One day, my heart said it was dying.
04 | Between Anxiety and Fear
I love you enough to feel pain
I discovered the paradox that pain disappears and only greater love arises.
[Mother Teresa]
Knock knock-.
한 수아
Hey, honey, you're here?
전 정국
Yeah, I'm here, Suah-.
전 정국
Have you been waiting long?
After that day, Sua was admitted to the hospital for treatment of glioblastoma and underwent surgery.
It's already been two months since I started receiving chemotherapy.
The surgery was a success and as much of the tumor was removed as possible, but...
The results didn't change much.
For now, I just hope that something miraculous happens to Su-ah as she continues to undergo chemotherapy...
There was nothing else that could be done.
Even though it must have been so difficult for your body to endure during the process,
As always, she received treatment quietly and without losing her bright smile.
한 수아
You really can't come today and just rest at home!
전 정국
Phew, for someone who thinks like that...
전 정국
I was so happy to see you?
한 수아
Hehe, did you notice a lot?
전 정국
Hmm... what, a little??
I looked at Sua, who was smiling beautifully while looking at me, and smiled back and said.
전 정국
And, honey, you'll be bored without me.
한 수아
Well... that's true too-!
전 정국
How was your day?
전 정국
Was it difficult to receive treatment?
전 정국
By any chance, does it hurt anywhere?
I had so many questions that I spammed them like a gun, without giving her a chance to answer…
She answered with a snicker, wondering if I was funny.
한 수아
Kkukka, aren't you out of breath?
한 수아
I didn't even have time to answer.
전 정국
Oh, sorry... I have so many questions-..
She smiled bashfully at my answer, patted my head, and said.
한 수아
Hmm... Is it because I'm receiving consistent treatment?
한 수아
If your condition is like this, it's not bad!
한 수아
Am I trying to get better?
Seeing her looking at me with a bright expression, I smiled slightly and said.
전 정국
That might be the case-.
전 정국
Our Suah needs to get stronger.
Are you really okay with that and telling me that?
Or maybe he's just trying to act like everything's okay in front of me because he thinks I might be worried?
Without even knowing that, I am always in front of you who gives me a bright smile...
I held back these tears that seemed like they would burst out at any moment.
Just laughing along-..
There is nothing else you can do.
I was lost in my thoughts and looked at Su-ah.
Sua was looking out the window and smiling very prettily.
전 정국
What are you thinking that makes you laugh like that?
한 수아
Um-.. just?
한 수아
The weather is so nice and sunny-.
전 정국
…The weather is nice, shall we go to the rooftop garden?
한 수아
Wow, good.. really good-!
What makes you so excited about the idea of going out of the hospital room…?
So, Su-ah opened the hospital room door like a child and ran out.
한 수아
Honey, hurry up!!
한 수아
Don't be late, come quickly!
전 정국
Wait a minute, Su-ah, don't run ahead like that.
전 정국
Go slowly!
If you run away first…
So much so that I can never catch you again
I feel like you're going to go very far away...
That's so scary.