She hanged on me, wasn't something out of the ordinary about my wife. But I felt a pang in my chest that made me massage it.
- hey... are you alright? So badly were the news from that call? - A female coworker says.
Hurts.... why?
- here some water... I...- she says almost on my lap.
- sorry I have to leave early - I managed to mumble to my superior, that like everyone, was watching me.
- yes...of course... don't worry - he says nervously, I really can't understand why he was in chatge. The only thing he does often is to find reasons to end drunk. Baika doesn't contact me often over the phone, she knew that I was forced to drink tonight and she texted me where she was and with who. No that she needed, but as for me to know that she wasn't at home, to not worry about it.
- You got bad news? Is your family? - she was all over me even her friend pulled her away.
- No, don't imagine things... the fact that I was called makes me become worried about something else. Probably it's nothing, but I want to be there and ease my mind.
- I can drive fast, if you need - she again, I noticed the change when I was asignated in this unit... I am working for intelligence, it's a office but only militant go there so there is no chance for regular people to come and visit me. Sometimes I spend time on the training campus to help at certain moments, when we go there, I have to double turns and afterwards can choose my free days.
- I don't ride with people that drinks in my presence, sorry - I left her a little startled and a few couldn't maintain the straight face after my comments. I didn't pretend to be rude to anyone but, I don't desire to deal with other people's feelings towards me.
Using my phone asked for a ride, without saying to where or why, only said yes when they asked me if it was my decision not a security alert.
I'm never alone, in minutes someone appears with clean clothes for me and a small group of bodyguards folled me. I gave a few instructions to invite them and securely everyone will arrive home harmlessly meanwhile I, left the place like the impressive person out of this world that everyone has on their imagination.
The daylight was dimming already, but it was still brilliant over the snow on the roads, was early for dinner but as my wife says it... we have dinner in the middle of the afternoon.
- Sir... can I ask what is happening? You are the last to display such a performance.
- My wife called me, she is in Jungkook's apartment with him alone and it wasn't her idea, was already on his car going home when he changed mind and decided to go there. She texted me earlier it, when she finished her business in the agency. She is not fine with something so called me to inform me about it and where she is.
- Is mister Jeon a problem?
- I don't think so... but I know my wife quite well, she is not fine... literally saying those words, probably is something important to me, something to notice.
- I don't think she is the kind of girl that would ask you to get her out of Jungkook's apartment - another bodyguard says, I didn't liked what he wanted to say with those words.
- My wife accepted a ride home, she is not at home as promised... I don't know why she called me, but she did after leaving our home because I wasn't there and took me almost a month to find out... I can't think in anything else, but going there as soon as possible.- I felt all their attention.
- Did she abandoned you? She never seemed angry with you, usually heard your songs even at the gymnasium and smiled when they asked for her life.
- The Hills is only the place she doesn't like to live alone, she rented her old apartment and I was using the one on unvillage to stay drinking with my friends every day. My wife loves me, even if nothing happened with Jungkook, I will go because she called and said that is not fine.
JUNGKOOK'S P/V:
- Can I kiss you? - I asked to her back as she examined my fridge with her big eyes... I only have alcohol there... my enlistment is nearby so I ate all the fresh things already and arranged what was still frozen.
- Are you going to respect it if I say no?
- Probably... maybe will do something regrettable but not for a innocent kiss - I removed her hair and kissed the skin behind her ear and her neck. She felt it, how good it was to be loved a little.
- What do you want? Ummm? - she turned to face me and put distance between us. She was irritated but didn't told me to stop or that my touch irked her
- I love you and thats why I ... Do you love me? Tell me.
- Yes, if not you wouldn't be able to be anything for me, not even a friend... so let's talk about it before you do something else. I do, I love you - my face hurts because my smile is so big but when I looked at her she wasn't returning that happines. Baika wasn't reacting like anyone I have been with, less after saying those things.
- What is it? - I asked.
- I was wondering what kind of love is yours... because I only know about myself and can't really understand others, since they usually don't explain it or talk to me about it... only take action without thinking.
- If you kissed me as I wanted, you wouldn't mention anything about talking or understanding anything, just would feel it. Are you sure to keep that distance?
- Yes when we finish this talk, I will leave.
- Suga ordered you to wait for him, he is drinking and having something to eat, we have plenty of time to do more than talk.
- How many girls have you loved before me? I mean girls that you wanted to say those words towards.
- Maybe.... a couple... why? - I didn't know what she was supposed to lead me towards... but her arms were not around me and I couldn't pull her against my body to distract that way of thinking.
- Any of the girls were shared with Jin or Suga from that small list?
- Of course not... we aren't sharing you... that is not... - that is what she understood from all we did?
- That is not? Then... when you love someone you will ask others to touch her? She would let it happen? What do you wanna do now? to become my lover since Yoongi asked you to be one, because I ... love him no matter what. That is how you love me? To share me?
