Seventeen's outcast Lee Ji-hoon
#19 Seventeen's bullied Lee Ji-hoon
it's tough..
After the day I went back to the hospital
I took less medicine, but
Not long after
I started taking 4 pills a day again.
On really tough days, I take 6 pills.
Of course, almost every day is a tough day, but...
I want to die..
All I can think about is wanting to die.
I want to give up on everything..
Living and breathing in this world is a nightmare.
So I
I decided to give up on my life today..
To find better happiness...
Here, this place
The place I come up to when I'm having a hard time
Every time I come up here, I imagine dying.
Now it's not just imagination, it's going to become reality... haha
(At the moment I was stepping onto the railing)
Ding ding ding
이지훈
#hello
계범주
#Oh, Jihoon, will I be able to see you for the first time in a while?
이지훈
Ah... yes... I'll be there now.
The categorical type saved me again... haha
You didn't save me, did you?
It just extended my life..
I probably won't be able to see a categorical face today either... I should go check it out...
Knock knock knock
계범주
Yes, please come in.
이지훈
Hey bro, it's been a while... haha
계범주
Who..? Jihoon..?!
이지훈
Yes... it's Jihoon... Have I changed a lot...
계범주
Hey... didn't you eat?
이지훈
I did eat it, but...
계범주
You probably only ate a little... Since when have you been like this?
이지훈
Since about 3 months ago...
계범주
N... What's wrong with you... Are the kids bothering you again...?
이지훈
....no
계범주
What do you mean it's not? It's true.
계범주
And you have to eat to take your medicine, you know.
이지훈
I ate a little bit...
계범주
....
이지훈
brother..
계범주
uh..
이지훈
What if... really, what if...
What do you think it would be like if I disappeared from this world...?
계범주
Please don't think like that... For my sake... Please...
이지훈
When am I going to die...? I was just saying "what if"...
계범주
...Okay (I can totally imagine you doing that... Please don't do that...
이지훈
Ah, right, brother
이지훈
Why did you call me?
계범주
Ah, it's just that it's been a while since I've seen you... I just wanted to talk for a bit for the first time in a while. (I was just... worried...
이지훈
Yes... haha
In the middle of talking
My brother was smiling.
With a very bright expression
He looked happy.
I can't feel those kinds of emotions, so I wonder where you feel them from...
Happiness... me too
Can I be happy..?
이지훈
Brother... are you happy?
계범주
uh..?
계범주
Oh, I'm so happy haha.
이지훈
why..?
계범주
Hmm... because it's fun talking to you?
이지훈
Then... am I the one giving you your happiness...?
계범주
That is essentially the case.
이지훈
....
I see...
Then if I die, you'll be sad, right...?
Can't I die, even if it's just for my brother's happiness...
That smile... that happiness
Because I don't want to get rid of it..
My brother is the person who helped me the most...
I shouldn't take away my brother's smile, right?
자까
Um... why is this gradually turning into BL...
자까
It's not BL! Please don't misunderstand.
자까
Are Beomju and Jihun living as friends and brothers?
자까
I originally planned to kill Jihoon in this episode, but...
자까
I think you might be sad... so next episode... the one after that?
자까
But it isn't the end even after Jihoon dies.
자까
The story that follows is really messed up and sad.
자까
That's all for the spoilers.
자까
Bye for now!!