
With eyes that were shaking as if they would crumble at any moment.
윤여주
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윤여주
I'm sorry... I, too... have regretted it countless times.
백시혜
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백시혜
....By any chance,..have you moved?
윤여주
....yes..?
윤여주
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윤여주
....yes.
백시혜
under,..! ..
백시혜
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백시혜
.....((I wipe away the tears that have formed in my eyes
윤여주
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She shed tears.
As if he couldn't control his overwhelming emotions.
Actually, I couldn't cry, nor did I feel like crying, so I just stayed still.
.....
If I shed tears here, I...
Knock knock knock
Knock knock knock—
전정국
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전정국
....((I close my eyes tightly and run through the night streets.
윤여주
I'm going to see Baek Si-hye.
윤여주
n I don't expect anything from you, not really... but
윤여주
n I want to draw a clear line in our relationship.
전정국
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It's annoying,
This is so fucking annoying and retarded, I think I'm going crazy
전정국
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전정국
....Fuck, really...
''...Have you ever told me you loved me? ''
'' ........... ''
'' ......There was none. ...Not even a word of liking,''
전정국
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전정국
...haa.. ha,
전정국
'' ....... ''
'' ....skinship is... ''
'' ..I guess many people tried to cover it up with the excuse that we were just friends. ....How far did it go...? ''
'' ........... ''
'' ..it never went to the point where you were worried.''
''Do you know what line that is?''
'' ..... ''
'' ...a kiss, yes. A kiss. ''
'' ......... ''
'' ....if you want a specific answer.... ''
'' ...I don't need it. ..''
''If you have nothing more to say, can you please leave my house?''
'' ....I'm feeling a bit uneasy right now, ..I want to be alone.''
'' ........ ''
윤여주
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윤여주
...If we had met as friends instead of like this...
백시혜
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백시혜
...,
Suddenly
Bam–
전정국
......!!
백시혜
Whoosh)) ........?!
윤여주
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윤여주
Have you ever faced a situation like this?