- We don't share!! We aren't... we...
- Since Yoongi noticed your feelings and told you that it was fine... is right to be in this situation?... it is fine to ask for love, kisses or whatever you want?
- Bunny... you don't undertand... happiness is so complicated... you don't know how difficult is to find someone that I can trust... Yoongi Hyung says he is not enough for you... that he will... you don't know him.
- Certainly... there is lot that he doesn't tell me... you too have secrets, the only being transparent here is me. To me Yoongi is someone that I love, admire and respect... I do mistakes... I shouldn't be here, should be at home waiting for him. I want to be someone he can trust, someone that will be there, his family even when we aren't on good terms...
- Bunny, you should understand how lonely was before you showed us how do you love others....
- I am not happy Jungkook... what about our situation is going to make me happy? That I can hear you say those words? That we have permission to cheat on my marriage? That Jin is going to ask for the same as you? To see Yoongi burning in jealousy? That he can't touch me because I showed too much that I regret being able to abandon myself, my beliefs, my promises to myself? to have sex with someone that is not him? Oh wow, I can be with you... so proud of myself!!
-Dammit woman!!- I had to stop that mouth...
*My love hurts.... my love is cruel...* she says she was returning what Yoongi makes her feel like... that she is everything to him... the most she talked the more it hurts to not be him.
- You have your own thing that makes you special Jungkook, okay I understand that you aren't playing either... doesn't feel like you are trying to fool me. Can we just don't...
- okay...- she can be whatever but not stupid, she knows already, she can sense the big secret behind Yoongi... behind us... I don't want her to know.
How can I look at her afterwards? what kind of life is what she lived to let us do this to her? it breaks my heart.
- I will punish you... here draw butterflies here - she says giving me a red inked pen, even if she showered the traces will remain for a while.
I drawed some half assed ones behind her ear as she wished. I wasn't proud of them and would never tell why I made that. Was horrible and I felt worse when she compared my horrible drawing to being punished by us when we asked her to loves us.
- I don't think that nobody you loved should have been bedded that way... with my husband not pleased by anything, with Jin frustrated because I don't want to visit him in DMZ and you thinking about Jimin that was sleeping in the same room... still, I knew that it would happen... is what Yoongi planned, doesn't it? - Bingo, she knows... and I can't deny it.
- Let me do something better... I don't know how to apologize to you.... but if Yoongi wanted to see me all over your skin... those means nothing... - she got undressed and got seated on my lap. So I could draw on her bare back.
- what a about fishes? Don't do something too big because will look horrible if it doesn't vanish evenly.
I wasn't sure of my talent so made something elegant, she loved it so I asked her to try again and she let me do something on her ribs... I looked at my work and hated those dammit butterflies.
I grabbed the red pen and worked on more butterflies until I realized that she was all painted in red and black.
- Sorry... those half assed ones behind your ear... we can erase them.
- No... those were your punishment. When someone punish others ... they get hurt too - She got dressed, I am not going to forget about today.
Yoongi Hyung arrived to get her.
- Yoongi is here?- she asked from my bathroom Yoongi didn't stopped longer than the necessary for her to collect her things and get her shoes back to walk outside.
SUGA'S P/V:
Jungkook kissed her, on her lips carefully because she could hit him.
- Still, I will be a bastard with you... sorry - he said before looking at me and getting his hands on his pockets to dissappear somewhere in his apartment.
- Baika... I called her.
- Hope you are happy... he can't control himself like Jin, and you can't be for me even if I call you - she hushed so solftly that, I thought she passed the time I needed to get her crying to maintain him away.
- The princess is perfectly fine, you were worried for nothing Min - he jokes and Baika hit him, once and again... the idiot was there without defense until I put my arms around her and said that was enough.
- Sorry love, he can get a ride on the other car.... calm down.
She hugged me and I felt her nose on my neck, those last minute changes inside a car wasn't the best idea for someone that have been kidnapped twice. I didn't wanted to blame her nothing of that was something she provoked.
It was because of my past that she was a target because I couldn't let her go... I don't want to be without her.
And if she doesn't stay me... then at least be sure she is not going to fall on bad hands... better someone who earned my respect.
- What were you doing with Jungkook? - I asked, the car was ridiculously silent.
- Fortunately you got my call and heard you telling me that you were going to pick me up, next time order him to bring me home straight, talk to him about what his choices.
- One apartment or another...
- At home your sword is the first thing anyone can see, I can leave him outside... he knows that I'm dangerous with that thing. I can cut his balls if he gets stubborn... probably that way cansing higher than Jimin - I noticed they know she wasn't kidding or joking.
- That wouldn't work, he finished his puberty long ago. What is what he wanted?
- Sex, what else do you think he is up to do with me? since you gave him permission and... I don't blame you, but certainly would like to know what crised your mind that day - she didn't rised her voice... she managed to do the opposite, the last part wasn't very audible.
