Yoongi... I miss you.
Four days and three nights already, after the situation in the hotel he spent the night making me feel loved, beautiful and at ease but, when I opened my eyes the next morning, he wasn't at home... only a note hanging from a rose in the kitchen, he felt like working seriously on his music and I just texted him twice every day.
My *good morning* and *I love you, remember to eat well and rest enough* before I go to bed, still ...I miss him so much. Ten haven't contacted me again and Dawn haven't called to visit him the following day either but, I drove my motorcycle, asked for him and since he wasn't in his room, I left a note for him. But never received any response from him at the moment.
I called Yoongi, I know I shouldn't disturb him but I missed his voice or having an answer to my messages. If he doesn't answer me then, I will not insist, is nothing urgent or anything important.
Since we are living together, is difficult to me to be alone when I don't have much work... yeah I have been focusing on my own business overseas and work mostly at night or really early in the morning afterwards resting as much as my insomnia permits me.
SUGA'S P/V:
- Who's phone is that? Attend it - I said deleting carefully the last sound we added to the instrumentals because I don't like how it sounds all together with what we have already.
- Suga it's yours, after four days someone called, take it... woah Min's Chocolate is a beauty - and I hurried up to attend it.
I doubted to take it at the last minute, have something happened at home? To her? She didn't called again but my heart was beating like crazy already, should I worry or not?
I sent a short text that I was busy, if something happened... I will regret it my entire life, because I could have answered in time but let it sound in my hand.
Bb: sorry, don't worry
I felt even worse noticing she has been texting me everyday but I actually didn't answered anything yet... Goodness why didn't I decided to talk to her before leaving so suddenly in the middle of the night? I should have said that I love her more often.
It was almost the next day and I haven't avanced one bit, everyone was a little tired of going back and forward with this song, but I needed to do something to be able to finish it at home.
We where eating outside and I felt totally homesick, I looked for my phone since I wasn't feeling especially hungry. I missed another of her texts again ... it wasn't one of her usual lovely texting it was a voice recording.
Baika wanted to take care of a couple of cats from her friend, she is pregnant and her husband needs to do a business trip and is scared because she can't attend them properly, because can't move easily. After a small pause she said that missed me and earlier, just wanted to hear my voice.
Since I moved from my seat on the table, answered her with my voice, apologized for so many days not answering her, that I also miss her and her cooking skills. She answered immediately that she loves me and to not stress myself with those thoughts.
I was curious on what she must be doing to answer me so quickly, I looked on my phone for the security system of our home and my wife was doing some preparations, I recognized my family recipes and she does several at the same time to store a few and used to be our reward for working so hard.
She learned how to cook not just for herself, and my parents used to have a restaurant; doing the preparations were always big portions that will suffice for a while, we give the extra portions to our friends and people working with us on those occasions she can practice her talent, to cook something totally different from what she have been eating until recently.
I ended falling sleep looking at her, every time that I want to see her it happens... I feel relaxed and forget about everything to look at her and end falling sleep with my phone in my hand.
- wow I don't know what you dreamed about, or that you were hungry because we didn't noticed when you left and we ate all the food - one of my coworkers asked as he droves.
- the important thing is, that finally, got what I was looking for, I don't mind about the food that much. I was surprised to be able to sleep five hours straight... now can't wait to arrive and finish them all as soon as possible.
- all?? Aren't you a little ambitious?... why don't you better go and call that beauty that was calling you before? Is she your girlfriend? Because I wouldn't mind having her number - another one teased me.
- Don't even dream about it, that princess is mine for the rest of her life.... prepare a good suit for the wedding party.
- Princess?! 아이고 ...[#aigo#oh my...]- the one behind me shaked my seat a little, since I don't talk much about my relationships with them. But I personally liked this team, we are working on my album and where the ones selected to arrange the instrumentals for our concert in Busan that will happen in no time... I have to wrap up my solo before we start preparing our last promotional stuff as BTS, the company has planned a few events to record so we can focus on our individual business.
- It's so unbelievable that I am getting serious with someone? - I asked... I can't be that bad ...
- no, is unbelievable you think the poor girl is gonna accept to marry you - they joked...just if they knew... I couldn't help laughing.
- and when are we going to have the honor to met her, I mean... to be sure you aren't kidding us... can be just the owner of the bakery that does those chocolates he brought with him - the one driving said.
- well she actually does homemade chocolates for me, but she is an artist from our agency, I will convince her to visit during the practices for Busan... you will see what can do this shy guy.
- shy? You are shy? Must be the first 30 seconds. Or it was because she is not Korean? ... wait... your English is good now... do you have to speak to her in English? Because I varely know enough to use properly the equipment - the one that choosed to be in silence until now, comments.
- mmmh I am shy, because here we do music and have been working together, is more easier to express myself, the most important things about my personality you probably learned it during this "camp", living with me, eating with me, working all day long... everyone is male ... I can adjust faster.
- Do you have a story? The story about how you two ended together? - the one driving asked.
