You're divorced, what else can you add?
18. Can't I not go?
The morning dawned. Today was a wonderful morning, different from usual. I opened my eyes in bed and Baekhyun was right in front of me, staring at me. It was the same morning as when I lived in the same house with Baekhyun before my divorce.
When I was at Park Chanyeol's house, every morning felt different, but strangely, today felt very familiar.
변백현
"It feels like home now. Every morning, when I open my eyes, I see your face lying next to me, the breakfast we eat together every day, the days we spend together every day..."
이지은
"Baekhyun, how did you live without me?"
변백현
"I endured it just by thinking that you were by my side~"
이지은
"How could I have survived just by thinking about it?"
변백현
"I thought you'd be by my side my whole life, but while we were apart, I tried to change my timid personality like you told me to, but... it didn't work out well. People say personalities don't change, and they were right."
이지은
"No, but it seems to me like it's changed?"
변백현
"what?...."
이지은
"People don't usually know that they've changed. They always have to rely on others to tell if they've changed or not. The Baekhyun I knew is different^^
이지은
Baekhyun used to be timid, hesitant to talk to others, and hesitant. But now, even the way you speak has changed. You, who used to speak carefully and softly, now speak loudly and clearly. But what if I miss you sometimes like I did in the past?
변백현
After staring at Ji-eun for a long time, he spoke up. "Ji-eun, you have to go, right...?"
Finally... the words came out of his mouth. The words I most wanted him to say to me... But... my answer was...
이지은
"Baekhyun, I'm sorry..."
This might not be the answer Baekhyun wants. I don't want Baekhyun to be hurt, but I might be hurting him with my words.
'I knew your answer. But I expected something different. You were just like...'
I hurt you again today with those empty words of apology. I'm sure he's tired of hearing those words now.
변백현
"It's okay. I won't be in your life anymore. I'll give up." The moment I decided to give up...
이지은
"Baekhyun, don't worry about where I am, what I do, or if I'm in danger. I'm doing it because I want to."
What you said made me think that I should protect you again.
박찬열
"Where were you all night?"
As soon as the morning broke, I went straight to Chanyeol's house, but when Park Chanyeol said the first thing, I didn't answer and tried to pass by, but Chanyeol caught me.
이지은
"Let go"
박찬열
"Were you at Baekhyun's house?"
Right now, Park Chanyeol doesn't know that Baekhyun found out that he hasn't lost his memories of Byun Baekhyun, so if he says anything carelessly, Baekhyun could be put in danger.
이지은
"What are you talking about? Baekhyun doesn't even know that I remember him yet, so how can I be at his house? So just let me go."
As Park Chanyeol's hand that was holding me loosened, I opened the door.
박찬열
"That necklace"
My steps towards the room stopped for a moment as I heard Park Chanyeol talking about the necklace.
박찬열
“If it was given to you by Baekhyun Byun, take it out immediately. He might get suspicious if he sees it.”
As soon as Park Chanyeol finished speaking, he closed the door and came in.
이지은
"You didn't catch me just now, did you? Thank goodness, thank goodness."
박찬열
"Lying, you really can't. If you think I don't know anything about you, you're sorely mistaken. Should I wait until you tell me yourself... or should I just say it all and be done with it?"