- I am not exactly the most adorable, attractive and talented guy in your life.
- Nobody was interested in me when I was alone, you rescued me from myself.
- That doesn't mean means that you have to devote yourself to me... there are plenty of nice things....- she kissed me.
- I don't care Yoongi, if I wanted other dudes wouldn't be yours in the first place... If he tries something alike again, I promise you.... that the last of your problems will be me.
- What shit is that?!- there was something red.
- Butterflies?
- Baika!! Dammit woman!!...Baika!!! Wait!!! - with the shock I forgot how to unbelt myself to be able to leave the car and she ignored me in front of my men. She is going to drive me insane before I can tell her about my double life.
- Sir do want to teach her a lesson?- the voice of the mistreated man says.
- I know that reading information about my wife must be the last thing you wanna do, but at least remember to ask a head up to your team... and never call her princess, she hates that especially when she is not near me... can be more calm if you insult her... please don't do that either, My wife is really sweet, still believing you are my bodyguards send by my agency. Will gift nice things will donate new uniforms, anything to makes you happy being my shadow. Because I am her sole reason to be here.
-Using your money, I will do too - he scoffed
- She pays me to be her husband, she rised a 0,01% to an 1% because she trusts me... and no, she didn't wanted to marry me... but that makes me happy, so she is mine, don't try weird stuff... Your family will grateful to know the whereabouts of your corpse.
- Bastard, what are you going to... don't answer that. - I laughed to go home after telling them to do the usual, we are more active now that I'm not occupied producing music.
BABY'S P/V:
☎️ - Baika...
📲- excuse me who's talking?
☎️ - It doesn't matter.... what do you know about your husband?
📲 - mmm... not much but it doesn't bother me.
☎️ - he is behind your money.
📲- I see... do you wanna stop him don't you?... let's meet.
☎️ - I like you.... when and were.
📲 - You are the busy one, text me.
- Beautiful... who was that? - Yoongi hugged me looking to the screen of my phone.
- I don't know... someone that hates your guts.
- mmm... I don't understand, but you are forbidden to meet weird people.
- He got my number... probably knows more than necessary about me but he asked me what I knew about you.
- my past is dark.... wouldn't like to talk about it right now.
- okay... whatever.... are you hungry?
- Baika....
- mmmm... you said that don't want to talk about it.
- are you going to meet him?
- yes... wanna know what he has to say. I am curious.
- It will be dangerous... and what he has to say... is probably....sorry...I am not a nice guy.
- Still... I love you.
- Ana...
- Do you like it?
- It's a real tattoo?
- no, it's just a permanent marker.
- then I love it... is way better than the butterflies... those suck specifically those three behind your ear... I can draw better.
- Jungkook wasn't being reasonable... I punished him to paint me.
- can I kiss you?
- yes...please... kiss me Yoongi - he closed his eyes and sighed frustrated before pressing our lips together.
- I am not a criminal... but have done enough to end my days as miserable as I was long ago.
- I have a past too.
- Not like mine.
- I don't know...we don't talk about that.
- Who called you?
- Someone telling me that you are behind my money - she laughed
- Maybe I am... I adore having money because I never had it when I was a child.
- Me neither, I did the necessary to reach my present situation.
- We are married and I couldn't be more happier, you know what to do with this? - he teasedme to keep getting undressed
- Had to learn how to not end like my father.
- wow... I like this one.... but isn't your father lost somewhere between your country and his?
- mmmm .... he used to call for money until he tried to sell me. I couldn't find traces of him anymore.
- I remember... why are you telling me? I have asked about the call.
- They are using my father's number... I know is not him....long ago noticed that his identity was being used sometimes, specially in the States, never out the country but it wasn't him.
- How do you know?
- I never changed my phones numbers. And to me is not that difficult to track people.
- Hacking?
- Old style, without leaving traces, being on the right places at the right time. Using my brain to connect dots, nothing awesome, things like how do you smell what you like... my father selled my hability to predict habits but this time they spoke in your language, using his number to meet me... I think that maybe there is something I should know... maybe... If you want.
- Sorry... I like you so much to tell you.
- Mmmm... I see... you don't need excuses with me, I have secrets... you have secrets, we are being fair.
- Look, if I did something... - Yoongi couldn't take hes eyes from the ink all over me following them with his fingers because his touch can't erase them. I kissed him to stop his lips.
- You wanted this... to know that I was doing something with Jungkook ... now that you have me all tinted and corrupted... don't you regret it? Because I do regret to be so incompetent to keep my integrity since I fell for you. Now everyone can see it, the unpleasant me.
Yoongi hated it all, he wanted to take it all and use his own skin to cover my body. He was convinced that it was a great idea... Doesn't feels good to become exactly the wort version of myself... someone that can have all.
Something was being destroyed inside of him... but actually I don't know what I broke without permission.