- My group was living in a Hotel for like a couple of weeks before we could move into our last dormitory from the company, we had to record some presentations and practice for a concert in the States after a long time forbidden to do anything that would include fans gathering to see us...
- Oh, really! is been a while then - the one behind me said.
- mmmh yeah, I saw this beauty and fortunately my agency contacted her to work here, so I could met her in different opportunities and she was learning Korean, but we mostly used English to understand each other at the beginning... now her Korean is good but she only uses the most formal speech to be sure she don't causes trouble around.
Baby's P/V:
It was in this book... I am pretty sure... I will end reading it again at rate. It's not a waste of time, is a good story but I am going too ahead of myself trying to figure everything in this language? It's pretty much like a drawing book... I should go to bed... Yoongi is going to kill me if he learns that I just hear his creations to be able to rest a little.
But is his fault for leaving like thief, now I don't want to use the bed because I will have nightmares of him leaving me without a word... I know he is stressed to meet the deadline but really? Didn't found a moment to tell me he planned to go somewhere to compose his new album?
If I was the one leaving suddenly? What he would do? Because I got used to have him around, now I feel lonely... not likely when I lived with that idiot in New York, I never considered him someone I should be too attached, no the same way I can be with Yoongi, that guy was something like a friend but he finally showed his ugly side... and was wondering why he would be so jealous of Yoongi? I never tried anything romantic with him.
To learn he would share more than words with my dates, I shouldn't call them ex boyfriend anymore, I really didn't know how hard love can hit a person until I met Yoongi. Love doesn't hurts but is not easy to keep it on the right direction, a lot of things could be the reason to take different decisions and slowly distance us. I don't want it, Yoongi makes me feel like he either... so my hopes linger on that we have to learn a lot about ourselves... our relationship... I want it to become a permanent thing.
Are we taking good care of it?
Are we really in love?
I'm the only one that misses sleeping together?
How I will feel when you return?
Are you happy?
My head was full again, but I actually didn't know how to handle situations mostly because it's the first time I am in such a deep relationship with someone, I don't know what I should be doing... should I be indifferent? Doing everything as I wish because he is not here? Should I be angry because he disappeared into thin air? I should prepare dinner just for me?
SUGA'S P/V:
I was curious, looking for her on the security cameras to see if she was at home. She misses me... was the thought that put myself at ease, The one I love is waiting to see me again. Didn't pressured me to hurry up and return, I missed her a lot, finding her drawing or writing on her daily journal to not disturb me, but be in the same room as me.
Just a few more minutes beautiful, I will be there ... are you trying to a song again? Is going to be for me? It'll be a surprise or I can hear it from the beginning? I should hear the previous ones already?... yes... what you wanted to tell me with those songs love? I love you... I really do.
It was my turn to drive, driving towards Seoul wasn't as relaxing as it was during my vacations, I worked everyday there too... why I wasted some much time fighting? Why I don't spend every second of my time doing something to please her? What she loves about me that much?
- Suga... you know the limits? Slow down please - the one on my said.
- I'm not even on the speed limit, you're a slowly driver - I said paying attention to the traffic.
- I like to arrive in one piece, nobody would protest if I arrive a few minutes later.
- Would you like go to a restaurant or should I call my princess to prepare something? - I asked.
- Do you wanna die? We should be thankful to find a convenience store with nice things - one in the back said.
I ignored him and commanded my car to do the call, she answered immediately, they stayed silently.
- I'm hungry - I said and she laughed
📱- Are you inviting me to find you or maybe are you coming? - she asked.
- I am craving your meals, but I am with my friends because I should be heading to the company.
📱- Nobody forbade you to have it, Are they eating or looking at the food like you?- she teased laughing
- we can have something at the convenience store don't worry - the oldest one dared to say and she laughed.
📱- Don't worry misterius voice over there, think my skills are sigtly better than something from the combini or Min wouldn't be calling - she laughed.
- why I'm suddenly Min? What happened to your sweetness? - I nagged she laughed even more.
📱- Mi amor, so nice to hear about your arrival, it's like a blessing. Darling, hope's you find some comfort in my meals, to see those chubby cheeks beaming in happiness again. Would my charming prince tell my how many dazzling angels will come? - she said and I, having fun with her playful attitude.
- twelve? Counting me, it can be? - my companion cannot believe how I dared to ask about it so naturally.
📱- then bring 3 eggs per person and any sauce they want on your way here, please... I can figure the rest by myself.
- Thanks beautiful
📱- Any time gorgeous- And she hanged up quickly.
- Just take whatever and let's go, I'm hungry - I said and waited pattiently, everyone collected all the things they wanted, from the store in the private area where I live.
Ready with more things that we will need. We left the cars in front of my building to get up, since Baika did all the necessary we just have to sing our entrance easily at the security control and we could. The ones wanted to use the sauna and public bathroom prepared their things from their luggage and I guided them to take a bath before having our dinner, and I could have a few minutes alone with my wife.
