“You idiot. I like you.
“I like you, Miss Yeoju.”
“.....I..Team Leader..”
“I will wait.”
“...”
“I know it’s hard for you, Miss Yeoju. I’ve seen it.
Until I get better and look at myself.
So until you come to me.
“I’ll wait.”
“...”
“That much, you’ll allow it, right?”
The team leader and I become lovers,
I've imagined it at least once.
But I've only imagined it, I've never thought about it.
The team leader likes me.
From the moment those words were uttered,
All the emotions were mixed together and became unrecognizable.
My emotions that I was trying to organize little by little,
Shaking uncontrollably
It means that even I don't know anymore.
“.....Let’s eat dinner later...”
I couldn't give any answer.
I'm sorry I couldn't answer.
I opened the car door and got out.
My heart started pounding so hard,
It falls again with a loud thud, causing pain.
It hurts so much that tears well up in my eyes,
My heart felt like it was being torn apart by the desire to somehow endure it.
Before I knew it, the team leader got out of the car following me, grabbed my hand, and turned me around.
“Wait a minute. This isn’t right...
“I’d rather refuse.”
He didn't even refuse, he just ran away.
“I know it’s still hard.
I'll just wait quietly without saying anything.
therefore....
“Don’t go.”
The team leader was embarrassed by the tears that flowed down his face, unable to bear it.
I don't want to go either.
When I'm with the team leader
My mind is at ease, and my gloomy life becomes brighter.
Days that are just days become more special.
I didn't know.
Even though my heart is not directed towards the team leader
That's what it means to look at him.
But I had to turn a blind eye.
Every time I see the team leader, I'm sure I'll think of Ui-geon. That's not a welcome sight for anyone...
That's the hand the team leader held,
The team leader who tells me not to let go, not to go, with his eyes...
This is the reason why I have no choice but to let it go.
"...let me go..."
Pushing the team leader's hand away with the other hand,
I'm sorry, I can only offer a single apology...
I had no other choice.
"I told you I'd wait...
I told you I'm confident I can wait.."
I was not confident.
I wasn't confident that I could forget the medical condition.
I don't have the confidence to love anyone else.
If there is a beginning, there is an end.
I know that saying so well,
If only I don't change, if only you don't change,
I thought eternity might be possible.
But something like 'eternity',
It didn't exist.
".....I'm not confident...."
Eventually, I turn away from him.
This is for me and for the team leader
I thought it would be good for both of us.
When I pushed the team leader away and started walking further away
Tears flowed out of the complicated emotions that were mixed together.
It just became sad.
About a month has passed since the day I turned away from his heart, from my heart.
The dinner appointment naturally became something that never happened,
The next day when I met him again at work, the team leader didn't even make eye contact with me.
I thought it was better.
I thought it would be best to sort things out before my mind grew.
but..
The team leader who avoids my eyes, the team leader who doesn't even say hello to me,
It's been a month since I've been hurting.
There hasn't been a single day of pouring rain in a month,
That's why Yi Geon never came back.
After this incident, I developed a habit of checking the weather forecast every morning before going to work.
Then today, the weather forecast said it would rain a lot.
"I... Team Leader... Today..."
"Personal matters are off-limits during work hours.
"Is this work-related?"
The team leader who used to call me “Yeoju” affectionately disappeared somewhere and became “Ms. Kim Yeoju” again with a stiff “I told you so” tone.
In our conversation, the company people would once again talk about 'they broke up', 'they fought', 'who got dumped', etc., and for about a week, whenever Team Leader Nana was seen, it would always become a topic of conversation during lunch and our love story.
Even though I thought it was fortunate in my head,
I was secretly a bit disappointed.
I never thought we would distance ourselves this much...
It's raining heavily today. What are you planning to do when Yi-Geon comes back?
They didn't even give me time to ask this.
It's basic not to even look at someone when you talk to them.
It was difficult to even get a proper answer.
But if this is how he gets over me,
It was something I couldn't even say.
It was natural that the rest would fall to me.
Today, I was planning to leave work early just in case it rained.
If Eui-geon comes back and I'm not home, I'll have to stand in the rain.
"I'm leaving work~"
It was time to leave work. One by one, people were leaving their seats, and I was also packing my bags, keeping an eye on things.
"Oh, ma'am! What I gave you earlier,
"Do I have to finish it and send it by tomorrow? Please~"
"Until tomorrow..?"
But it seemed like I wouldn't be able to avoid working overtime today either.
"Ha... what should I do..."
While I was muttering quietly to myself, my eyes met with the team leader's.
The team leader, whose eyes I had met for the first time in almost a month, looked at me for a moment, thought about something, and then turned his gaze away from me again.
It seemed like the team leader was leaving work.
"I...!"
You even ignored my call.
I worked hard, even skipping dinner, to finish the work as quickly as possible.
People working overtime started finishing up one by one, and the sound of typing on the computers became quiet.
The work was finished only when I was left alone in the company.
He put his hand on my shoulder and spun it around, stretching my neck.
You asked me to send what I gave you late this afternoon by tomorrow.
No matter how much I think about it, it's absurd.
I put on my coat, packed my bag, turned off the lights, and went outside.
When I came outside, it had already started to rain.
When I checked the time, it was a little past 10 o'clock.
It was overtime work that ended relatively early compared to yesterday.
If I go home at this time, it will be before Eui-Geon returns.
I ran outside in a hurry,
Oops..!!
When I heard it was going to rain, I was so caught up in thinking about Eui-geon that I forgot to bring an umbrella.
Ha... Kim Yeo-ju, you're an idiot...
I sighed deeply and banged my head against my own stupid self.
I was about to run, putting my bag over my head, taking a deep breath, and deciding to just run to the bus stop.
"You knew it was going to rain, so why didn't you bring an umbrella?"
It was the team leader who handed me an umbrella.
"Team Leader...? Why is the Team Leader here...
You just got off work earlier.."
"Here we go again. It's raining like this.
"Take it."
The car made a noise when the team leader pressed the key.
It was the team leader's car that I had been driving for a month.
Give me your only umbrella,
The team leader ran and got into the driver's seat.
When I got into the passenger seat,
Without even a single word of the usual advice to wear an eye belt
The car started.