You're divorced, what else can you add?
17. A past I don't want to tell
변백현
"Sexual assault, you shouldn't go to crowded places..."
이지은
"How... did you know?"
I didn't really want you to know. That my virginity was stolen because of that day, that past incident... That you weren't the first person I'd shown my body to... More than that, I didn't want you to worry.
변백현
"Park Chanyeol told me."
이지은
'Park Chanyeol? How is Park Chanyeol?'
변백현
"Really... is it like Chanyeol said? He didn't tell me because he didn't trust me..."
이지은
"No, I never told Park Chanyeol."
변백현
"what?"
Yeah, I never told Chanyeol... I never once brought this up to Chanyeol or anyone else.
변백현
"Why did you keep it a secret from me? Was I that untrustworthy as a man and as a husband?"
이지은
"It's not that I couldn't believe it... I couldn't say it... I didn't want you to be hurt by my actions... by my past... I just wanted to erase the memories of that day...
이지은
Even after marrying you, I tried to erase it somehow, but even if I went to a crowded place, the memory of that day would be so vivid that I couldn't erase it even if I wanted to... I was afraid of you getting hurt more than dying..!!!"
It was true. I hated how hurt he was by my actions and words. That's why I'm crying. Because I felt like I'd already hurt him... Before I could finish my sentence, Baekhyun hugged me.
변백현
"Don't cry... Every word you say is important to me, and it all enters my heart... You've never hurt me... not even once. But why are you saying such scary things? I was so scared that you weren't by my side...
변백현
"Now that we're together like this, I'm not scared at all..."
He hugged me tighter and said, "It's not scary because I'm with you."
변백현
"So stay by my side."
Thank you- I was so grateful for Baekhyun's words that tears kept flowing down my face.
변백현
"love you."
I nodded, tears streaming down my face. I worried about whether it would be okay for me to love him... whether I could love him the way I used to...
이지은
"But I can't be with you anymore. I have to go to Park Chanyeol's side..." "Or you'll get hurt."
변백현
"....... Okay, even if I don't trust Park Chanyeol, I trust you."
이지은
"Baekhyun.."
변백현
"Lee Ji-eun, don't let your guard down just because I'm not by your side! You're so pretty, you never know when guys might approach you! Got it!!"
이지은
"I don't care about anyone else. The only person I care about is you, so don't worry."
변백현
"I know, so don't worry. But Ji-eun... can't you go now?"
이지은
"why?"
변백현
"Sleep with me tonight."
이지은
'If I don't go in today, Chanyeol will probably notice that Baekhyun found out that I didn't lose my memories... Then Baekhyun will be in danger...'
변백현
"Please, I want to be with you just today... I haven't been able to sleep properly since you were gone, because I keep having dreams about you being wrong..."
"No, I want to be with Baekhyun. I don't care if we get caught. I'll protect Park Chanyeol no matter what he does." "Okay, let's sleep together."
변백현
"Are you okay today?"
이지은
"huh?"
변백현
"You're not under magic, are you?"
이지은
"Yeah^^"
After saying those few words, he hugged me and laid me down on the bed.
이지은
"Baekhyun, you're divorced, is this okay?"
변백현
"Because I was married before and I love you."
이지은
"But you said you like someone... Are you going to do it?"
변백현
"Why are you jealous?"
이지은
"Okay, okay. I want to go home."
변백현
"This is your house, where are you running away to?"
As I was about to get out of bed and go, he pushed me down and climbed on top of me.
이지은
"Get out of the way. You said you had a first love, so why don't you go to someone who likes that first love? I'll go to Park Chanyeol too."
변백현
"Don't ever say that again, because you're the only person I like and my first love... Just don't say anything about going to Park Chanyeol..."
The face that had been looking down at me from above suddenly approached and kissed me. Far from resisting the kiss, I remained still. His lips kissing mine were so sweet, and I longed for them.
His tongue entered my mouth and our tongues became entangled.
A thought suddenly occurred to me. No one can stop my love... Whether I love like I used to or I love again, I won't let anyone stop me. If I start loving Baekhyun again and you hurt him, I will protect him...
I thought that if I could protect Baekhyun, even if it meant putting myself in danger or dying, I would be okay with making sacrifices.