Baby's P/V:
The entrance door opened suddenly hitting my toes and I protestested. A very worried and surprised Yoongi standing there with a lot things around him, he came alone so didn't thought it and hurried to his arms.
Yoongi wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck and slowly made a way of kisses towards my lips. I forget everything, the time the entire world, my name... But the kiss never arrived and opened my eyes to see by myself why.
- You are trembling beautiful, why? - Yoongi.... this teasing Yoongi... I grabbed his hair and pulled it, it got really long since last time I could touch it.
- Yoongi... don't dare to tease me, kiss me or else...
- As you wish - my lover returned, his kisses burned all my loneliness and gave me energy again. Energy to feel, to hear, to taste...
- mmmhhhmmm... give me a second beautiful - I covered myself, he said taking his belongings inside and locking the door.
- And the others? Because I really prepared tons of food - I asked .
- They are using the facilities to have a shower before dinner, I will bring them inside later... first there is something more urgent to do - he carried me over his shoulder and walked inside the apartment.
I was left over the sofa, to admire him taking off the top of his clothing, all of that was mine. He didn't doubted to be on top of me and kiss me again, his hands soon finding their way under my pijama.
I felt the most fortunate woman in the universe in his arms, I was being loved so carefully, his hands sliding like silky made-up to pleasure me, to embrace me. His demanding kisses bitting my lips and being careful to not be rude, his eyes shining as he looked at my features and his passion looking for comfort inside mine.
- I didn't even asked what you wanted... forgive me... mi amor, I... he said covering my body so I wouldn't feel exposed or cold.
I tried to think and remember if there was something I didn't realized since he arrived, nothing was wrong.
- love, I don't understand... why are you apologizing?
- I'm a clod, it's so foolish of me to take everything from you this way... I should be more careful, I don't want to make mistakes with you... I... I don't want to decide things on my own... I... your wishes are important too.
I know, why he was telling me? Yoongi's bewildering words made me knight my eyebrows... probably it's the first time I noticed to be so stupid to understand anything he says, even when I had to learn his language, to be able to communicate myself with him.
- pardon? I truly appreciate you... but is there something I should know? I don't understand why are you telling me...
Something in the kitchen needed attention and he hurried to see what I forgot there on the stove. That way he left me the rest of the night.
SUGA'S P/V:
Everything was going perfectly, the food was delicious and abundant... everyone was telling me she couldn't take her eyes from me, that I was the only living thing she was interested on.
She was stunning on that summer dress, even the strawberry decorated apron, accentuated her feminine appearance, covering the low neck with that sexy v form.
I didn't found the right words to tell her what was in my mind, I love her more than I would ever say... I wasn't ready to smile in front of her, knowing she wanted to talk.
- salt?....Suga-nim I understand you the apple of her eyes... but dude kiss her or something, don't you see her brain can't work properly?- the one by my side hushed when he received the salt instead a water bottle. I gave him what he needed instead and walked into the kitchen where was trying to relax.
- Suga... a few minutes okay? We also have a live to return to - said the producer I was working with.
- yeah, just will talk to her before leaving, she deserves at least that.
- boy... look I'm not the most appropriate to say this but... never ever again bring men to invade your girlfriend's home, today she didn't even looked at them but tomorrow when your mistakes start to pile... don't come crying because someone got in the middle. She really is a beauty and fortunately a gentle soul, I wanted to say this earlier but... don't treat her this way... I understand, probably is amazing that girl, so you want to show her to the entire world and would happily talk about all her good points to anyone... to set her like that, better leave her before someone hurts her because would like to see what is so good on her to have you bragging.
- I... hiding our relationship doesn't feels right either.
- I didn't said to hide her either... she has a place in your life, then respect and protect it. This is her home? Then why she has to invite us inside at this hour, why she had to serve us food? Why she had to smile to us? There is a reason why we invite our lovers to nice restaurants and don't want even a homosexual friend inside their homes. If she is yours... then we aren't allowed here, friends, colleagues, married and all can do anything to get the object of our desire. Do you understand me?
- ne... - I felt ill after his words.
- see you in a few...- and he walked out.
Baika used the soap to clean the dishes, to wash her makeup she does every time a man naked her, with their dirty thoughts. Then pulled out all the strong products to clean the house and used a pencil to pin her hair in a bun.
I helped her on the pijama of my choice, and she promised to take care of her skin properly later... because I was wasting my time here and shouldn't make others wait for me.
- I want to figure my album before the concert... I know the deadline line I set is unacceptable but hold on a little longer please...I ... I am doing so many things without thinking... that I'm sorry... as soon as I am done today I will be sure to clear things with you.... if you want... I...
- just go - she kissed me on my lips.
I focused on working to return home soon, I didn't know was was right and wrong anymore ... Baika is the best thing I ever had in my life apart from working on my music.
Seems like I have more walls to demolish inside of me... doing things to maintain her close and also doing others that I just regret.