You are Minty Lavender (Season 1)
EP37. The Fool Who Lost Even His Illusions
※This episode also unfolds from the female protagonist's perspective!
김태형
"Wake up, sleepyhead!!!"
김여주
"Huh...?? (half-asleep)...Myaa...now...what time is it..."
I must have been peeking out the window with the curtains slightly open, but I must have fallen asleep at some point. The curtains were wide open, and multi-branched beams of light streamed across my arm. Traces of yesterday, along with the moon that stirred my heart, had vanished before I opened my eyes.
김태형
"It's already 9 o'clock! I have to go on a date today!!"
김여주
"Huh? Suddenly...?"
김태형
"My boyfriend asked me out on a date, but I suddenly said no!!"
김여주
"Okay, I got it!! (smiles) I need to get ready quickly. Come out and see~"
I smiled and said to Taehyung, who was pressing the end of the blanket under his palm.
김태형
"Huh? It's so cold~(sigh)"
김여주
"ㅇㅁㅇ...??//"
김여주
"Wh, what the heck, how can you be like that in the morning!!"
김태형
"Hehehe♡"
Taehyung was wondering what was so good about him, and as I looked into his sparkling eyes, he really seemed to be indifferent.
Yesterday's inexplicable, painful sob.
Yesterday's angry shout.
It raised too many questions for me to just be drunk.
Is it just a film break or is it just a show?
My head was filled with confusion, wondering if I was hiding something or what I was hiding.
김여주
"Yeah, I should go get ready quickly haha..."
But I couldn't bring myself to ask him out loud. I felt like he'd leave if I asked him to tell me the truth, and I was also terrified of knowing the truth itself. Maybe I just wanted to settle into the reality that, now that I've lost my memories, I have someone I can rely on.
김태형
"Then get ready and see you later!! I should go home and change my clothes too!"
김여주
"Yeah yeah... heh"
Taehyung went home, quickly brushed away my still-shaky expression, and came into the room to pick out some clothes.
김여주
"...ha.."
But what good would it do to just shake off that drowsy expression? Drowsy thoughts kept bothering me as I picked out my clothes.
김여주
"Taehyung...why is he trying to hide Park Jimin?"
김여주
"....Ah..I'm crazy. Let's just pick out some clothes~ and put on some makeup!!"
I was sinking deep into a sea of fantasy, unable to stop once I started. Honestly, I was deeply anxious, wondering if my fantasies would ever become reality. But I didn't want to ruin my date with Taehyung, so I forced myself to focus on getting dressed.
After finishing my light makeup, I stepped outside and walked down the street, trying to calm my nerves, which were somehow unsettling. I couldn't tell if it was the excitement and trepidation of the date, or the anxiety still lingering from my delusions, but I knew I wasn't calm.
At that time, as I was walking along kicking trash with my feet in a bad mood, I saw Taehyung's back in front of me.
김여주
"Huh..? Is that Taehyung? Kim Taehyung!!!!!"
I waved my hand and called him over, pleased with his well-dressed back.
김여주
"What...there's no answer..?"
When I called out to him but got no answer, I looked closer and saw he was on the phone. His expression was serious, as if it was a rather important call. His expression darkened, and I began to darken as well.
김여주
"....."
I leaned against the wall and tapped my shoe tips against the floor a few times, thinking I should wait until the call ended. Taehyung came running to me, as if the call was over.
김태형
"Yeoju-woo!!!!!!"
As I watched Taehyung run towards me so casually, I felt like asking, "What's really going on these days?" I clenched my fists and barely managed to hold myself back. I tried to calm myself down, telling myself that my curiosity wasn't so strong that I wanted to ruin the date that was about to begin with just one word.
김여주
"You're here...? Haha let's go quickly~ I'm hungry ㅠ"
I was really worried about the serious content of the call and Taehyung's gloomy face, enough to eat up our date time, but now was not the time.
김태형
"I already prepared everything in advance~ And the usage fee is yours~♡"
김여주
"Hmph- why are you charging a fee? Can't you just give it to me? (snickers)"
김태형
"Oh, then that's good hehe♡"
He made a V sign with his hand, saying he was ready for the date, and his bright, toothy smile made me wonder if I'd been thinking of something else. I felt a pang of guilt, so I held his hand even tighter and warmer.
김여주
"Today was really fun, right?"
김태형
"....Oh, wait a minute, let me call you..."
Like any other couple, we ate at a reserved place, watched a movie, and did other small things, even making sure to hold hands occasionally. I was disappointed that the time seemed so short, but perhaps it was just me. He was too eager to answer my phone when I asked if he'd had fun.
Yeah, I don't know if I'm just being sensitive, but I definitely know that I've held back from this sensitivity a few times.
김여주
"..taehyoung kim."
I blocked Taehyung's call without fear.
I could sense that the call was very urgent even though he didn't pick up, but I was just as urgent.
김태형
"...uh?"
김여주
"....."
But even though I called you, I couldn't say anything
김여주
"No, no!! Answer the phone first!"
Due to lack of courage, I was speechless and once again looked at the ground, waiting for Taehyung.
I waited and waited, and judging by the pain in my legs, it seemed like at least 10 minutes had passed.
I sighed at the phone conversation that seemed to have no end in sight, and eventually I told Taehyung that I was going to go home.
김여주
"Haaah....."
김여주
"What's the last one....what is this!!!!"
In a fit of rage, I tormented her by hitting the poor bed cushions. Just as I was about to throw a second punch, saying, "As long as the date is perfect, everything else is fine."
'Ding dong~!"
김여주
"What the.....Kim Taehyung!?"
At the sudden sound of the doorbell, I raised my head like a hyena and instinctively knew it was Taehyung. I opened the door faster than a cheetah, and sure enough, it was him.
김태형
"...Hey, you're not asleep yet~?...."
He must have felt even more sorry when he saw my pouting expression, because he couldn't even meet my eyes properly and just kept mumbling.
김태형
"....T, was the call too long!? Sorry....ㅠ"
김여주
"...Okay~ Anyway, why are you here?"
김태형
"Ah...I forgot something!!"
김여주
"Forget it? What did you forget...sob-!!!!"
He scratched his head in a daze, then pulled my arm, wrapped one hand around my waist, and brought his lips to mine. It happened in an instant, and unlike me, who was clearly flustered, he continued the kiss without a trace.
He had been gently guiding me, but suddenly he bit my lower lip, his soft tongue went in, and he kissed me so hard that I couldn't even breathe, without letting go.
김여주
"Haa.....haa.....ugh....I can't breathe"
김태형
"Haa....then...bye Yeoju...no, Kim Yeoju..."
Just as I was about to catch my breath after a long kiss, Taehyung closed the front door and said goodbye before leaving.
김여주
"...!? Hey Kim Taehyung!!!!"
What was all this about? I asked, "What's this?" Suddenly, "Kim Yeo-ju," something felt off. Startled, I hurriedly opened the front door to find him, but what greeted me in a cold hallway wasn't him, but a single post-it note he'd left behind.
- In a fantasy, everything feels good, so even if you didn't like the time you spent with me, pretend you liked it because it was a fantasy. -
김여주
"What is this...!!!!!"
Taehyung disappeared, leaving behind those fairytale-like words that it was just a fantasy... No, he left me.
I felt like I was trying my best to hug Taehyung, who had clearly disappeared from my memory, but it wasn't enough, and he left me.
I tried to hold on to my memories of him, but Taehyung completely took them away, wrapping them in illusions.
He left me without leaving anything behind.
Having lost even my illusions to a reality that never existed, I was once again a fool with amnesia, standing at the beginning.